Instanced a certain Eremy,
who, he declared, was prepared to go anywhere at a moment's notice.
This man, Eremy, who belonged to the village Goloplok, was
constantly on his lips. At nearly every tenth word he thumped his
right hand on the table and waved the left in the air, the
forefinger standing away from the others. This sinewy, hairy hand,
the finger, hoarse voice, flashing eyes, all produced a strong
impression on his hearers.
Markelov had scarcely spoken to Nejdanov on the journey, and all
his accumulated wrath burst forth now. Ostrodumov and Mashurina
expressed their approval every now and again by a look, a smile, a
short exclamation, but a strange feeling came over Nejdanov. He
tried to make some sort of objection at first, pointing out the
danger of hasty action and mentioned certain former premature
attempts. He marvelled at the way in which everything was settled
beyond a shadow of a doubt, without taking into consideration the
special circumstances, or even trying to find out what the masses
really wanted. At last his nerves became so highly strung that they
trembled like the strings of an instrument, and with a sort of
despair, almost with tears in his eyes, he began speaking at the
top of his voice, in the same strain as Markelov, going even
farther than he had done. What inspired him would be difficult to
say; was it remorse for having been inactive of late, annoyance
with himself and with others, a desire to drown the gnawings of an
inner pain, or merely to show off before his comrades, whom he had
not seen for some time, or had Markelov's words really had some
effect upon him, fired his blood? They talked until daybreak;
Ostrodumov and Mashurina did not once rise from their seats, while
Markelov and Nejdanov remained on their feet all the time. Markelov
stood on the same spot for all the world like a sentinel, and
Nejdanov walked up and down the room with nervous strides, now
slowly, now hurriedly. They spoke of the necessary means and
measures to be employed, of the part each must take upon himself,
selected and tied up various bundles of pamphlets and leaflets,
mentioned a certain merchant, Golushkin, a nonconformist, as a very
possible man, although uneducated, then a young propagandist,
Kisliakov, who was very clever, but had an exaggerated idea of his
own capabilities, and also spoke of Solomin...
"Is that the man who manages a cotton factory?" Nejdanov asked,
recalling what Sipiagin had said of him at table.
"Yes, that is the man," Markelov replied. "You should get to
know him. We have not sounded him as yet, but I believe he is an
extremely capable man."
Eremy of Goloplok was mentioned again, together with Sipiagin's
servant, Kirill, and a certain Mendely, known under the name of
"Sulks." The latter it seemed was not to be relied upon. He was
very bold when sober, but a coward when drunk, and was nearly
always drunk.
"And what about your own people?" Nejdanov asked of Markelov.
"Are there any reliable men among them?"
Markelov thought there were, but did not mention anyone by name,
however. He went on to talk of the town tradespeople, of the
public-school boys, who they thought might come in useful if
matters were to come to fisticuffs. Nejdanov also inquired about
the gentry of the neighbourhood, and learned from Markelov that
there were five or six possible young men—among them, but,
unfortunately, the most radical of them was a German, "and you
can't trust a German, you know, he is sure to deceive you sooner or
later!" They must wait and see what information Kisliakov would
gather. Nejdanov also asked about the military, but Markelov
hesitated, tugged at his long whiskers, and announced at last that
with regard to them nothing certain was known as yet, unless
Kisliakov had made any discoveries.
"Who is this Kisliakov?" Nejdanov asked impatiently.
Markelov smiled significantly.
"He's a wonderful person," he declared. "I know very little of
him, have only met him twice, but you should see what letters he
writes! Marvellous letters! I will show them to you and you can
judge for yourself. He is full of enthusiasm. And what activity the
man is capable of! He has rushed over the length and breadth of
Russia five or six times, and written a twelve-page letter from
every place!"
Nejdanov looked questioningly at Ostrodumov, but the latter was
sitting like a statue, not an eyebrow twitching. Mashurina was also
motionless, a bitter smile playing on her lips.
Nejdanov went on to ask Markelov if he had made any socialist
experiments on his own estate, but here Ostrodumov interrupted
him.
"What is the good of all that?" he asked. "All the same, it will
have to be altered afterwards."
The conversation turned to political channels again. The
mysterious inner pain again began gnawing at Nejdanov's heart, but
the keener the pain, the more positively and loudly he spoke. He
had drunk only one glass of beer, but it seemed to him at times
that he was quite intoxicated. His head swam around and his heart
beat feverishly.
When the discussion came to an end at last at about four o'clock
in the morning, and they all passed by the servant asleep in the
anteroom on their way to their own rooms, Nejdanov, before retiring
to bed, stood for a long time motionless, gazing straight before
him. He was filled with wonder at the proud, heart-rending note in
all that Markelov had said. The man's vanity must have been hurt,
he must have suffered, but how nobly he forgot his own personal
sorrows for that which he held to be the truth. "He is a limited
soul," Nejdanov thought, "but is it not a thousand times better to
be like that than such... such as I feel myself to be?"
He immediately became indignant at his own
self-depreciation.
"What made me think that? Am I not also capable of
self-sacrifice? Just wait, gentlemen, and you too, Paklin. I will
show you all that although I am aesthetic and write verses—"
He pushed back his hair with an angry gesture, ground his teeth,
undressed hurriedly, and jumped into the cold, damp bed.
"Goodnight, I am your neighbour," Mashurina's voice was heard
from the other side of the door.
"Goodnight," Nejdanov responded, and remembered suddenly that
during the whole evening she had not taken her eyes off him.
"What does she want?" he muttered to himself, and instantly felt
ashamed. "If only I could get to sleep!"
But it was difficult for him to calm his overwrought nerves, and
the sun was already high when at last he fell into a heavy,
troubled sleep.
In the morning he got up late with a bad headache.
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