The room was bright and still; the lamp shone clear; the fire glowed;
warm-hued curtains muffled the war of gust and sleet without; books, music, a
wide-armed seat and a woman’s wistful face invited me; but none of these things
could satisfy me just then, and though I drew my wife nearer, smoothed her
shining hair, and kissed the reproachful lips, I did not vield.
“You
must let me go, Agatha, for the great German artist is here, I had rather give
a year of life than miss this meeting with him. I have devoted many evenings to
you, and though this hour is yours I shall venture to take it, and offer you a
morning call instead. Here are novels, new songs, an instrument, embroidery and
a dog, who can never offend by moody silence or unpalatable conversation — what
more can a contented woman ask, surely not an absent- minded husband?”
“Yes,
just that and nothing more, for she loves him, and he can supply a want that
none of these things can. See how pretty I have tried to make myself for you
alone; stay, Max, and make me happy.”
“Dear,
I shall find my pretty wife to-morrow, but the great painter will be gone; let
me go, Agatha, and make me happy.”
She
drew herself from my arm, saying with a flash of the eye — “Max, you are a
tyrant!”
“Am
I? then you made me so with too much devotion.”
“Ah,
if you loved me as I loved there would be no selfishness on your part, no
reproaches on mine. What shall I do to make myself dearer, Max?”
“Give
me more liberty.”
“Then
I should lose you entirely, and lead the life of a widow. Oh, Max, this is
hard, this is bitter, to give all and receive nothing in return.”
She
spoke passionately, and the truth of her reproach stung me, for I answered with
that coldness that always wounded her:
“Do
you count an honest name, sincere regard and much gratitude as nothing? I have
given you these, and ask only peace and freedom in return. I desire to do
justice to you and to mvself, but I am not like you, never can be, and vou must
not hope it. You say love is all-powerful, prove it upon me, I am willing to be
the fondest of husbands if I can; teach me, win me in spite of myself, and make
me what you will; but leave me a little time to live and labor for that which
is dearer to me than your faulty lord and master can ever be to you.”
“Shall
I do this?” and her face kindled as she put the question. “Yes, here is an
amusement for you, use w hat arts you will, make your love irresistible, soften
mv hard nature, convert me into vour shadow, suhdue me till I come at your call
like a pet dog, and when you make vour presence more powerful than painting I
will own that you have won your will and made your theory good.”
I
was smiling as I spoke, for the twelve labors of I Icrcules seemed less impossible
than this, but Agatha watched me with her glittering eyes; and answered slowly
—
“I
will do it. Now go, and enjoy your liberty while you mav, but remember when I
have conquered that you dared me to it, and keep your part of the compact.
Promise this.” She offered me her hand with a strange expression — I took it,
said good-night, and hurried away, still smiling at the curious challenge given
and accepted.

The Domestic Feud Culminates
Agatha
told me to enjoy my liberty, and I tried to do so that very night, but failed
most signally, for I had not been an hour in the brilliant company gathered to
meet the celebrated guest before I found it impossible to banish the thought of
my solitary wife. I had left her often, yet never felt disturbed by more than a
passing twinge of that uncomfortable bosom friend called conscience; but now
the interest of the hour seemed lessened by regret, for through varying
conversation held with those about me, mingling with the fine music that I
heard, looking at me from every woman’s face, and thrusting itself into my mind
at every turn, came a vague, disturbing self-reproach, which slowly deepened to
a strong anxiety. My attention wandered, words seemed to desert me, fancy to be
frostbound, and even in the presence of the great man I had so ardently desired
to see I could neither enjoy his society nor play my own part well. More than
once I found myself listening for Agatha’s voice; more than once I looked
behind me expecting^to see her figure, and more than once I resolved to go,
with no desire to meet her.
