Tears of pain and shame rolled down
her cheeks; but still not a sound. She tried to rearrange her
dress, but her tattered garments trailed behind her as she went
back to the house. She shut the door after her, but had to open it
again; her torn clothes had caught fast in it.
The women stood aghast; some of the children
screamed with fright: this infected the rest, and there was a
chorus of sobs. The men, most of whom had been sitting smoking
their pipes, but who had sprung to their feet again, stood filled
with shame and indignation.
It had not been without a pang that Harald Kaas had
done this, his face and manner had shown it for a long time and
still did so; but he had expected that a roar of laughter would
greet his extraordinary vagary. This was evident from the composure
with which he had carried his wife out; and still more from the
glance of gratified revenge with which he looked round him
afterwards. But there was only dead stillness, succeeded by
weeping, sobbing, and indignation. He stood there for a moment,
quite overcome, then went indoors again, a defeated, utterly broken
man.
In every encounter with this delicate creature the
giant had been worsted.
After this, however, she never went beyond the
grounds. For the first few years she was only seen by the people
about the estate, and by them but seldom. Sometimes she would take
her boy out in his little carriage, or, as time went on, would lead
him by the hand, sometimes she was alone. She was generally wrapped
in a big shawl, a different one for each dress she wore, and which
she always held tightly round her. This was so characteristic of
her that to this day I hear people from the neighbourhood talk
about it as though she were never seen otherwise.
What then did she do? She studied; she had given up
writing: for more than one reason it had become distasteful to her.
She had changed roles with her husband, giving herself up to
mathematics, chemistry, and physics, she made calculations and
analyses - sending for books and materials for these objects. The
people on the estate saw nothing extraordinary in all this. From
the first they had admired her delicacy and beauty. Every one
admired her; it was only the manner and degree that varied.
Little by little she came to be regarded as one
whose life and thoughts were beyond their comprehension.
She sought no one, but to those who came to her she
never refused help - more or less. She made herself well acquainted
with the facts of each case; no one could ever deceive her. Whether
she gave much or little, she imposed no conditions, she never
lectured them. Her opinion was expressed by the amount that she
gave.
Her husband's behaviour towards her was such that,
had she not been very popular, she could not have remained at
Hellebergene; that is to say, he opposed and thwarted her in every
way he could; but every one took her part.
The boy! Could not he have been a bond of union? On
the contrary, there were those who declared that it was from the
time of his birth that things had gone amiss between the parents.
The first time that his father saw him the nurse reported that he
"came in like a lord and went out like a beggar!" The mother lay
down again and laughed; the nurse had never seen the like of it
before. Had he expected that his child must of necessity resemble
him, only to find it the image of its mother?
When the boy was old enough he loved to wander
across to his father's rooms where there were so many curious
things to see; his father always received him kindly, talking in a
way suited to his childish intelligence, but he would take occasion
to cut away a quantity of his hair. His mother let it grow free and
long like her own, and his father perpetually cut it. The boy would
have been glad enough to be rid of it, but when he grew a little
older, he comprehended his father's motive, and thenceforth he was
on his guard.
When the people on the estate had told him something
of his father's highly-coloured histories of his feats of strength
and his achievements by land and water, the boy began to feel a shy
admiration for him, but at the same time he felt all the more
strongly the intolerable yoke which he laid upon them - upon every
living being on the estate. It became a secret religion with him to
oppose his father and help his mother, for it was she who suffered.
He would resemble her even to his hair, he would protect her, he
would make it all up to her. It was a positive delight to him when
his father made him suffer: he absolutely felt proud when he called
him Rafaella, instead of Rafael, the name which his mother had
chosen for him; it was the one that she loved best.
No one was allowed to use the boats or the carriage,
no one might walk through the woods, which had been fenced in, the
horses were never taken out. No repairs were undertaken; if Fru
Kaas attempted to have anything done at her own expense, the
workmen were ordered off: there could no longer be any doubt about
it, he wished everything to go to rack and ruin. The property went
from bad to worse, and the woods - well! It was no secret, every
one on the place talked about it - the timber was being utterly
ruined. The best and largest trees were already rotten; by degrees
the rest would become so.
At twelve years of age Rafael began to receive
religious teaching from the Dean: the only subject in which his
mother did not instruct him. He shared these lessons with Helene,
the Dean's only child, who was four years younger than Rafael and
of whom he was devotedly fond.
The Dean told them the story of David. The narrative
was unfolded with additions and explanations; the boy made a
picture of it to himself; his mother had taught him everything in
this way.
Assyrian warriors with pointed beards, oblique eyes,
and oblong shields, had to represent the Israelites; they marched
by in an endless procession. He saw the blue-green of the vineyards
on the hillside, the shadow of the dusty palm-trees upon the dusty
road. Then a wood of aromatic trees into which all the warriors
fled.
Then followed the story of Absalom.
"Absalom rebelled against his father, what a
dreadful thing to think of," said the Dean. "A grown-up man to
rebel against his father." He chanced to look towards Rafael, who
turned as red as fire.
The thought which was constantly in his mind was
that when he was grown up he should rebel against his father.
"But Absalom was punished in a marvellous manner,"
continued the Dean.
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