His
head was almost entirely bald, and over his turn-down collar his great
neck folded in two distinct reddish collops of flesh. His hands were
big and his fingers almost massive in thickness.
He was an excellent business man, of sane judgment and firm will,
without enough imagination to confuse his course of action by showing
him possible alternatives; and his integrity and ability caused him to
be held in universal respect by the world of business and finance. In
the important regions of a man’s character, however, and at heart, he
was coarse, brutal almost to savagery, without consideration for
others, and as a result often cruelly unjust to his helpless
subordinates.
In moments of temper, which were not infrequent, his face turned a
dull purple, while the top of his bald head shone by contrast like
white marble, and the bags under his eyes swelled till it seemed they
would presently explode with a pop. And at these times he presented a
distinctly repulsive appearance.
But to a private secretary like Jones, who did his duty regardless
of whether his employer was beast or angel, and whose mainspring was
principle and not emotion, this made little difference. Within the
narrow limits in which any one could satisfy such a man, he
pleased the General Manager; and more than once his piercing intuitive
faculty, amounting almost to clairvoyance, assisted the chief in a
fashion that served to bring the two closer together than might
otherwise have been the case, and caused the man to respect in his
assistant a power of which he possessed not even the germ himself. It
was a curious relationship that grew up between the two, and the
cashier, who enjoyed the credit of having made the selection, profited
by it indirectly as much as any one else.
So for some time the work of the office continued normally and very
prosperously. John Enderby Jones received a good salary, and in the
outward appearance of the two chief characters in this history there
was little change noticeable, except that the Manager grew fatter and
redder, and the secretary observed that his own hair was beginning to
show rather greyish at the temples.
There were, however, two changes in progress, and they both had to
do with Jones, and are important to mention.
One was that he began to dream evilly. In the region of deep sleep,
where the possibility of significant dreaming first develops itself, he
was tormented more and more with vivid scenes and pictures in which a
tall thin man, dark and sinister of countenance, and with bad eyes, was
closely associated with himself. Only the setting was that of a past
age, with costumes of centuries gone by, and the scenes had to do with
dreadful cruelties that could not belong to modern life as he knew it.
The other change was also significant, but is not so easy to
describe, for he had in fact become aware that some new portion of
himself, hitherto unawakened, had stirred slowly into life out of the
very depths of his consciousness. This new part of himself amounted
almost to another personality, and he never observed its least
manifestation without a strange thrill at his heart.
For he understood that it had begun to watch the Manager!
It was the habit of Jones, since he was compelled to work among
conditions that were utterly distasteful, to withdraw his mind wholly
from business once the day was over. During office hours he kept the
strictest possible watch upon himself, and turned the key on all inner
dreams, lest any sudden uprush from the deeps should interfere with his
duty. But, once the working day was over, the gates flew open, and he
began to enjoy himself.
He read no modern books on the subjects that interested him, and, as
already said, he followed no course of training, nor belonged to any
society that dabbled with half-told mysteries; but, once released from
the office desk in the Manager’s room, he simply and naturally entered
the other region, because he was an old inhabitant, a rightful denizen,
and because he belonged there. It was, in fact, really a case of dual
personality; and a carefully drawn agreement existed between
Jones-of-the-fire-insurance-office and Jones-of-the-mysteries, by the
terms of which, under heavy penalties, neither region claimed him out
of hours.
For the moment he reached his rooms under the roof in Bloomsbury,
and had changed his city coat to another, the iron doors of the office
clanged far behind him, and in front, before his very eyes, rolled up
the beautiful gates of ivory, and he entered into the places of flowers
and singing and wonderful veiled forms. Sometimes he quite lost touch
with the outer world, forgetting to eat his dinner or go to bed, and
lay in a state of trance, his consciousness working far out of the
body. And on other occasions he walked the streets on air, half-way
between the two regions, unable to distinguish between incarnate and
discarnate forms, and not very far, probably, beyond the strata where
poets, saints, and the greatest artists have moved and thought and
found their inspiration. But this was only when some insistent bodily
claim prevented his full release, and more often than not he was
entirely independent of his physical portion and free of the real
region, without let or hindrance.
