One day—he half scorned himself for
doing so—he cut short his dinner hour to go in search of some toy which should
take the place of those eternal beads. I forget what he bought; but, when he
gave the present (which he took care to do in a short abrupt manner, and when
no one was by to see him) he was almost thrilled by the flash of delight that
came over that child’s face, and could not help all through that afternoon
going over and over again the picture left on his memory, by the bright effect
of unexpected joy on the little girl’s face. When he returned home, he found
his slippers placed by his sitting room fire; and even more careful attention
paid to his fancies than was habitual in those model lodgings. When Alice had
taken the last of his tea things away—she had been silent as usual till
then—she stood for an instant with the door in her hand. Mr. Openshaw looked as
if he were deep in his book, though in fact he did not see a line; but was
heartily wishing the woman would be gone, and not make any palaver of
gratitude. But she only said:
“I
am very much obliged to you, sir. Thank you very much,” and was gone, even
before he could send her away with a “There, my good woman, that’s enough!”
For
some time longer he took no apparent notice of the child. He even hardened his
heart into disregarding her sudden flush of colour, and little timid smile of
recognition, when he saw her by chance. But, after all, this could not last for
ever; and, having a second time given way to tenderness, there was no relapse.
The insidious enemy having thus entered his heart, in the guise of compassion
to the child, soon assumed the more dangerous form of interest in the mother.
He was aware of this change of feeling, despised himself for it, struggled with
it nay, internally yielded to it and cherished it, long before he suffered the
slightest expression of it, by word, action, or look, to escape him. He watched
Alice’s docile obedient ways to her stepmother; the love which she had inspired
in the rough Norah (roughened by the wear and tear of sorrow and years); but
above all, he saw the wild, deep, passionate affection existing between her and
her child. They spoke little to anyone else, or when any one else was by; but,
when alone together, they talked, and murmured, and cooed, and chattered so
continually, that Mr. Openshaw first wondered what they could find to say to
each other, and next became irritated because they were always so grave and
silent with him. All this time, he was perpetually devising small new pleasures
for the child. His thoughts ran, in a pertinacious way, upon the desolate life
before her; and often he came back from his day’s work loaded with the very
thing Alice had been longing for, but had not been able to procure. One time it
was a little chair for drawing the little sufferer along the streets, and many
an evening that ensuing summer Mr. Openshaw drew her along himself, regardless
of the remarks of his acquaintances. One day in autumn he put down his
newspaper, as Alice came in with the breakfast, and said, in as indifferent a
voice as he could assume:
“Mrs.
Frank, is there any reason why we two should not put up our horses together?”
Alice
stood still in perplexed wonder. What did he mean? He had resumed the reading
of his newspaper, as if he did not expect any answer; so she found silence her
safest course, and went on quietly arranging his breakfast without another word
passing between them. Just as he was leaving the house, to go to the warehouse
as usual, he turned back and put his head into the bright, neat, tidy kitchen,
where all the women breakfasted in the morning:
“You’ll
think of what I said, Mrs. Frank” (this was her name with the lodgers), “and
let me have your opinion upon it tonight.”
Alice
was thankful that her mother and Norah were too busy talking together to attend
much to this speech. She determined not to think about it at all through the
day; and, of course, the effort not to think made her think all the more. At
night she sent up Norah with his tea. But Mr. Openshaw almost knocked Norah
down as she was going out at the door, by pushing past her and calling out
“Mrs. Frank!” in an impatient voice, at the top of the stairs.
Alice
went up, rather than seem to have affixed too much meaning to his words.
“Well,
Mrs. Frank,” he said, “what answer? Don’t make it too long; for I have lots of
office work to get through tonight.”
“I
hardly know what you meant, sir,” said truthful Alice.
“Well!
I should have thought you might have guessed. You’re not new at this sort of
work, and I am. However, I’ll make it plain this time. Will you have me to be
thy wedded husband, and serve me, and love me, and honour me, and all that sort
of thing? Because if you will, I will do as much by you, and be a father to
your child—and that’s more than is put in the prayer book.
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