They were invented
first to fill the place of the zest which fighting and holding one's own
by the strength of one's arm originally gave to man. Now, he has only laws
to combat, instead of a fiercer fellow creature—a dull exchange forsooth!
Here are you and I—mated and wedded and perfectly happy—and yet by these
foolish laws we are sinning, and you would be more nobly employed yawning
with some bony English miss for your wife—and I by the side of a mad,
drunken husband. All because the law made us swear a vow to keep for ever
stationary an emotion! Emotion which we can no more control than the trees
can which way the wind will blow their branches! To love! Oh! yes, they
call it that at the altar—'joined together by God!' As likely as not two
human creatures who hate each other, and are standing there swearing those
impossibilities for some political purpose and advantage of their family.
They desecrate the word love. Love is for us, Paul, who came together
because our beings cried, 'This is my mate!' I should say nothing of
it—oh no! if it had no pretence—marriage. If it were frankly a
contract—'Yes, I give you my body and my dowry.' 'Yes, you give me your
name and your state.' It is of the coarse, horrible things one must pass
through in life—but to call the Great Spirit's blessing upon it, as an
exaltation! To stand there and talk of love! Ah—that is what must make
God angry, and I feel for Him."
Paul noticed that she spoke as if she had no realisation of the lives of
lesser persons who might possibly wed because they were "mated" as
well—not for political reasons or ambition of family. Her keen senses
divined his thought.
"Yes, beloved, you would say—?"
"Only that supposing you were not married to any one else, we should be
swearing the truth if we swore before God that we loved. I would make any
vows to you from my soul, in perfect honesty, for ever and ever, my
darling Queen."
His blue eyes, brimming with devotion and conviction of the truth of his
thought, gazed up at her. And into her strange orbs there came that same
look of tenderness that once before had made them as a mother's watching
the gambols of her babe.
"There, there," she said. "You would swear them and hug your chains of
roses—but because they were chains they would turn heavy as lead. Make no
vows, sweetheart! Fate will force you to break them if you do, and then
the gods are angry and misfortune follows. Swear none, and that fickle one
will keep you passionate, in hopes always to lure you into her
pitfalls—to vow and to break—pain and regret. Live, live, Paul, and
love, and swear nothing at all."
Paul was troubled. "But, but," he said, "don't you believe I shall love
you for ever?"
The lady leant back against the rock and narrowed her eyes.
"That will depend upon me, my Paul," she said. "The duration of love in a
being always depends upon the loved one. I create an emotion in you, as
you create one in me. You do not create it in yourself. It is because
something in my personality causes an answering glow in yours that you
love me. Were you to cease to do so, it would be because I was no longer
able to call forth that answer in you. It would not be your fault any more
than when you cease to please me it will be mine. That is where people are
unjust."
"But surely," said Paul, "it is only the fickle who can change?"
"It is according to one's nature; if one is born a steadfast gentleman,
one is more likely to continue than if one is a farceur—prince or
no—but it depends upon the object of one's love—whether he or she can
hold one or not. One would not blame a needle if it fell from a magnet,
the attraction of the magnet being in some way removed, either by a
stronger at the needle's side, or by some deadening of the drawing quality
in the magnet itself—and so it is in love. Do you follow me, Paul?"
"Yes." said Paul gloomily. "I must try to please you, or you will throw me
away."
"You see," she continued, "the ignorant make vows, and being
weaklings—for the most part—vanity and fate easily remove their
inclination from the loved one; it may not be his fault any more than a
broken leg keeping him from walking would be his fault, beyond the fact
that it was his leg; but we have to suffer for our own things—so there
it is. We will say the weakling's inclination wants to make him break his
vows; so he does, either in the letter or spirit—or both! And then he
feels degraded and cheap and low, as all must do who break their sacred
word given of their own free will when inclination prompted them to. So
how much better to make no vow; then at least when the cord of attraction
snaps, we can go free, still defying the lightning in our untarnished
pride."
"Oh! darling, do not speak of it," cried Paul, "the cord of attraction
between us can never snap. I worship, I adore you—you are just my life,
my darling one, my Queen!"
"Sweet Paul!" she whispered, "oh! so good, so good is love, keep me loving
you, my beautiful one—keep my desire long to be your Queen."
And after this they melted into one another's arms, and cooed and kissed,
and were foolish and incoherent, as lovers always are and have been from
the beginning of old time. More concentrated—more absorbed—than the
sternest Eastern sage—absorbed in each other.
The spirit of two natures vibrating as One.
CHAPTER X
That evening it was so warm and peaceful they dined at the wide-open
balcony windows. They could see far away over the terrace and down to the
lake, with the distant lights towards Lucerne. The moon, still slender and
fine, was drawing to her setting, and a few cloudlets floated over the
sky, obscuring the stars here and there.
The lady was quiet and tender, her eyes melting upon Paul, and something
of her ring-dove mood was upon her again. Not once, since they had been on
the Bürgenstock, had she shown any of the tigerish waywardness that he had
had glimpses of at first.
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