The sleep will refresh you, and I promise you
there will not be any bad dreams after to-night." He shook his head
hopelessly, so I sat a little longer and then left him.
When I got home I made my arrangements for the night, for I had
made up my mind to share Jacob Settle's lonely vigil in his cottage
on the moor. I judged that if he got to sleep before sunset he
would wake well before midnight, and so, just as the bells of the
city were striking eleven, I stood opposite his door armed with a
bag, in which were my supper, and extra large flask, a couple of
candles, and a book. The moonlight was bright, and flooded the
whole moor, till it was almost as light as day; but ever and anon
black clouds drove across the sky, and made a darkness which by
comparison seemed almost tangible. I opened the door softly, and
entered without waking Jacob, who lay asleep with his white face
upward. He was still, and again bathed it sweat. I tried to imagine
what visions were passing before those closed eyes which could
bring with them the misery and woe which were stamped on the face,
but fancy failed me, and I waited for the awakening. It came
suddenly, and in a fashion which touched me to the quick, for the
hollow groan that broke from the man's white lips as he half arose
and sank back was manifestly the realisation or completion of some
train of thought which had gone before.
"If this be dreaming," said I to myself, "then it must be based
on some very terrible reality. What can have been that unhappy fact
that he spoke of?"
While I thus spoke, he realised that I was with him. It struck
me as strange that he had no period of that doubt as to whether
dream or reality surrounded him which commonly marks an expected
environment of waking men. With a positive cry of joy, he seized my
hand and held it in his two wet, trembling hands, as a frightened
child clings on to someone whom it loves. I tried to soothe
him-
"There, there! it is all right. I have come to stay with you
to-night, and together we will try to fight this evil dream." He
let go my hand suddenly, and sank back on his bed and covered his
eyes with his hands.
"Fight it?-the evil dream! Ah! no sir no! No mortal power can
fight that dream, for it comes form God-and is burned in here;" and
he beat upon his forehead. Then he went on-
It is the same dream, ever the same, and yet it grows in its
power to torture me every time it comes."
"What is the dream?" I asked, thinking that the speaking of it
might give him some relief, but he shrank away from me, and after a
long pause said-
"No, I had better not tell it. It may not come again."
There was manifestly something to conceal from me-something that
lay behind the dream, so I answered-
"All right. I hope you have seen the last of it. But if it
should come again, you will tell me, will you not? I ask, not out
of curiosity, but because I think it may relieve you to speak." He
answered with what I thought was almost an undue amount of
solemnity-
"If it comes again, I shall tell you all."
Then I tried to get his mind away from the subject to more
mundane things, so I produced supper, and made him share it with
me, including the contents of the flask. After a little he braced
up, and when I lit my cigar, having given him another, we smoked a
full hour, and talked of many things. Little by little the comfort
of his body stole over his mind, and I could see sleep laying her
gentle hands on his eyelids. He felt it, too, and told me that now
he felt all right, and I might safely leave him; but I told him
that, right or wrong, I was going to see in the daylight. So I lit
my other candle, and began to read as he fell asleep.
By degrees I got interested in my book, so interested that
presently I was startled by its dropping out of my hands. I looked
and saw that Jacob was still asleep, and I was rejoiced to see that
there was on his face a look of unwonted happiness, while his lips
seemed to move with unspoken words. Then I turned to my work again,
and again woke, but this time to feel chilled to my very marrow by
hearing the voice from the bed beside me-
"Not with those red hands! Never! never!" On looking at him, I
found that he was still asleep. He woke, however, in an instant,
and did not seem surprised to see me; there was again that strange
apathy as to his surroundings. Then I said:
"Settle, tell me your dream. You may speak freely, for I shall
hold your confidence sacred. While we both live I shall never
mention what you may choose to tell me,"
"I said I would; but I had better tell you first what goes
before the dream, that you may understand. I was a schoolmaster
when I was a very young man; it was only a parish school in a
little village in the West Country. No need to mention any names.
Better not. I was engaged to be married to a young girl whom I
loved and almost reverenced. It was the old story.
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