This married life, wearing in every
way, together with the hard work, resulted in his not being equal
to more than just the necessities of the day. His initiative and
will became proportionately deadened.
A strange stagnation developed itself: he had
hallucinations, visions; he saw himself in them - his father! his
mother! all the pictures were of a menacing description.
At night he dreamed the most frightful things: his
unbridled fancy, his unoccupied creative power, took revenge, and
all this weakened him. He looked with admiration at his wife's
robust health: she had the physique of a wild beast. But at times
their quarrels, their reconciliations, brought revelations with
them: he could perceive her sorrows as well. She did not complain,
she did not say a word, she could not do so; but at times she wept
and gave way as only the most despairing can. Her nature was
powerful, and the struggle of her love beyond belief. The beauty of
the fulness of life was there, even when she was most repulsive.
The wild creature, wrestling with her destiny, often gave forth
tragic gleams of light.
One day his relation, the Government Secretary, met
him. They usually avoided each other, but to-day he stopped.
"Ah, Rafael," said the dapper little man nervously,
"I was coming to see you."
"My dear fellow, what is it?"
"Ah, I see that you guess; it is a letter from your
mother."
"From my mother?"
During all the time since her telegram they had not
exchanged a word.
"A very long letter, but she makes a condition."
"Hum, hum! a condition?"
"Yes, but do not be angry; it is not a hard one: it
is only that you are to go away from the town, wherever you like,
so long as you can be quiet, and then you are to read it."
"You know the contents?"
"I know the contents, I will go bail for it."
What he meant, or why he was so perturbed by it,
Rafael did not understand, but it infected him; if he had had the
money, and if on that day he had been disengaged, he would have
gone at once. But he had not the money, not more than he wanted for
the fete that evening. He had the tickets for it in his pocket at
that moment. He had promised Angelika that he would go there with
her, and he would keep his promise, for it had been given after a
great reconciliation scene. A white silk dress had been the olive
branch of these last peaceful days. She therefore looked very
handsome that evening as she walked into the great hall of the
Lodge, with Rafael beside her tall and stately. She was in
excellent spirits. Her quiet eyes had a haughty expression as she
turned her steps with confident superiority towards those whom she
wished to please, or those whom she hoped to annoy.
HE did not feel confident. He did not like showing
himself in public with her, and lately it had precisely been in
public places that she had chosen to make scenes; besides which, he
felt nervous as to what his mother could wish to say to him.
A short time before he came to the fete, he had
tried, in two quarters, to borrow money, and each time had received
only excuses. This had greatly mortified him. His disturbed state
of mind, as is so often the case with nervous people, made him
excited and boisterous, nay, even made him more than usually
jovial. And as though a little of the old happiness were actually
to come to him that evening, he met his friend and relative Hans
Ravn, him and his young Bavarian wife, who had just come to the
town. All three were delighted to meet.
"Do you remember," said Hans Ravn, "how often you
have lent me money, Rafael?" and he drew him on one side. "Now I am
at the top of the tree, now I am married to an heiress, and the
most charming girl too; ah, you must know her better."
"She is pretty as well," said Rafael.
"And pretty as well - and good tempered; in fact,
you see before you the happiest man in Norway."
Rafael's eyes filled. Ravn put his hands on to his
friend's shoulders.
"Are you not happy, Rafael?"
"Not quite so happy as you, Hans - "
He left him to speak to some one else, then returned
again.
"You say, Hans, that I have often lent you
money."
"Are you pressed? Do you want some, Rafael? My dear
fellow, how much?"
"Can you spare me two thousand kroner?"
"Here they are."
"No, no; not in here, come outside."
"Yes, let us go and have some champagne to celebrate
our meeting. No, not our wives," he added, as Rafael looked towards
where they stood talking.
"Not our wives," laughed Rafael. He understood the
intention, and now he wished to enjoy his freedom thoroughly. They
came in again merrier and more boisterous than before.
Rafael asked Hans Ravn's young wife to dance. Her
personal attractions, natural gaiety, and especially her admiration
of her husband's relations, took him by storm. They danced twice,
and laughed and talked together afterwards.
Later in the evening the two friends rejoined their
wives, so that they might all sit together at supper. Even from a
distance Rafael could see by Angelika's face that a storm was
brewing. He grew angry at once. He had never been blamed more
groundlessly.
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