It had not been
fatal, but it threatened so much. The better side of his nature
seemed to urge him to die rather than to go on fighting or
opposing ignorant, unfortunate, savage men. But the perversity
of him was so great that it dwarfed reason, conscience. He
could not resist it. He felt something dying in him. He
suffered. Hope seemed far away. Despair had seized upon him and
was driving him into a reckless mood when he thought of Jennie.
He had forgotten her. He had forgotten that he had promised to
save her. He had forgotten that he meant to snuff out as many
lives as might stand between her and freedom. The very
remembrance sheered off his morbid introspection. She made a
difference. How strange for him to realize that! He felt
grateful to her. He had been forced into outlawry; she had been
stolen from her people and carried into captivity. They had met
in the river fastness, he to instil hope into her despairing
life, she to be the means, perhaps, of keeping him from sinking
to the level of her captors. He became conscious of a strong
and beating desire to see her, talk with her.
These thoughts had run through his mind while on his way to
Mrs. Bland’s house. He had let Euchre go on ahead because he
wanted more time to compose himself. Darkness had about set in
when he reached his destination. There was no light in the
house. Mrs. Bland was waiting for him on the porch.
She embraced him, and the sudden, violent, unfamiliar contact
sent such a shock through him that he all but forgot the deep
game he was playing. She, however, in her agitation did not
notice his shrinking. From her embrace and the tender,
incoherent words that flowed with it he gathered that Euchre
had acquainted her of his action with Black.
“He might have killed your” she whispered, more clearly; and if
Duane had ever heard love in a voice he heard it then. It
softened him. After all, she was a woman, weak, fated through
her nature, unfortunate in her experience of life, doomed to
unhappiness and tragedy. He met her advance so far that he
returned the embrace and kissed her. Emotion such as she showed
would have made any woman sweet, and she had a certain charm.
It was easy, even pleasant, to kiss her; but Duane resolved
that, whatever her abandonment might become, he would not go
further than the lie she made him act.
“Buck, you love me?” she whispered.
“Yes–yes,” he burst out, eager to get it over, and even as he
spoke he caught the pale gleam of Jennie’s face through the
window. He felt a shame he was glad she could not see. Did she
remember that she had promised not to misunderstand any action
of his? What did she think of him, seeing him out there in the
dusk with this bold woman in his arms? Somehow that dim sight
of Jennie’s pale face, the big dark eyes, thrilled him,
inspired him to his hard task of the present.
“Listen, dear,” he said to the woman, and he meant his words
for the girl.
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