One evening he reached home utterly exhausted after the burden of
the day’s work. The Manager had been more than usually brutal, unjust,
ill-tempered, and Jones had been almost persuaded out of his settled
policy of contempt into answering back. Everything seemed to have gone
amiss, and the man’s coarse, underbred nature had been in the ascendant
all day long: he had thumped the desk with his great fists, abused,
found fault unreasonably, uttered outrageous things, and behaved
generally as he actually was—beneath the thin veneer of acquired
business varnish. He had done and said everything to wound all that was
woundable in an ordinary secretary, and though Jones fortunately dwelt
in a region from which he looked down upon such a man as he might look
down on the blundering of a savage animal, the strain had nevertheless
told severely upon him, and he reached home wondering for the first
time in his life whether there was perhaps a point beyond which he
would be unable to restrain himself any longer.
For something out of the usual had happened. At the close of a
passage of great stress between the two, every nerve in the secretary’s
body tingling from undeserved abuse, the Manager had suddenly turned
full upon him, in the corner of the private room where the safes stood,
in such a way that the glare of his red eyes, magnified by the glasses,
looked straight into his own. And at this very second that other
personality in Jones—the one that was ever watching—rose up
swiftly from the deeps within and held a mirror to his face.
A moment of flame and vision rushed over him, and for one single
second—one merciless second of clear sight—he saw the Manager as the
tall dark man of his evil dreams, and the knowledge that he had
suffered at his hands some awful injury in the past crashed through his
mind like the report of a cannon.
It all flashed upon him and was gone, changing him from fire to ice,
and then back again to fire; and he left the office with the certain
conviction in his heart that the time for his final settlement with the
man, the time for the inevitable retribution, was at last drawing very
near.
According to his invariable custom, however, he succeeded in putting
the memory of all this unpleasantness out of his mind with the changing
of his office coat, and after dozing a little in his leather chair
before the fire, he started out as usual for dinner in the Soho French
restaurant, and began to dream himself away into the region of flowers
and singing, and to commune with the Invisibles that were the very
sources of his real life and being.
For it was in this way that his mind worked, and the habits of years
had crystallised into rigid lines along which it was now necessary and
inevitable for him to act.
At the door of the little restaurant he stopped short, a
half-remembered appointment in his mind. He had made an engagement with
some one, but where, or with whom, had entirely slipped his memory. He
thought it was for dinner, or else to meet just after dinner, and for a
second it came back to him that it had something to do with the office,
but, whatever it was, he was quite unable to recall it, and a reference
to his pocket engagement book showed only a blank page. Evidently he
had even omitted to enter it; and after standing a moment vainly trying
to recall either the time, place, or person, he went in and sat down.
But though the details had escaped him, his subconscious memory
seemed to know all about it, for he experienced a sudden sinking of the
heart, accompanied by a sense of foreboding anticipation, and felt that
beneath his exhaustion there lay a centre of tremendous excitement. The
emotion caused by the engagement was at work, and would presently cause
the actual details of the appointment to reappear.
Inside the restaurant the feeling increased, instead of passing:
some one was waiting for him somewhere—some one whom he had definitely
arranged to meet. He was expected by a person that very night and just
about that very time. But by whom? Where? A curious inner trembling
came over him, and he made a strong effort to hold himself in hand and
to be ready for anything that might come.
And then suddenly came the knowledge that the place of appointment
was this very restaurant, and, further, that the person he had promised
to meet was already here, waiting somewhere quite close beside him.
He looked up nervously and began to examine the faces round him. The
majority of the diners were Frenchmen, chattering loudly with much
gesticulation and laughter; and there was a fair sprinkling of clerks
like himself who came because the prices were low and the food good,
but there was no single face that he recognised until his glance fell
upon the occupant of the corner seat opposite, generally filled by
himself.
“There’s the man who’s waiting for me!” thought Jones instantly.
He knew it at once. The man, he saw, was sitting well back into the
corner, with a thick overcoat buttoned tightly up to the chin. His skin
was very white, and a heavy black beard grew far up over his cheeks.
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