Even in the dining-room of the inn,
the be-whiskered and courteous waiter, lithe and silent in all his
movements, never seemed able to come straight to his table for an order
or a dish. He came by zigzags, indirectly, vaguely, so that he appeared
to be going to another table altogether, and only turned suddenly at
the last moment, and was there beside him.
Vezin smiled curiously to himself as he described
how he began to realize these things. Other tourists there were none in
the hostel, but he recalled the figures of one or two old men,
inhabitants, who took their dejeuner and dinner there, and
remembered how fantastically they entered the room in similar fashion.
First, they paused in the doorway, peering about the room, and then,
after a temporary inspection, they came in, as it were, sideways,
keeping close to the walls so that he wondered which table they were
making for, and at the last minute making almost a little quick run to
their particular seats. And again he thought of the ways and methods of
cats.
Other small incidents, too, impressed him as all
part of this queer, soft town with its muffled, indirect life, for the
way some of the people appeared and disappeared with extraordinary
swiftness puzzled him exceedingly. It may have been all perfectly
natural, he knew, yet he could not make it out how the alleys swallowed
them up and shot them forth in a second of time when there were no
visible doorways or openings near enough to explain the phenomenon.
Once he followed two elderly women who, he felt, had been particularly
examining him from across the street—quite near the inn this was—and
saw them turn the corner a few feet only in front of him. Yet when he
sharply followed on their heels he saw nothing but an utterly deserted
alley stretching in front of him with no sign of a living thing. And
the only opening through which they could have escaped was a porch some
fifty yards away, which not the swiftest human runner could have
reached in time.
And in just such sudden fashion people appeared, when he never
expected them. Once when he heard a great noise of fighting going on
behind a low wall, and hurried up to see what was going on, what should
he see but a group of girls and women engaged in vociferous
conversation which instantly hushed itself to the normal whispering
note of the town when his head appeared over the wall. And even then
none of them turned to look at him directly, but slunk off with the
most unaccountable rapidity into doors and sheds across the yard. And
their voices, he thought, had sounded so like, so strangely like, the
angry snarling of fighting animals, almost of cats.
The whole spirit of the town, however, continued to
evade him as something elusive, protean, screened from the outer world,
and at the same time intensely, genuinely vital; and, since he now
formed part of its life, this concealment puzzled and irritated him;
more—it began rather to frighten him.
Out of the mists that slowly gathered about his
ordinary surface thoughts, there rose again the idea that the
inhabitants were waiting for him to declare himself, to take an
attitude, to do this, or to do that; and that when he had done so they
in their turn would at length make some direct response, accepting or
rejecting him. Yet the vital matter concerning which his decision was
awaited came no nearer to him.
Once or twice he purposely followed little
processions or groups of the citizens in order to find out, if
possible, on what purpose they were bent; but they always discovered
him in time and dwindled away, each individual going his or her own
way. It was always the same: he never could learn what their main
interest was. The cathedral was ever empty, the old church of St.
Martin, at the other end of the town, deserted. They shopped because
they had to, and not because they wished to. The booths stood
neglected, the stalls unvisited, the little cafes desolate. Yet
the streets were always full, the townsfolk ever on the bustle.
“Can it be,” he thought to himself, yet with a
deprecating laugh that he should have dared to think anything so odd,
“can it be that these people are people of the twilight, that they live
only at night their real life, and come out honestly only with the
dusk? That during the day they make a sham though brave pretence, and
after the sun is down their true life begins? Have they the souls of
night-things, and is the whole blessed town in the hands of the cats?”
The fancy somehow electrified him with little shocks
of shrinking and dismay. Yet, though he affected to laugh, he knew that
he was beginning to feel more than uneasy, and that strange forces were
tugging with a thousand invisible cords at the very centre of his
being. Something utterly remote from his ordinary life, something that
had not waked for years, began faintly to stir in his soul, sending
feelers abroad into his brain and heart, shaping queer thoughts and
penetrating even into certain of his minor actions. Something
exceedingly vital to himself, to his soul, hung in the balance.
And, always when he returned to the inn about the hour
of sunset, he saw the figures of the townsfolk stealing through the
dusk from their shop doors, moving sentry-wise to and fro at the
corners of the streets, yet always vanishing silently like shadows at
his near approach. And as the inn invariably closed its doors at ten
o’clock he had never yet found the opportunity he rather half-heartedly
sought to see for himself what account the town could give of itself at
night.
“—a cause du sommeil et a cause des chats”—the
words now rang in his ears more and more often, though still as yet
without any definite meaning.
Moreover, something made him sleep like the dead.
It was, I think, on the fifth day—though in this
detail his story sometimes varied—that he made a definite discovery
which increased his alarm and brought him up to a rather sharp climax.
Before that he had already noticed that a change was going forward and
certain subtle transformations being brought about in his character
which modified several of his minor habits. And he had affected to
ignore them. Here, however, was something he could no longer ignore;
and it startled him.
At the best of times he was never very positive,
always negative rather, compliant and acquiescent; yet, when necessity
arose he was capable of reasonably vigorous action and could take a
strongish decision. The discovery he now made that brought him up with
such a sharp turn was that this power had positively dwindled to
nothing. He found it impossible to make up his mind. For, on this fifth
day, he realised that he had stayed long enough in the town and that
for reasons he could only vaguely define to himself it was wiser and
safer that he should leave.
And he found that he could not leave!
This is difficult to describe in words, and it was more by gesture
and the expression of his face that he conveyed to Dr. Silence the
state of impotence he had reached.
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