There was — nothing.
The trees were very thick just there, big trees all of them,
spruce, cedar, hemlock; there was no underbrush. He stood looking about
him, all distraught; bereft of any power of judgment. Then he set to
work to search again, and again, and yet again, but always with the
same result: nothing. The feet that printed the surface of the snow
thus far had now, apparently, left the ground!
And it was in that moment of distress and confusion that the whip
of terror laid its most nicely calculated lash about his heart. It
dropped with deadly effect upon the sorest spot of all, completely
unnerving him. He had been secretly dreading all the time that it would
come — and come it did.
Far overhead, muted by great height and distance, strangely thinned
and wailing, he heard the crying voice of Defago, the guide.
The sound dropped upon him out of that still, wintry sky with an
effect of dismay and terror unsurpassed. The rifle fell to his feet. He
stood motionless an instant, listening as it were with his whole body,
then staggered back against the nearest tree for support, disorganized
hopelessly in mind and spirit. To him, in that moment, it seemed the
most shattering and dislocating experience he had ever known, so that
his heart emptied itself of all feeling whatsoever as by a sudden
draught.
“Oh! oh! This fiery height! Oh, my feet of fire! My burning feet of
fire … !” ran in far, beseeching accents of indescribable appeal
this voice of anguish down the sky. Once it called — then silence
through all the listening wilderness of trees.
And Simpson, scarcely knowing what he did, presently found himself
running wildly to and fro, searching, calling, tripping over roots and
boulders, and flinging himself in a frenzy of undirected pursuit after
the Caller. Behind the screen of memory and emotion with which
experience veils events, he plunged, distracted and half-deranged,
picking up false lights like a ship at sea, terror in his eyes and
heart and soul. For the Panic of the Wilderness had called to him in
that far voice — the Power of untamed Distance — the Enticement of
the Desolation that destroys. He knew in that moment all the pains of
some one hopelessly and irretrievably lost, suffering the lust and
travail of a soul in the final Loneliness. A vision of Defago,
eternally hunted, driven and pursued across the skiey vastness of those
ancient forests, fled like a flame across the dark ruin of his thoughts
…
It seemed ages before he could find anything in the chaos of his
disorganized sensations to which he could anchor himself steady for a
moment, and think …
The cry was not repeated; his own hoarse calling brought no
response; the inscrutable forces of the Wild had summoned their victim
beyond recall — and held him fast.
Yet he searched and called, it seems, for hours afterwards, for it
was late in the afternoon when at length he decided to abandon a
useless pursuit and return to his camp on the shores of Fifty Island
Water. Even then he went with reluctance, that crying voice still
echoing in his ears. With difficulty he found his rifle and the
homeward trail. The concentration necessary to follow the badly blazed
trees, and a biting hunger that gnawed, helped to keep his mind steady.
Otherwise, he admits, the temporary aberration he had suffered might
have been prolonged to the point of positive disaster. Gradually the
ballast shifted back again, and he regained something that approached
his normal equilibrium.
But for all that the journey through the gathering dusk was
miserably haunted. He heard innumerable following footsteps; voices
that laughed and whispered; and saw figures crouching behind trees and
boulders, making signs to one another for a concerted attack the moment
he had passed. The creeping murmur of the wind made him start and
listen. He went stealthily, trying to hide where possible, and making
as little sound as he could. The shadows of the woods, hitherto
protective or covering merely, had now become menacing, challenging;
and the pageantry in his frightened mind masked a host of possiblities
that were all the more ominous for being obscure.
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