There had been times when she had
had to make the best of the impression that she was herself
deceitful; yet she had never concealed anything bigger than a
thought. Of course she now concealed this thought of how strange it
would be to see him hide; and while she was so actively
engaged he continued: "Besides, you know, I'm not afraid of your
father."
"And you are of my mother?"
"Rather, old man!" Sir Claude returned.
XI
It must not be supposed that her ladyship's intermissions were
not qualified by demonstrations of another order—triumphal entries
and breathless pauses during which she seemed to take of everything
in the room, from the state of the ceiling to that of her
daughter's boot-toes, a survey that was rich in intentions.
Sometimes she sat down and sometimes she surged about, but her
attitude wore equally in either case the grand air of the
practical. She found so much to deplore that she left a great deal
to expect, and bristled so with calculation that she seemed to
scatter remedies and pledges. Her visits were as good as an outfit;
her manner, as Mrs. Wix once said, as good as a pair of curtains;
but she was a person addicted to extremes—sometimes barely speaking
to her child and sometimes pressing this tender shoot to a bosom
cut, as Mrs. Wix had also observed, remarkably low. She was always
in a fearful hurry, and the lower the bosom was cut the more it was
to be gathered she was wanted elsewhere. She usually broke in
alone, but sometimes Sir Claude was with her, and during all the
earlier period there was nothing on which these appearances had had
so delightful a bearing as on the way her ladyship was, as Mrs. Wix
expressed it, under the spell. "But isn't she under it!"
Maisie used in thoughtful but familiar reference to exclaim after
Sir Claude had swept mamma away in peals of natural laughter. Not
even in the old days of the convulsed ladies had she heard mamma
laugh so freely as in these moments of conjugal surrender, to the
gaiety of which even a little girl could see she had at last a
right—a little girl whose thoughtfulness was now all happy selfish
meditation on good omens and future fun.
Unaccompanied, in subsequent hours, and with an effect of
changing to meet a change, Ida took a tone superficially
disconcerting and abrupt—the tone of having, at an immense cost,
made over everything to Sir Claude and wishing others to know that
if everything wasn't right it was because Sir Claude was so
dreadfully vague. "He has made from the first such a row about
you," she said on one occasion to Maisie, "that I've told him to do
for you himself and try how he likes it—see? I've washed my hands
of you; I've made you over to him; and if you're discontented it's
on him, please, you'll come down. So don't haul poor me up—I
assure you I've worries enough." One of these, visibly, was that
the spell rejoiced in by the schoolroom fire was already in danger
of breaking; another was that she was finally forced to make no
secret of her husband's unfitness for real responsibilities. The
day came indeed when her breathless auditors learnt from her in
bewilderment that what ailed him was that he was, alas, simply not
serious. Maisie wept on Mrs. Wix's bosom after hearing that Sir
Claude was a butterfly; considering moreover that her governess but
half-patched it up in coming out at various moments the next few
days with the opinion that it was proper to his "station" to be
careless and free. That had been proper to every one's station that
she had yet encountered save poor Mrs. Wix's own, and the
particular merit of Sir Claude had seemed precisely that he was
different from every one. She talked with him, however, as time
went on, very freely about her mother; being with him, in this
relation, wholly without the fear that had kept her silent before
her father—the fear of bearing tales and making bad things worse.
He appeared to accept the idea that he had taken her over and made
her, as he said, his particular lark; he quite agreed also that he
was an awful fraud and an idle beast and a sorry dunce. And he
never said a word to her against her mother—he only remained dumb
and discouraged in the face of her ladyship's own overtopping
earnestness. There were occasions when he even spoke as if he had
wrenched his little charge from the arms of a parent who had fought
for her tooth and nail.
This was the very moral of a scene that flashed into vividness
one day when the four happened to meet without company in the
drawing-room and Maisie found herself clutched to her mother's
breast and passionately sobbed and shrieked over, made the subject
of a demonstration evidently sequent to some sharp passage just
enacted. The connexion required that while she almost cradled the
child in her arms Ida should speak of her as hideously, as fatally
estranged, and should rail at Sir Claude as the cruel author of the
outrage. "He has taken you from me," she cried; "he has set
you against me, and you've been won away and your horrid
little mind has been poisoned! You've gone over to him, you've
given yourself up to side against me and hate me. You never open
your mouth to me—you know you don't; and you chatter to him like a
dozen magpies. Don't lie about it—I hear you all over the place.
You hang about him in a way that's barely decent—he can do what he
likes with you. Well then, let him, to his heart's content: he has
been in such a hurry to take you that we'll see if it suits him to
keep you. I'm very good to break my heart about it when you've no
more feeling for me than a clammy little fish!" She suddenly thrust
the child away and, as a disgusted admission of failure, sent her
flying across the room into the arms of Mrs. Wix, whom at this
moment and even in the whirl of her transit Maisie saw, very red,
exchange a quick queer look with Sir Claude.
The impression of the look remained with her, confronting her
with such a critical little view of her mother's explosion that she
felt the less ashamed of herself for incurring the reproach with
which she had been cast off. Her father had once called her a
heartless little beast, and now, though decidedly scared, she was
as stiff and cold as if the description had been just. She was not
even frightened enough to cry, which would have been a tribute to
her mother's wrongs: she was only, more than anything else, curious
about the opinion mutely expressed by their companions.
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