She had taken
off her hat and gloves, but now she put them quickly on again.
"Rafael, dear," she said, "shall we go for a walk
together in the park, under the grand old trees?"
She had felt his retort to be ingenious.
After this episode, however, England, and more
especially her son's schoolfellows, became distasteful to her, and
she constantly made plans to keep him away from the latter out of
school hours.
She found this very easy; sometimes she went over
his studies with him, at others they visited all the Manufactories
and "Works" for miles round.
She liked to see for herself and awakened the same
taste in him.
Factories which, as a rule, were closed to visitors,
were readily opened to the pretty elegant lady and her handsome
boy, "who after all knew nothing at all about it;" and they were
able to see almost all that they wished. It was a less congenial
task to use her influence to turn his thoughts to higher things,
but it was rarely, nevertheless, that she failed. She struggled
hard over what she did not understand and sought for help. To
explain these things to Rafael in the most attractive manner
possible became a new occupation for her.
His natural disposition inclined him to such
studies; but to a boy of thirteen, who was thus kept from his
comrades and their sports, it soon became a nuisance.
No sooner had Fru Kaas noticed this than she took
active steps. They left England and crossed to France.
The strange speech threw him back on her; no one
shared him with her. They settled in Calais. A few days after their
arrival she cut her hair short; she hoped that it would touch him
to see that as he would not look like her, she tried to look like
him - to be a. boy like him. She bought a smart new hat, she
composed a jaunty costume, new from top to toe, for EVERYTHING must
be altered with the hair. But when she stood before him, looking
like a girl of twenty-five, merry, almost boisterous, he was simply
dismayed - nay, it was some time before he could altogether
comprehend what had happened. As long as he could remember his
mother, her eyes had always looked forth from beneath a crown; more
solemn, more beautiful.
"Mother," he said, "where are you?"
She grew pale and grave, and stammered something
about its being more comfortable - about red hair not looking well
when it began to lose its colour - and went into her room. There
she sat with his hair before her and her own beside it; she
wept.
"Mother, where are you?" She might have answered,
"Rafael, where are you?"
She went about with him everywhere. In France two
handsome, stylishly dressed people are always certain to be
noticed, a thing which she thoroughly appreciated.
During their different expeditions she always spoke
French; he begged her to talk Norse at least now and then, but all
in vain.
Here, too, they visited every possible and
impossible factory. Unpractical and reserved as she was on ordinary
occasions, she could be full of artifice and coquetry whenever she
wished to gain access to a steam bakery and particular as she
generally was about her toilette, she would come away again sooty
and grimy if thereby she could procure for Rafael some insight into
mechanics. She shrank from foul air as from the cholera, yet
inhaled sulphuric acid gas as though it had been ozone for his
sake.
"Seeing for yourself, Rafael, is the substance,
other methods are its shadow;" or "Seeing for yourself, Rafael, is
meat and drink, the other is but literature."
He was not quite of the same opinion: he thought
that Notre Dame de Paris, from which he was daily dragged away, was
the richest banquet that he had yet enjoyed, while from the factory
of Mayel et fils there issued the most deadly odours.
His reading - she had encouraged him in it for the
sake of the language and had herself helped him; now she was
jealous of it and could not be persuaded to get him new books; but
he got them nevertheless.
They had been in Calais for several months; he had
masters and was beginning to feel himself at home, when there
arrived at the pension a widow from one of the colonies,
accompanied by her daughter, a girl of thirteen.
The new comers had not appeared at meals for more
than two days before the young gentleman began to pay his court to
the young lady. From the first moment it was a plain case. Very
soon every one in the pension was highly amused to notice how
fluent his French was becoming; his choice of words at times was
even elegant! The girl taught him it without a trace of grammar, by
charm, sprightliness, a little nonsense; a pair of confiding eyes
and a youthful voice were sufficient. It was from her that he got,
by stealth, one novel after another. By stealth it had to be; by
stealth Lucie had procured them; by stealth she gave them to him;
by stealth they were read; by stealth she took them back again.
This reading made him a little absent-minded, but otherwise nothing
betrayed his flights into literature: to be sure, they were not
very wonderful.
Fru Kaas noticed her son's flirtation, and smiled
with the rest over his progress in French. She had less objection
to this friendship, in which, to a great extent, she shared, than
to those in England, from which she had been quite excluded. In the
evenings she would take the mother and daughter out for short
excursions; and these she greatly enjoyed. But the novel reading
which the young people carried on secretly had resulted in
conversations of a "grown up" type. They talked of love with the
deep experience which is proper to their age, they talked with
still greater discretion as to when their wedding should take
place; on this point they indirectly said much which caused them
many a delightful tremor. As they were accustomed to talk about
themselves before others, to describe their feelings in a veiled
form, it often happened when there were many people near that they
carried this amusement further, and before they were themselves
aware of it, they were in the full tide of a symbolic language and
played "catch" with each other.
Fru Kaas noticed one evening that the word "rose"
was drawn out to a greater length than it was possible for any rose
to attain to; at the same time she saw the languishing look in
their eyes, and broke in with the question, "What do you mean about
the rose, child?"
If any one had peeped behind a rose-bush and caught
them kissing one another, a thing they had never done, they could
not have blushed more.
The next day Fru Kaas found new rooms, a long way
from the quay near which they were living.
Rafael had suffered greatly at being torn away from
England just as he had come down from his high horse and had put
himself on a par with his companions, but not the least notice was
taken of his trouble; it had only annoyed his mother.
To be absolutely debarred from the books he was so
fond of had been hard; but up to this time, being in a foreign
land, amid foreign speech, he had always fallen back upon her. Now
he openly defied her. He went straight off to the hotel and sought
out Madame Mery and her daughter as though nothing had occurred.
This he did every day when he had finished his lessons. Lucie had
now become his sole romance; he gave all his leisure time to her,
and not only that (for it no longer sufficed to see her at her
mother's), they met on the quay! At times a maid-servant walked
with them for appearance sake, at others she kept in the
background. Sometimes they would go on board a Norwegian ship,
sometimes they wandered about or strolled beneath some great trees.
When he saw her in her short frock come out of the door, saw her
quick movements, and her lively signals to him with parasol or hat
or flowers, the quay, the ships, the bales, the barrels, the air,
the noise, the crowd, all seemed to play and sing,
"Enfant! si j'etais roi je donerais l'empire, Et mon
char, et mon septre, et mon peuple a genoux,"
and he ran to meet her.
He never dared to do more than to take both her
chubby brown hands, nor to say more than "You are very sweet, you
are very very good." And she never went further than to look at
him, walk with him, laugh with him, and say to him, "You are not
like the others." What experiences there had been in the life of
this girl of thirteen goodness alone knows. He never asked her, he
was too sure of her.
He learned French from her as one bird feeds from
another's bill, or as one who looks at his image in a fountain, as
be drinks from it.
One day, as mother and son were at breakfast, she
glanced quietly across at him. "I heard of an excellent preparatory
school of mechanics at Rouen," she said, "so I wrote to inquire
about it, and here is the answer.
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