Manstey, who was found in the morning
gasping with pneumonia, a not unnatural result, as everyone remarked, of her
having hung out of an open window at her age in a dressing-gown. It was easy to
see that she was very ill, but no one had guessed how grave the doctor’s
verdict would be, and the faces gathered that evening about Mrs. Sampson’s
table were awestruck and disturbed. Not that any of the boarders knew Mrs.
Manstey well; she “kept to herself,” as they said, and seemed to fancy herself
too good for them; but then it is always disagreeable to have anyone dying in
the house and, as one lady observed to another: “It might just as well have
been you or me, my dear.”
But
it was only Mrs. Manstey; and she was dying, as she had lived, lonely if not
alone. The doctor had sent a trained nurse, and Mrs. Sampson, with muffled
step, came in from time to time; but both, to Mrs. Manstey, seemed remote and
unsubstantial as the figures in a dream. All day she said nothing; but when she
was asked for her daughter’s address she shook her head. At times the nurse
noticed that she seemed to be listening attentively for some sound which did
not come; then again she dozed.
The
next morning at daylight she was very low. The nurse called Mrs. Sampson and as
the two bent over the old woman they saw her lips move.
“Lift
me up—out of bed,” she whispered.
They
raised her in their arms, and with her stiff hand she pointed to the window.
“Oh,
the window—she wants to sit in the window. She used to sit there all day,” Mrs.
Sampson explained. “It can do her no harm, I suppose?”
“Nothing
matters now,” said the nurse.
They
carried Mrs. Manstey to the window and placed her in her chair. The dawn was
abroad, a jubilant spring dawn; the spire had already caught a golden ray,
though the magnolia and horse-chestnut still slumbered in shadow. In Mrs.
Black’s yard all was quiet. The charred timbers of the balcony lay where they
had fallen. It was evident that since the fire the builders had not returned to
their work. The magnolia had unfolded a few more sculptural flowers; the view
was undisturbed.
It
was hard for Mrs. Manstey to breathe; each moment it grew more difficult. She
tried to make them open the window, but they would not understand. If she could
have tasted the air, sweet with the penetrating ailanthus savor, it would have
eased her; but the view at least was there—the spire was golden now, the
heavens had warmed from pearl to blue, day was alight from east to west, even
the magnolia had caught the sun.
Mrs.
Manstey’s head fell back and smiling she died.
That
day the building of the extension was resumed.
(Scribner’s 10, July 1891)
The Fulness of Life.
For
hours she had lain in a kind of gentle torpor, not unlike that sweet lassitude
which masters one in the hush of a midsummer noon, when the heat seems to have
silenced the very birds and insects, and, lying sunk in the tasselled
meadow-grasses, one looks up through a level roofing of maple-leaves at the
vast shadowless, and unsuggestive blue. Now and then, at ever-lengthening
intervals, a flash of pain darted through her, like the ripple of
sheet-lightning across such a midsummer sky; but it was too transitory to shake
her stupor, that calm, delicious, bottomless stupor into which she felt herself
sinking more and more deeply, without a disturbing impulse of resistance, an
effort of reattachment to the vanishing edges of consciousness.
The
resistance, the effort, had known their hour of violence; but now they were at
an end. Through her mind, long harried by grotesque visions, fragmentary images
of the life that she was leaving, tormenting lines of verse, obstinate
presentments of pictures once beheld, indistinct impressions of rivers, towers,
and cupolas, gathered in the length of journeys half forgotten—through her mind
there now only moved a few primal sensations of colorless well-being; a vague
satisfaction in the thought that she had swallowed her noxious last draught of
medicine… and that she should never again hear the creaking of her husband’s
boots—those horrible boots—and that no one would come to bother her about the
next day’s dinner… or the butcher’s book….
At
last even these dim sensations spent themselves in the thickening obscurity
which enveloped her; a dusk now filled with pale geometric roses, circling
softly, interminably before her, now darkened to a uniform blue-blackness, the
hue of a summer night without stars. And into this darkness she felt herself
sinking, sinking, with the gentle sense of security of one upheld from beneath.
Like a tepid tide it rose around her, gliding ever higher and higher, folding
in its velvety embrace her relaxed and tired body, now submerging her breast
and shoulders, now creeping gradually, with soft inexorableness, over her
throat to her chin, to her ears, to her mouth…. Ah, now it was rising too high;
the impulse to struggle was renewed;… her mouth was
full;… she was choking…. Help!
“It
is all over,” said the nurse, drawing down the eyelids with official composure.
The
clock struck three. They remembered it afterward. Someone opened the window and
let in a blast of that strange, neutral air which walks the earth between
darkness and dawn; someone else led the husband into another room.
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