And
curious were the thoughts and sensations that accompanied him. Most of
all, perhaps, was the half suggestion of some dim memory that he had
known this girl before, had met her somewhere, more—that she knew him.
For in her voice—a low, soft, windy little voice it was, tender and
soothing for all its quiet coldness—there lay some faint reminder of
two others he had known, both long since gone: the voice of the woman
he had loved, and—the voice of his mother.
But this time through his dreams there ran no clash of battle. He
was conscious, rather, of something cold and clinging that made him
think of sifting snowflakes climbing slowly with entangling touch and
thickness round his feet. The snow, coming without noise, each flake so
light and tiny none can mark the spot whereon it settles, yet the mass
of it able to smother whole villages, wove through the very texture of
his mind—cold, bewildering, deadening effort with its clinging network
of ten million feathery touches.
In the morning Hibbert realised he had done, perhaps, a foolish
thing. The brilliant sunshine that drenched the valley made him see
this, and the sight of his work-table with its typewriter, books,
papers, and the rest, brought additional conviction. To have skated
with a girl alone at midnight, no matter how innocently the thing had
come about, was unwise—unfair, especially to her. Gossip in these
little winter resorts was worse than in a provincial town. He hoped no
one had seen them. Luckily the night had been dark. Most likely none
had heard the ring of skates.
Deciding that in future he would be more careful, he plunged into
work, and sought to dismiss the matter from his mind.
But in his times of leisure the memory returned persistently to
haunt him. When he “ski-d,” “luged,” or danced in the evenings, and
especially when he skated on the little rink, he was aware that the
eyes of his mind forever sought this strange companion of the night. A
hundred times he fancied that he saw her, but always sight deceived
him. Her face he might not know, but he could hardly fail to recognise
her figure. Yet nowhere among the others did he catch a glimpse of that
slim young creature he had skated with alone beneath the clouded stars.
He searched in vain. Even his inquiries as to the occupants of the
private chalets brought no results. He had lost her. But the queer
thing was that he felt as though she were somewhere close; he knew
she had not really gone. While people came and left with every day, it
never once occurred to him that she had left. On the contrary, he felt
assured that they would meet again.
This thought he never quite acknowledged. Perhaps it was the wish
that fathered it only. And, even when he did meet her, it was a
question how he would speak and claim acquaintance, or whether she
would recognise himself. It might be awkward. He almost came to dread a
meeting, though “dread,” of course, was far too strong a word to
describe an emotion that was half delight, half wondering anticipation.
Meanwhile the season was in full swing. Hibbert felt in perfect
health, worked hard, ski-d, skated, luged, and at night danced fairly
often—in spite of his decision. This dancing was, however, an act of
subconscious surrender; it really meant he hoped to find her among the
whirling couples. He was searching for her without quite acknowledging
it to himself; and the hotel-world, meanwhile, thinking it had won him
over, teased and chaffed him. He made excuses in a similar vein; but
all the time he watched and searched and—waited.
For several days the sky held clear and bright and frosty, bitterly
cold, everything crisp and sparkling in the sun; but there was no sign
of fresh snow, and the ski-ers began to grumble. On the mountains was
an icy crust that made “running” dangerous; they wanted the frozen,
dry, and powdery snow that makes for speed, renders steering easier and
falling less severe. But the keen east wind showed no signs of changing
for a whole ten days. Then, suddenly, there came a touch of softer air
and the weather-wise began to prophesy.
Hibbert, who was delicately sensitive to the least change in earth
or sky, was perhaps the first to feel it.
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