Desperate positions require desperate measures.
“If
you will leave the house now, I will come to you tomorrow and tell you all.
What is more, you shall see your child now. She lies sleeping upstairs. O, sir,
you have a child, you do not know that as yet—a little weakly girl—with just a
heart and soul beyond her years. We have reared her up with such care: We
watched her, for we thought for many a year she might die any day, and we
tended her, and no hard thing has come near her, and no rough word has ever
been said to her. And now you, come and will take her life into your hand, and
will crush it. Strangers to her have been kind to her; but her own father—Mr.
Frank, I am her nurse, and I love her, and I tend her, and I would do anything
for her that I could. Her mother’s heart beats as hers beats; and, if she
suffers a pain, her mother trembles all over. If she is happy, it is her mother
that smiles and is glad. If she is growing stronger, her mother is healthy: if
she dwindles, her mother languishes. If she dies—well, I don’t know: it is not
every one can lie down and die when they wish it. Come upstairs, Mr. Frank, and
see your child. Seeing her will do good to your poor heart. Then go away, in
God’s name, just this one night—tomorrow, if need be, you can do anything—kill
us all if you will, or show yourself—a great grand man, whom God will bless for
ever and ever. Come, Mr. Frank, the look of a sleeping child is sure to give
peace.”
She
led him upstairs; at first almost helping his steps, till they came near the nursery
door. She had almost forgotten the existence of little Edwin. It struck upon
her with affright as the shaded light fell upon the other cot; but she
skilfully threw that corner of the room into darkness, and let the light fall
on the sleeping Ailsie. The child had thrown down the coverings, and her
deformity, as she lay with her back to them, was plainly visible through her
slight nightgown. Her little face, deprived of the lustre of her eyes, looked
wan and pinched, and had a pathetic expression in it, even as she slept. The
poor father looked and looked with hungry, wistful eyes, into which the big
tears came swelling up slowly, and dropped heavily down, as he stood trembling
and shaking all over. Norah was angry with herself for growing impatient of the
length of time that long lingering gaze lasted. She thought that she waited for
full half-an-hour before Frank stirred. And then—instead of going away—he sank
down on his knees by the bedside, and buried his face in the clothes. Little
Ailsie stirred uneasily. Norah pulled him up in terror. She could afford no
more time even for prayer in her extremity of fear; for surely the next moment
would bring her mistress home. She took him forcibly by the arm; but, as he was
going, his eye lighted on the other bed: he stopped. Intelligence came back
into his face. His hands clenched.
“His
child?” he asked.
“Her
child,” replied Norah.
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