But not
this, oh! not this," and he covered his face with his hands as if to
shut out the sight of something before him.
"Do not send for me again, Miss Leicester," he said with more
composure. "I can do nothing in this house. Good-bye."
As I watched him totter down the steps; and along the pavement
towards his house, it seemed to me that he had aged by ten years
since the morning.
My brother remained in his room. He called out to me in a voice I
hardly recognized that he was very busy, and would like his meals
brought to his door and left there, and I gave the order to the
servants. From that day it seemed as if the arbitrary conception we
call time had been annihilated for me; I lived in an ever-present
sense of horror, going through the routine of the house mechanically,
and only speaking a few necessary words to the servants. Now and then
I went out and paced the streets for an hour or two and came home
again; but whether I were without or within, my spirit delayed before
the closed door of the upper room, and, shuddering, waited for it to
open. I have said that I scarcely reckoned time; but I suppose it
must have been a fortnight after Dr. Haberden's visit that I came
home from my stroll a little refreshed and lightened. The air was
sweet and pleasant, and the hazy form of green leaves, floating
cloud-like in the square, and the smell of blossoms, had charmed my
senses, and I felt happier and walked more briskly. As I delayed a
moment at the verge of the pavement, waiting for a van to pass by
before crossing over to the house, I happened to look up at the
windows, and instantly there was the rush and swirl of deep cold
waters in my ears, my heart leapt up and fell down, down as into a
deep hollow, and I was amazed with a dread and terror without form or
shape. I streched out a hand blindly through the folds of thick
darkness, from the black and shadowy valley, and held myself from
falling, while the stones beneath my feet rocked and swayed and
tilted, and the sense of solid things seemed to sink away from under
me. I had glanced up at the window of my brother's study, and at that
moment the blind was drawn aside, and something that had life stared
out into the world. Nay, I cannot say I saw a face or any human
likeness; a living thing, two eyes of burning flame glared at me, and
they were in the midst of something as formless as my fear, the
symbol and presence of all evil and all hideous corruption. I stood
shuddering and quaking as with the grip of ague, sick with
unspeakable agonies of fear and loathing, and for five minutes I
could not summon force or motion to my limbs. When I was within the
door, I ran up the stairs to my brother's room and knocked.
"Francis, Francis," I cried, "for Heaven's sake, answer me. What
is the horrible thing in your room? Cast it out, Francis; cast it
from you."
I heard a noise as of feet shuffling slowly and awkwardly, and a
choking, gurgling sound, as if some one was struggling to find
utterance, and then the noise of a voice, broken and stifled, and
words that I could scarcely understand.
"There is nothing here," the voice said. "Pray do not disturb me.
I am not very well to-day."
I turned away, horrified, and yet helpless. I could do nothing,
and I wondered why Francis had lied to me, for I had seen the
appearance beyond the glass too plainly to be deceived, though it was
but the sight of a moment. And I sat still, conscious that there had
been something else, something I had seen in the first flash of
terror, before those burning eyes had looked at me.
Suddenly I remembered; as I lifted my face the blind was being
drawn back, and I had had an instant's glance of the thing that was
moving it, and in my recollection I knew that a hideous image was
engraved forever on my brain. It was not a hand; there were no
fingers that held the blind, but a black stump pushed it aside, the
mouldering outline and the clumsy movement as of a beast's paw had
glowed into my senses before the darkling waves of terror had
overwhelmed me as I went down quick into the pit. My mind was aghast
at the thought of this, and of the awful presence that dwelt with my
brother in his room; I went to his door and cried to him again, but
no answer came. That night one of the servants came up to me and told
me in a whisper that for three days food had been regularly placed at
the door and left untouched; the maid had knocked but had received no
answer; she had heard the noise of shuffling feet that I had noticed.
Day after day went by, and still my brother's meals were brought to
his door and left untouched; and though I knocked and called again
and again, I could get no answer. The servants began to talk to me;
it appeared they were as alarmed as I; the cook said that when my
brother first shut himself up in his room she used to hear him come
out at night and go about the house; and once, she said, the hall
door had opened and closed again, but for several nights she had
heard no sound.
The climax came at last; it was in the dusk of the evening, and I
was sitting in the darkening dreary room when a terrible shriek
jarred and rang harshly out of the silence, and I heard a frightened
scurry of feet dashing down the stairs. I waited, and the
servant-maid staggered into the room and faced me, white and
trembling.
"Oh, Miss Helen!" she whispered; "oh! for the Lord's sake, Miss
Helen, what has happened? Look at my hand, miss; look at that hand!"
I drew her to the window, and saw there was a black wet stain upon
her hand.
"I do not understand you," I said. "Will you explain to me?"
"I was doing your room just now," she began. "I was turning down
the bed-clothes, and all of a sudden there was something fell upon my
hand, wet, and I looked up, and the ceiling was black and dripping on
me."
I looked hard at her and bit my lip.
"Come with me," I said. "Bring your candle with you."
The room I slept in was beneath my brother's, and as I went in I
felt I was trembling. I looked up at the ceiling, and saw a patch,
all black and wet, and a dew of black drops upon it, and a pool of
horrible liquor soaking into the white bed-clothes.
I ran upstairs and knocked loudly.
"Oh, Francis, Francis, my dear brother," I cried, "what has
happened to you?"
And I listened. There was a sound of choking, and a noise like
water bubbling and regurgitating, but nothing else, and I called
louder, but no answer came.
In spite of what Dr. Haberden had said, I went to him; with tears
streaming down my cheeks I told him all that had happened, and he
listened to me with a face set hard and grim.
"For your father's sake," he said at last, "I will go with you,
though I can do nothing."
We went out together; the streets were dark and silent, and heavy
with heat and a drought of many weeks.
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