Of course I flatter him
dreadfully. I find a strange pleasure in saying things to him that I know I
shall be sorry for having said. As a rule, he is charming to me, and we sit in
the studio and talk of a thousand things. Now and then, however, he is horribly
thoughtless, and seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. Then I feel,
Harry, that I have given away my whole soul to some one who treats it as if it
were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an
ornament for a summer’s day.”
“Days in summer, Basil, are apt to linger,” murmured Lord Henry.
“Perhaps you will tire sooner than he will. It is a sad thing to think
of, but there is no doubt that genius lasts longer than beauty. That accounts
for the fact that we all take such pains to over-educate ourselves. In the wild
struggle for existence, we want to have something that endures, and so we fill
our minds with rubbish and facts, in the silly hope of keeping our place. The
thoroughly well-informed man – that is the modern ideal. And the mind of
the thoroughly well-informed man is a dreadful thing. It is like a bric-a-brac
shop, all monsters and dust, with everything priced above its proper value. I
think you will tire first, all the same. Some day you will look at your friend,
and he will seem to you to be a little out of drawing, or you won’t like
his tone of colour, or something. You will bitterly reproach him in your own
heart, and seriously think that he has behaved very badly to you. The next time
he calls, you will be perfectly cold and indifferent. It will be a great pity,
for it will alter you. What you have told me is quite a romance, a romance of
art one might call it, and the worst of having a romance of any kind is that it
leaves one so unromantic.”
“Harry, don’t talk like that. As long as I live, the personality
of Dorian Gray will dominate me. You can’t feel what I feel. You change
too often.”
“Ah, my dear Basil, that is exactly why I can feel it. Those who are
faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know
love’s tragedies.” And Lord Henry struck a light on a dainty silver
case and began to smoke a cigarette with a self-conscious and satisfied air, as
if he had summed up the world in a phrase. There was a rustle of chirruping
sparrows in the green lacquer leaves of the ivy, and the blue cloud-shadows
chased themselves across the grass like swallows. How pleasant it was in the
garden! And how delightful other people’s emotions were! – much
more delightful than their ideas, it seemed to him. One’s own soul, and
the passions of one’s friends – those were the fascinating things
in life. He pictured to himself with silent amusement the tedious luncheon that
he had missed by staying so long with Basil Hallward. Had he gone to his
aunt’s, he would have been sure to have met Lord Goodbody there, and the
whole conversation would have been about the feeding of the poor and the
necessity for model lodging-houses. Each class would have preached the
importance of those virtues, for whose exercise there was no necessity in their
own lives. The rich would have spoken on the value of thrift, and the idle
grown eloquent over the dignity of labour. It was charming to have escaped all
that! As he thought of his aunt, an idea seemed to strike him. He turned to
Hallward and said, “My dear fellow, I have just remembered.”
“Remembered what, Harry?”
“Where I heard the name of Dorian Gray.”
“Where was it?” asked Hallward, with a slight frown.
“Don’t look so angry, Basil.
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