At present, I owned only a
house; my ambition was, to own a seat.
In a word, Rupert and I canvassed this matter in every possible way
for a month, now leaning to one scheme, and now to another, until I
determined to lay the whole affair before the two girls, under a
solemn pledge of secrecy. As we passed hours in company daily,
opportunities were not wanting to effect this purpose. I thought my
friend was a little shy on this project; but I had so much affection
for Grace, and so much confidence in Lucy's sound judgment, that I was
not to be turned aside from the completion of my purpose. It is now
more than forty years since the interview took place in which this
confidence was bestowed; but every minute occurrence connected with it
is as fresh in my mind as if the whole had taken place only yesterday.
We were all four of us seated on a rude bench that my mother had
caused to be placed under the shade of an enormous oak that stood on
the most picturesque spot, perhaps, on the whole farm, and which
commanded a distant view of one of the loveliest reaches of the
Hudson. Our side of the river, in general, does not possess as fine
views as the eastern, for the reason that all our own broken, and in
some instances magnificent back-ground of mountains, fills up the
landscape for our neighbours, while we are obliged to receive the
picture as it is set in a humbler frame; but there are exquisite bits
to be found on the western bank, and this was one of the very best of
them. The water was as placid as molten silver, and the sails of every
vessel in sight were hanging in listless idleness from their several
spars, representing commerce asleep. Grace had a deep feeling for
natural scenery, and she had a better mode of expressing her thoughts,
on such occasions, than is usual with girls of fourteen. She first
drew our attention to the view by one of her strong, eloquent bursts
of eulogium; and Lucy met the remark with a truthful, simple answer,
that showed abundant sympathy with the sentiment, though with less of
exaggeration of manner and feeling, perhaps. I seized the moment as
favourable for my purpose, and spoke out.
"If you admire a vessel so much, Grace," I said, "you will probably be
glad to hear that I think of becoming a sailor."
A silence of near two minutes succeeded, during which time I affected
to be gazing at the distant sloops, and then I ventured to steal a
glance at my companions. I found Grace's mild eyes earnestly riveted
on my face; and, turning from their anxious expression with a little
uneasiness, I encountered those of Lucy looking at me as intently as
if she doubted whether her ears had not deceived her.
"A sailor, Miles!"—my sister now slowly repeated—"I thought it
settled you were to study law."
"As far from that as we are from England; I've fully made up my mind
to see the world if I can, and Rupert, here—"
"What of Rupert, here?" Grace asked, a sudden change again coming over
her sweet countenance, though I was altogether too inexperienced to
understand its meaning. "He is certainly to be a clergyman—his
dear father's assistant, and, a long, long, very long time
hence, his successor!"
I could see that Rupert was whistling on a low key, and affecting to
look cool; but my sister's solemn, earnest, astonished manner had more
effect on us both, I believe, than either would have been willing to
own.
"Come, girls," I said at length, putting the best face on the matter,
"there is no use in keeping secrets from you—but remember that
what I am about to tell you is a secret, and on no account is
to be betrayed."
"To no one but Mr. Hardinge," answered Grace. "If you intend to be a
sailor, he ought to know it."
"That comes from looking at our duties superficially," I had caught
this phrase from my friend, "and not distinguishing properly between
their shadows and their substance."
"Duties superficially! I do not understand you, Miles. Certainly
Mr. Hardinge ought to be told what profession you mean to
follow. Remember, brother, he now fills the place of a parent to you."
"He is not more my parent than Rupert's—I fancy you will admit
that much!"
"Rupert, again! What has Rupert to do with your going to sea?"
"Promise me, then, to keep my secret, and you shall know all; both you
and Lucy must give me your words. I know you will not break them,
when once given."
"Promise him, Grace," said Lucy, in a low tone, and a voice that, even
at that age, I could perceive was tremulous. "If we promise, we shall
learn everything, and then may have some effect on these headstrong
boys by our advice."
"Boys! You cannot mean, Lucy, that Rupert is not to be a
clergyman—your father's assistant; that Rupert means to be a sailor,
too?"
"One never knows what boys will do. Let us promise them, dear; then we
can better judge."
"I do" promise you, Miles, "said my sister, in a voice so solemn as
almost to frighten me.
"And I, Miles," added Lucy; but it was so low, I had to lean forward
to catch the syllables.
"This is honest and right,"—it was honest, perhaps, but very
wrong,—"and it convinces me that you are both reasonable, and will be
of use to us. Rupert and I have both made up our minds, and intend to
be sailors."
Exclamations followed from both girls, and another long silence
succeeded.
"As for the law, hang all law!" I continued, hemming, and determined
to speak like a man. "I never heard of a Wallingford who was a
lawyer."
"But you have both heard of Hardinges who were clergymen," said
Grace, endeavouring to smile, though the expression of her countenance
was so painful that even now I dislike to recall it.
"And sailors, too," put in Rupert, a little more stoutly than I
thought possible. "My father's grandfather was an officer in the
navy."
"And my father was a sailor himself—in the navy, too."
"But there is no navy in this country now, Miles," returned Lucy, in
an expostulating tone.
"What of that? There are plenty of ships. The ocean is just as big,
and the world just as wide, as if we had a navy to cover the first. I
see no great objection on that account—do you, Ru?"
"Certainly not. What we want is to go to sea, and that can be done in
an Indiaman, as well as in a man-of-war."
"Yes," said I, stretching myself with a little importance. "I fancy
an Indiaman, a vessel that goes all the way to Calcutta, round the
Cape of Good Hope, in the track of Vasquez de Gama, isn't exactly an
Albany sloop."
"Who is Vasquez de Gama?" demanded Lucy, with so much quickness as to
surprise me.
"Why, a noble Portuguese, who discovered the Cape of Good Hope,
and first sailed round it, and then went to the Indies. You see,
girls, even nobles are sailors, and why should not Rupert and I
be sailors?"
"It is not that, Miles," my sister answered; "every honest calling is
respectable. Have you and Rupert spoken to Mr. Hardinge on this
subject?"
"Not exactly—not spoken—hinted only—that is, blindly—not so as to
be understood, perhaps."
"He will never consent, boys!" and this was uttered with
something very like an air of triumph.
"We have no intention of asking it of him, Grace. Rupert and I intend
to be off next week, without saying a word to Mr.
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