See to it that you do not
become a fashionable artist. At present your colouring begins to
assert itself too loudly; and your drawing is at times quite weak;
you are already striving after the fashionable style, because it
strikes the eye at once. Have a care! society already begins to
have its attraction for you: I have seen you with a shiny hat, a
foppish neckerchief… . It is seductive to paint fashionable little
pictures and portraits for money; but talent is ruined, not
developed, by that means. Be patient; think out every piece of
work, discard your foppishness; let others amass money, your own
will not fail you."
The professor was partly right. Our artist sometimes wanted to
enjoy himself, to play the fop, in short, to give vent to his
youthful impulses in some way or other; but he could control
himself withal. At times he would forget everything, when he had
once taken his brush in his hand, and could not tear himself from
it except as from a delightful dream. His taste perceptibly
developed. He did not as yet understand all the depths of Raphael,
but he was attracted by Guido's broad and rapid handling, he paused
before Titian's portraits, he delighted in the Flemish masters. The
dark veil enshrouding the ancient pictures had not yet wholly
passed away from before them; but he already saw something in them,
though in private he did not agree with the professor that the
secrets of the old masters are irremediably lost to us. It seemed
to him that the nineteenth century had improved upon them
considerably, that the delineation of nature was more clear, more
vivid, more close. It sometimes vexed him when he saw how a strange
artist, French or German, sometimes not even a painter by
profession, but only a skilful dauber, produced, by the celerity of
his brush and the vividness of his colouring, a universal
commotion, and amassed in a twinkling a funded capital. This did
not occur to him when fully occupied with his own work, for then he
forgot food and drink and all the world. But when dire want
arrived, when he had no money wherewith to buy brushes and colours,
when his implacable landlord came ten times a day to demand the
rent for his rooms, then did the luck of the wealthy artists recur
to his hungry imagination; then did the thought which so often
traverses Russian minds, to give up altogether, and go down hill,
utterly to the bad, traverse his. And now he was almost in this
frame of mind.
"Yes, it is all very well, to be patient, be patient!" he
exclaimed, with vexation; "but there is an end to patience at last.
Be patient! but what money have I to buy a dinner with to-morrow?
No one will lend me any. If I did bring myself to sell all my
pictures and sketches, they would not give me twenty kopeks for the
whole of them. They are useful; I feel that not one of them has
been undertaken in vain; I have learned something from each one.
Yes, but of what use is it? Studies, sketches, all will be studies,
trial-sketches to the end. And who will buy, not even knowing me by
name? Who wants drawings from the antique, or the life class, or my
unfinished love of a Psyche, or the interior of my room, or the
portrait of Nikita, though it is better, to tell the truth, than
the portraits by any of the fashionable artists? Why do I worry,
and toil like a learner over the alphabet, when I might shine as
brightly as the rest, and have money, too, like them?"
Thus speaking, the artist suddenly shuddered, and turned pale. A
convulsively distorted face gazed at him, peeping forth from the
surrounding canvas; two terrible eyes were fixed straight upon him;
on the mouth was written a menacing command of silence. Alarmed, he
tried to scream and summon Nikita, who already was snoring in the
ante-room; but he suddenly paused and laughed. The sensation of
fear died away in a moment; it was the portrait he had bought, and
which he had quite forgotten. The light of the moon illuminating
the chamber had fallen upon it, and lent it a strange likeness to
life.
He began to examine it. He moistened a sponge with water, passed
it over the picture several times, washed off nearly all the
accumulated and incrusted dust and dirt, hung it on the wall before
him, wondering yet more at the remarkable workmanship. The whole
face had gained new life, and the eyes gazed at him so that he
shuddered; and, springing back, he exclaimed in a voice of
surprise: "It looks with human eyes!" Then suddenly there occurred
to him a story he had heard long before from his professor, of a
certain portrait by the renowned Leonardo da Vinci, upon which the
great master laboured several years, and still regarded as
incomplete, but which, according to Vasari, was nevertheless deemed
by all the most complete and finished product of his art. The most
finished thing about it was the eyes, which amazed his
contemporaries; the very smallest, barely visible veins in them
being reproduced on the canvas.
But in the portrait now before him there was something singular.
It was no longer art; it even destroyed the harmony of the
portrait; they were living, human eyes! It seemed as though they
had been cut from a living man and inserted. Here was none of that
high enjoyment which takes possession of the soul at the sight of
an artist's production, no matter how terrible the subject he may
have chosen.
Again he approached the portrait, in order to observe those
wondrous eyes, and perceived, with terror, that they were gazing at
him. This was no copy from Nature; it was life, the strange life
which might have lighted up the face of a dead man, risen from the
grave. Whether it was the effect of the moonlight, which brought
with it fantastic thoughts, and transformed things into strange
likenesses, opposed to those of matter-of-fact day, or from some
other cause, but it suddenly became terrible to him, he knew not
why, to sit alone in the room. He draw back from the portrait,
turned aside, and tried not to look at it; but his eye
involuntarily, of its own accord, kept glancing sideways towards
it. Finally, he became afraid to walk about the room.
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