Here only
extremes combine to form completely new properties. To be sure, the objects retain
their familiar names, but their looks and features get reinvented. The newly
perceived sweeps away the familiar. And there’s no use opposing it, because in the
act of reading, the shrewdness of every observation acquires greater validity than
anything you might recall from your own observations of the familiar objects. In the
words of Blecher’s protagonist: “I had the vague feeling that nothing in the world
can come to fruition.” Nothing is ever completed. And this narrator is concerned
with much more than completion.
Blecher’s eroticism of perception requires the constant comparison of one thing with
a hitherto unimaginable other. In this eroticized world things venture into the
outrageous: “When I got to the marketplace, I found men unloading meat for the
butcher shops, their arms laden with sides of red and purple beasts glistening with
blood, as tall and proud as dead princesses. . . . They were lined up along the
porcelain-white walls like scarlet sculptures carved from the most diverse and
delicate material. They had the watery, iridescent shimmer of silk and the murky
limpidity of gelatin.” Or: “There were always nuts in a bowl, and Samuel Weber, who
was especially fond of them, would swallow them slowly, peacefully, bit by bit, his
Adam’s apple bouncing up and down like a puppet on a rubber band.” And Samuel
Weber’s son Ozy has “flute-like arms.” Or: “I felt the silence in me smiling calmly,
as if someone were blowing soap bubbles there.” While taking a temperature “the
slender glass lizard of a thermometer” glides under the arm. And of the doctor who
is treating the malaria stricken protagonist, Blecher writes: “His small velvet
eyes, fitful gestures, and thrust-forward mouth made him look like a mouse. The
impression was so immediate and so strong that I thought it perfectly natural that
he should give his r’s a long and sonorous roll as if he were munching
something in secret as he spoke. The quinine he gave me only increased my conviction
there was something mouse-like about him.” Behind the sewing machine shop was a
small room referred to as “the green room”—when no customer is around the
ailing protagonist hastily makes love with Clara. On one such occasion he spots a
mouse out of the corner of his eye, perched on Clara’s powder compact:
It had paused next to the mirror on the edge of the
trunk and was staring at me with its tiny black eyes. The lamplight had given them
two gleaming golden spots, which pierced me deeply and peered into my own eyes for
several seconds with such intensity that they seemed to penetrate my brain. Perhaps
the creature was searching for a curse to call down on me or perhaps for a mere
reproach . . . I was certain the doctor had come to spy on me.
This supposition was confirmed that very evening as I took my
quinine. . . . I found it perfectly acceptable: the quinine was bitter. The doctor
had seen the pleasure Clara could give me in the back room and to get even he had
prescribed the nastiest medicine on earth. . . .
A few months after he first treated me, he was found dead in his
attic: he had put a bullet through his brain.
The first thing I asked myself when I heard the gruesome
news was, ‘Were there mice in the attic?’ I needed to know.
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