“It
is an acute fit of what women call nervousness; I will not yield to it,” I
thought, and plunged into the gayest group I saw, supped, talked, sang a song,
and broke down; told a witty story, and spoiled it; laughed and tried to bear
myself like the lightest-hearted guest in the rooms; but it would not do, for
stronger and stronger grew the strange longing to go home, and soon it became
uncontrollable. A foreboding fear that something had happened oppressed me, and suddenly leaving the festival at its height I drove
home as if life and death depended on the saving of a second. Like one pursuing
or pursued I rode, eager only to be there; yet when I stood on my own threshold
I asked myself wonderingly, “Why such haste?” and stole in ashamed at my early
return. The storm beat without, but within all was serene and still, and with
noiseless steps I went up to the room where I had left my wife, pausing a
moment at the half open door to collect myself, lest she should see the
disorder of both mind and mien. Looking in I saw her sitting with neither book
nor work beside her, and after a momentary glance began to think my anxiety had
not been causeless, for she sat erect and motionless as an in animate figure of
intense thought; her eyes were fixed, face colorless, w it h an expression of
iron determination, as if even energy of mind and body w ere w rought up to the
achievement of a single purpose. There was something in the rigid attitude and
stern aspect of this familiar shape that filled me w ith dismay, and found vent
in the abrupt exclamation,
“Agatha,
what is it?”
She
sprang up like a steel spring w hen the pressure is removed, saw me, and struck
her hands together w ith a wild gesture of surprise, alarm or pleasure, which I
could not tell, for in the act she dropped into her seat white and breathless
as if smitten with sudden death. Unspeakably shocked, I bestirred myself till
she recovered, and though pale and spent, as if with
some past exertion, soon seemed quite herself again.
“Agatha,
what were you thinking of w hen I came in?” I asked, as she sat leaning against
me with half closed eyes and a faint smile on her lips, as if the unwonted
caresses I bestowed upon her were more soothing than any cordial I could give.
Without stirring she replied,
“Of you, Max. I was longing for you, with heart and soul and
\v ill. Y bu told me to win you in spite of yourself; and 1 was sending my love
to find and bring you home. Did it reach you? did it
lead you back and make you glad to come?”
A
peculiar chill ran through me as I listened, though her voice was quieter, her
manner gentler than usual as she spoke. She seemed to have such faith in her
tender fancy, such assurance of its efficacy, and such a near approach to
certain knowledge of its success, that I disliked the thought of continuing the
topic, and answered cheerfully,
“My
own conscience brought me home, dear; for, discovering that I had left my peace
of mind behind me, I came back to find it. If your task is to cost a scene like
this it w ill do more harm than good to both of us, so keep your love from such
uncanny wanderings through time and space, and win me with less dangerous
arts.”
She
smiled her strange smile, folded my hand in her ow n, and answered, with soft
exultation in her voice, “It will not happen so again, Max; but I am glad, most
glad you came, for it proves I have some power over this wayward heart of
yours, where I shall knock until it opens wide and takes me in.”
The
events of that night made a deep impression on me, for from that night my life
was changed. Agatha left me entirely free, never asked my presence, never upbraided me for long absences or silences when
together. She seemed to find happiness in her belief that she should yet subdue
me, and though I smiled at this in my indifference, there was something half
pleasant, half pathetic in the thought of this proud woman leaving all warmer
affections for my negligent friendship, the sight of this young wife laboring
to win her husband’s heart. At first I tried to be all she asked, but soon
relapsed into my former life, and finding no reproaches followed, believed I
should enjoy it as never before — but I did not. As weeks passed I slowly
became conscious that some new power had taken possession of me, swaying my
whole nature to its will; a power alien yet sovereign. Fitfully it worked,
coming upon me when least desired, enforcing its commands regardless of time,
place or mood; mysterious yet irresistible in its strength, this mental tyrant
led me at all hours, in all stages of anxiety, repugnance and rebellion, from
all pleasures or employments, straight to Agatha. If I sat at my easel the
sudden summons came, and wondering at myself I obeyed it, to find her busied in
some cheerful occupation, with apparently no thought or wish for me. If I left
home I often paused abruptly in my walk or drive, turned and hurried back,
simply because I could not resist the impulse that controlled me.
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