A scandal—another scandal! It mustn't be.
She loathed scandals. And besides, she did believe in the Mahatma.
He had "vision." From the moment when she had picked up that word
in a magazine article she had felt she had a complete answer about
him…
"But I must see you before this evening, Dexter. Wait! I'm
looking over my engagements." She came to "4 p.m. See A. 4.30
Musical—Torfried Lobb." No; she couldn't give up Torfried Lobb:
she was one of the fifty or sixty ladies who had "discovered" him
the previous winter, and she knew he counted on her presence at his
recital. Well, then—for once "A" must be sacrificed.
"Listen, Dexter; if I were to come to the office at 4? Yes; sharp.
Is that right? And don't do anything till I see you—promise!"
She hung up with a sigh of relief. She would try to readjust
things so as to see "A" the next day; though readjusting her list
in the height of the season was as exhausting as a major operation.
In her momentary irritation she was almost inclined to feel as if
it were Arthur's fault for figuring on that day's list, and thus
unsettling all her arrangements. Poor Arthur—from the first he
had been one of her failures. She had a little cemetery of them—a
very small one—planted over with quick–growing things, so that you
might have walked all through her life and not noticed there were
any graves in it. To the inexperienced Pauline of thirty years
ago, fresh from the factory–smoke of Exploit, Arthur Wyant had
symbolized the tempting contrast between a city absorbed in making
money and a society bent on enjoying it. Such a brilliant figure—
and nothing to show for it! She didn't know exactly what she had
expected, her own ideal of manly achievement being at that time
solely based on the power of getting rich faster than your
neighbours—which Arthur would certainly never do. His father–in–
law at Exploit had seen at a glance that it was no use taking him
into the motor–business, and had remarked philosophically to
Pauline: "Better just regard him as a piece of jewellery: I guess
we can afford it."
But jewellery must at least be brilliant; and Arthur had somehow—
faded. At one time she had hoped he might play a part in state
politics—with Washington and its enticing diplomatic society at
the end of the vista—but he shrugged that away as contemptuously
as what he called "trade." At Cedarledge he farmed a little,
fussed over the accounts, and muddled away her money till she
replaced him by a trained superintendent; and in town he spent
hours playing bridge at his club, took an intermittent interest in
racing, and went and sat every afternoon with his mother, old Mrs.
Wyant, in the dreary house near Stuyvesant Square which had never
been "done over," and was still lit by Carcel lamps.
An obstacle and a disappointment; that was what he had always been.
Still, she would have borne with his inadequacy, his resultless
planning, dreaming and dawdling, even his growing tendency to
drink, as the wives of her generation were taught to bear with such
failings, had it not been for the discovery that he was also
"immoral." Immorality no high–minded woman could condone; and
when, on her return from a rest–cure in California, she found that
he had drifted into a furtive love affair with the dependent cousin
who lived with his mother, every law of self–respect known to
Pauline decreed his repudiation. Old Mrs. Wyant, horror–struck,
banished the cousin and pleaded for her son: Pauline was adamant.
She addressed herself to the rising divorce–lawyer, Dexter Manford,
and in his capable hands the affair was settled rapidly,
discreetly, without scandal, wrangling or recrimination. Wyant
withdrew to his mother's house, and Pauline went to Europe, a free
woman.
In the early days of the new century divorce had not become a
social institution in New York, and the blow to Wyant's pride was
deeper than Pauline had foreseen. He lived in complete retirement
at his mother's, saw his boy at the dates prescribed by the court,
and sank into a sort of premature old age which contrasted
painfully—even to Pauline herself—with her own recovered youth
and elasticity. The contrast caused her a retrospective pang, and
gradually, after her second marriage, and old Mrs. Wyant's death,
she came to regard poor Arthur not as a grievance but as a
responsibility. She prided herself on never neglecting her
responsibilities, and therefore felt a not unnatural vexation with
Arthur for having figured among her engagements that day, and thus
obliged her to postpone him.
Moving back to the dressing–table she caught her reflection in the
tall triple glass. Again those fine wrinkles about lids and lips,
those vertical lines between the eyes! She would not permit it;
no, not for a moment. She commanded herself: "Now, Pauline, STOP
WORRYING. You know perfectly well there's no such thing as worry;
it's only dyspepsia or want of exercise, and everything's really
all right—" in the insincere tone of a mother soothing a bruised
baby.
She looked again, and fancied the wrinkles were really fainter, the
vertical lines less deep. Once more she saw before her an erect
athletic woman, with all her hair and all her teeth, and just a
hint of rouge (because "people did it") brightening a still fresh
complexion; saw her small symmetrical features, the black brows
drawn with a light stroke over handsome directly–gazing gray eyes,
the abundant whitening hair which still responded so crisply to the
waver's wand, the firmly planted feet with arched insteps rising to
slim ankles.
How absurd, how unlike herself, to be upset by that foolish news!
She would look in on Dexter and settle the Mahatma business in five
minutes. If there was to be a scandal she wasn't going to have
Dexter mixed up in it—above all not against the Mahatma. She
could never forget that it was the Mahatma who had first told her
she was psychic.
The maid opened an inner door an inch or two to say rebukingly:
"Madam, the hair–dresser; and Miss Bruss asked me to remind you—"
"Yes, yes, yes," Mrs. Manford responded hastily; repeating below
her breath, as she flung herself into her kimono and settled down
before her toilet–table: "Now, I forbid you to let yourself feel
hurried! You KNOW there's no such thing as hurry."
But her eye again turned anxiously to the little clock among her
scent–bottles, and she wondered if she might not save time by
dictating to Maisie Bruss while she was being waved and manicured.
She envied women who had no sense of responsibility—like Jim's
little Lita. As for herself, the only world she knew rested on her
shoulders.
III
At a quarter past one, when Nona arrived at her half–brother's
house, she was told that Mrs. Wyant was not yet down.
"And Mr. Wyant not yet up, I suppose? From his office, I mean,"
she added, as the young butler looked his surprise.
Pauline Manford had been very generous at the time of her son's
marriage.
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