Here, opening from the darkness of
desire, are eyes that dim the breaking East, their shimmer the shimmer of the
scum that mantles the cesspool of the court of slobbering James. Here are wines
all ambered, dying fallings of sweet airs, the proud pavan, kind gentlewomen wooing from their balconies with
sucking mouths, the pow-fouled wenches and young
wives that, gaily yielding to their ravishers, clip and clip again.

In the raw veiled spring morning faint odours float of morning Paris: aniseed, damp sawdust, hot
dough of bread: and as I cross the Pont Saint Michel the steel-blue waking
waters chill my heart. They creep and lap about the island whereon men have
lived since the stone age . . . . . Tawny gloom in the
vast gargoyled church. It is cold as on that morning:
quiafrigus erat.
Upon the steps of the far high altar, naked as the body of the Lord, the
ministers lie prostrate in weak prayer. The voice of an unseen reader rises,
intoning the lesson from Hosea. Haecdicit
Dominus: in tribulation sua mane consurgent
ad me. Venite et revertamur ad Dominum....
She stands beside me, pale and chill, clothed with the shadows of the sindark nave, her thin elbow at my arm. Her flesh recalls
the thrill of that raw mist-veiled morning, hurrying torches, cruel eyes. Her
soul is sorrowful, trembles and would weep. Weep not for me, O daughter of
Jerusalem!
I expound Shakespeare to docile Trieste:
Hamlet, quoth I, who is most courteous to gentle and
simple is rude only to Polonius. Perhaps, an embittered idealist, he can see in
the parents of his beloved only grotesque attempts on the part of nature to
produce her image........... Marked you that?

She walks before me along the corridor
and as she walks a dark coil of her hair slowly uncoils and falls. Slowly uncoiling, falling hair. She does not know and walks
before me, simple and proud. So did she walk by Dante in simple pride and so,
stainless of blood and violation, the daughter of Cenci, Beatrice, to her
death:
........ Tie
My girdle for me
and bind up this hair
In
any simple knot.
The housemaid tells me that they had to
take her away at once to the hospital, poveretta,
that she suffered so much, so much, poveretta,
that it is very grave...... I walk away from her empty house. I feel that I am
about to cry. Ah, no! It will not be like that, in a moment, without a word,
without a look. No, no! Surely hell’s luck will not fail me!
Operated. The surgeon’s
knife has probed in her entrails and withdrawn, leaving the raw jagged gash of
its passage on her belly. I see her full dark suffering eyes, beautiful as the
eyes of an antelope. O cruel wound! Libidinous God!
Once more in her chair by the window,
happy words on her tongue, happy laughter. A bird twittering after storm, happy
that its little foolish life has fluttered out of reach of the clutching
fingers of an epileptic lord and giver of life, twittering happily, twittering
and chirping happily.

She says that, had The Portrait of
the Artist been frank only for frankness’ sake, she would have asked why I
had given it to her to read. O you would, would you? A lady
of letters.
She stands black-robed at the telephone.
Little timid laughs, little cries, timid runs of speech suddenly broken.... Paleròcolla mamma.... Come! chook, chook! come! The black
pullet is frightened: little runs suddenly broken, little timid cries: it is
crying for its mamma, the portly hen.
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