fib!"
Observing me the young lady came over and asked me did I wish to buy
anything. The tone of her voice was not encouraging; she seemed to have
spoken to me out of a sense of duty. I looked humbly at the great jars
that stood like eastern guards at either side of the dark entrance to the
stall and murmured:
"No, thank you."
The young lady changed the position of one of the vases and went back to
the two young men. They began to talk of the same subject. Once or twice
the young lady glanced at me over her shoulder.
I lingered before her stall, though I knew my stay was useless, to make my
interest in her wares seem the more real. Then I turned away slowly and
walked down the middle of the bazaar. I allowed the two pennies to fall
against the sixpence in my pocket. I heard a voice call from one end of
the gallery that the light was out. The upper part of the hall was now
completely dark.
Gazing up into the darkness I saw myself as a creature driven and derided
by vanity; and my eyes burned with anguish and anger.
EVELINE
SHE sat at the window watching the evening invade the avenue. Her head was
leaned against the window curtains and in her nostrils was the odour of
dusty cretonne. She was tired.
Few people passed. The man out of the last house passed on his way home;
she heard his footsteps clacking along the concrete pavement and
afterwards crunching on the cinder path before the new red houses. One
time there used to be a field there in which they used to play every
evening with other people's children. Then a man from Belfast bought the
field and built houses in it—not like their little brown houses but
bright brick houses with shining roofs. The children of the avenue used to
play together in that field—the Devines, the Waters, the Dunns,
little Keogh the cripple, she and her brothers and sisters. Ernest,
however, never played: he was too grown up. Her father used often to hunt
them in out of the field with his blackthorn stick; but usually little
Keogh used to keep nix and call out when he saw her father coming. Still
they seemed to have been rather happy then. Her father was not so bad
then; and besides, her mother was alive. That was a long time ago; she and
her brothers and sisters were all grown up; her mother was dead. Tizzie
Dunn was dead, too, and the Waters had gone back to England. Everything
changes. Now she was going to go away like the others, to leave her home.
Home! She looked round the room, reviewing all its familiar objects which
she had dusted once a week for so many years, wondering where on earth all
the dust came from. Perhaps she would never see again those familiar
objects from which she had never dreamed of being divided. And yet during
all those years she had never found out the name of the priest whose
yellowing photograph hung on the wall above the broken harmonium beside
the coloured print of the promises made to Blessed Margaret Mary Alacoque.
He had been a school friend of her father. Whenever he showed the
photograph to a visitor her father used to pass it with a casual word:
"He is in Melbourne now."
She had consented to go away, to leave her home. Was that wise? She tried
to weigh each side of the question. In her home anyway she had shelter and
food; she had those whom she had known all her life about her. Of course
she had to work hard, both in the house and at business. What would they
say of her in the Stores when they found out that she had run away with a
fellow? Say she was a fool, perhaps; and her place would be filled up by
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