My head
swam, there was no doubt about it, and I felt a certain heaviness
of limbs as if they had grown bigger since I had sat down on that
chair. I made my bow.
A subtle change in Captain Ellis' manner became perceptible as
though he had laid aside the trident of deputy-Neptune. In reality,
it was only his official pen that he had dropped on getting up.
II
He shook hands with me: "Well, there you are, on your own,
appointed officially under my responsibility."
He was actually walking with me to the door. What a distance off
it seemed! I moved like a man in bonds. But we reached it at last.
I opened it with the sensation of dealing with mere dream-stuff,
and then at the last moment the fellowship of seamen asserted
itself, stronger than the difference of age and station. It
asserted itself in Captain Ellis' voice.
"Good-bye—and good luck to you," he said so heartily that I
could only give him a grateful glance. Then I turned and went out,
never to see him again in my life. I had not made three steps into
the outer office when I heard behind my back a gruff, loud,
authoritative voice, the voice of our deputy-Neptune.
It was addressing the head Shipping-Master who, having let me
in, had, apparently, remained hovering in the middle distance ever
since. "Mr. R., let the harbour launch have steam up to take the
captain here on board the Melita at half-past nine to-night."
I was amazed at the startled alacrity of R's "Yes, sir." He ran
before me out on the landing. My new dignity sat yet so lightly on
me that I was not aware that it was I, the Captain, the object of
this last graciousness. It seemed as if all of a sudden a pair of
wings had grown on my shoulders. I merely skimmed along the
polished floor.
But R. was impressed.
"I say!" he exclaimed on the landing, while the Malay crew of
the steam-launch standing by looked stonily at the man for whom
they were going to be kept on duty so late, away from their
gambling, from their girls, or their pure domestic joys. "I say!
His own launch. What have you done to him?"
His stare was full of respectful curiosity. I was quite
confounded.
"Was it for me? I hadn't the slightest notion," I stammered
out.
He nodded many times. "Yes. And the last person who had it
before you was a Duke. So, there!"
I think he expected me to faint on the spot. But I was in too
much of a hurry for emotional displays. My feelings were already in
such a whirl that this staggering information did not seem to make
the slightest difference. It merely fell into the seething cauldron
of my brain, and I carried it off with me after a short but
effusive passage of leave-taking with R.
The favour of the great throws an aureole round the fortunate
object of its selection. That excellent man enquired whether he
could do anything for me. He had known me only by sight, and he was
well aware he would never see me again; I was, in common with the
other seamen of the port, merely a subject for official writing,
filling up of forms with all the artificial superiority of a man of
pen and ink to the men who grapple with realities outside the
consecrated walls of official buildings. What ghosts we must have
been to him! Mere symbols to juggle with in books and heavy
registers, without brains and muscles and perplexities; something
hardly useful and decidedly inferior.
And he—the office hours being over—wanted to know if he could be
of any use to me!
I ought—properly speaking—I ought to have been moved to tears.
But I did not even think of it. It was merely another miraculous
manifestation of that day of miracles. I parted from him as if he
were a mere symbol. I floated down the staircase. I floated out of
the official and imposing portal.
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