Then had
come Lord Henry Wotton with his strange panegyric on youth, his terrible
warning of its brevity. That had stirred him at the time, and now, as he stood
gazing at the shadow of his own loveliness, the full reality of the description
flashed across him. Yes, there would be a day when his face would be wrinkled
and wizen, his eyes dim and colourless, the grace of his figure broken and
deformed. The scarlet would pass away from his lips and the gold steal from his
hair. The life that was to make his soul would mar his body. He would become
dreadful, hideous, and uncouth.
As he thought of it, a sharp pang of pain struck through him like a knife
and made each delicate fibre of his nature quiver. His eyes deepened into
amethyst, and across them came a mist of tears. He felt as if a hand of ice had
been laid upon his heart.
“Don’t you like it?” cried Hallward at last, stung a
little by the lad’s silence, not understanding what it meant.
“Of course he likes it,” said Lord Henry. “Who
wouldn’t like it? It is one of the greatest things in modern art. I will
give you anything you like to ask for it. I must have it.”
“It is not my property, Harry.”
“Whose property is it?”
“Dorian’s, of course,” answered the painter.
“He is a very lucky fellow.”
“How sad it is!” murmured Dorian Gray with his eyes still fixed
upon his own portrait. “How sad it is! I shall grow old, and horrible,
and dreadful. But this picture will remain always young. It will never be older
than this particular day of June. . . . If it were only the other
way! If it were I who was to be always young, and the picture that was to grow
old! For that – for that – I would give everything! Yes, there is
nothing in the whole world I would not give! I would give my soul for
that!”
“You would hardly care for such an arrangement, Basil,” cried
Lord Henry, laughing. “It would be rather hard lines on your
work.”
“I should object very strongly, Harry,” said Hallward.
Dorian Gray turned and looked at him. “I believe you would, Basil. You
like your art better than your friends. I am no more to you than a green bronze
figure. Hardly as much, I dare say.”
The painter stared in amazement. It was so unlike Dorian to speak like that.
What had happened? He seemed quite angry. His face was flushed and his cheeks
burning.
“Yes,” he continued, “I am less to you than your ivory
Hermes or your silver Faun. You will like them always. How long will you like
me? Till I have my first wrinkle, I suppose. I know, now, that when one loses
one’s good looks, whatever they may be, one loses everything. Your
picture has taught me that. Lord Henry Wotton is perfectly right. Youth is the
only thing worth having. When I find that I am growing old, I shall kill
myself.”
Hallward turned pale and caught his hand.
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