I won't
believe it.' But the flush soon faded and his apathy returned. 'After all,' he
said, 'I shouldn't wonder if it were so. Our day is past, I suppose, and for
all I know they may be construing the Breviary and playing dominoes at X. in a
few years' time.'
"I
am afraid that those last years at Wareham were far from happy. He felt, I think, out
of tune with his surroundings, and, pace
the readers of the Guardian, I doubt
whether he was ever quite at home in his stall. He confessed to one of his old
associates that he doubted the wisdom of the whole Cathedral system. 'What,' he
said, in his old characteristic manner, 'would St. Peter say if he could enter
this building and see that gorgeous window in which he is represented with
mitre, cope and keys?' And I do not think that he was ever quite reconciled to
the daily recitation of the Liturgy, accompanied as it is in such establishments
by elaborate music and all the pomp of the surpliced choir. 'Rome and water,
Rome and water!' he has been heard to mutter under his breath as the procession
swept up the nave, and before he died I think that he had the satisfaction of
feeling that many in high places were coming round to his views.
"But
to the very last he never forgot Lupton. A year or two before he died he wrote
the great school song, 'Follow, follow, follow!' He
was pleased, I know, when it appeared in the Luptonian, and a famous Old Boy informs me that he will never
forget Horbury's delight when he was told that the song was already a great
favourite in 'Chantry.' To many of your readers the words will be familiar; but
I cannot resist quoting the first verse:
"I am getting old and grey and the hills
seem far away, And I cannot hear the horn that once proclaimed the morn When we
sallied forth upon the chase together; For the years are gone—alack!—when we
hastened on the track, And the huntsman's whip went crack! as
a signal to our pack Riding in the sunshine and fair weather. And yet across
the ground I seem to hear a sound, A sound that comes
up floating from the hollow; And its note is very clear As it echoes in my ear,
And the words are: 'Lupton, follow, follow, follow!' Chorus. "Lupton, follow
away! The darkness lies behind us, and before us is the day. Follow, follow the
sun, The whole world's to be won, So, Lupton, follow,
follow, follow, follow away!
"An
old pupil sang this verse to him on his death-bed, and I think, perhaps, that
some at least of the readers of the Guardian
will allow that George Horbury died 'fortified,' in the truest sense, 'with the
rites of the Church'—the Church of a Great Aspiration."
Such
was the impression that Mr. Horbury had evidently made upon some of his oldest
friends; but Meyrick was, to the last, an infidel. He read the verses in the Guardian (he would never subscribe to
the Luptonian) and jeered savagely at
the whole sentiment of the memoir, and at the poetry, too.
"Isn't
it incredible?" he would say. "Let's allow that the main purpose of
the great Public Schools is to breed brave average boobies by means of rocker,
sticker and mucker and the rest of it. Still, they do acknowledge that they
have a sort of parergon—the teaching
of two great literatures, two literatures that have moulded the whole of
Western thought for more than two thousand years. And they pay an animal like
this to teach these literatures—a swine that has not enough literature of any
kind in him to save the soul of a louse! Look at those verses! Why, a decent
fourth form boy would be ashamed to put his name to them!"
He
was foolish to talk in this fashion. People merely said that it was evident he
was one of the failures of the great Public School system; and the song was
much admired in the right circles. A very well-turned idem Latine appeared in the Guardian
shortly after the publication of the memoir, and the initials at the foot of
the version were recognised as those of a literary dean.
And on that autumn evening, far away in the 'seventies, Meyrick,
the boy, left Mr. Horbury's study in a white fury of grief and pain and rage.
He would have murdered his master without the faintest compunction, nay, with
huge delight. Psychologically, his frame of mind was quite interesting, though
he was only a schoolboy who had just had a sound thrashing for breaking rules.
For
the fact, of course, was that Horbury, the irritating influence of the Head's
conversation and sherry apart, was by no means a bad fellow. He was for the
moment savagely cruel, but then, most men are apt to be savagely cruel when
they suffer from an inflamed liver and offensive superiors,
more especially when there is an inferior, warranted defenceless, in their
power. But, in the main, Horbury was a very decent specimen of his class—English
schoolmaster—and Meyrick would never allow that. In all his reasoning about
schools and schoolmasters there was a fatal flaw—he blamed both for not being
what they never pretended to be. To use a figure that would have appealed to
him, it was if one quarrelled with a plain, old-fashioned meeting-house because
it was not in the least like Lincoln Cathedral. A chimney may not be a
decorative object, but then it does not profess to be a spire or a pinnacle far
in the spiritual city.
But
Meyrick was always scolding meeting-houses because they were not cathedrals. He
has been heard to rave for hours against useful, unpretentious chimney-pots
because they bore no resemblance to celestial spires. Somehow or other,
possibly by inheritance, possibly by the influence of his father's
companionship, he had unconsciously acquired a theory of life which bore no
relation whatever to the facts of it. The theory was manifest in his later
years; but it must have been stubbornly, if vaguely, present in him all through
his boyhood. Take, for instance, his comment on poor Canon Horbury's verses.
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