"He is drunk; can't you see that the man is drunk?"
Strange as I was at this instant to myself, so absolutely a prey
to peculiar invisible inner influences, nothing occurred around me
without my observing it. A large, brown dog sprang right across the
street towards the shrubbery, and then down towards the Tivoli; he
had on a very narrow collar of German silver. Farther up the street
a window opened on the second floor, and a servant-maid leant out
of it, with her sleeves turned up, and began to clean the panes on
the outside. Nothing escaped my notice; I was clear-headed and
ready-witted. Everything rushed in upon me with a gleaming
distinctness, as if I were suddenly surrounded by a strong light.
The ladies before me had each a blue bird's wing in their hats, and
a plaid silk ribbon round their necks. It struck me that they were
sisters.
They turned, stopped at Cisler's music-shop, and spoke together.
I stopped also. Thereupon they both came back, went the same road
as they had come, passed me again, and turned the corner of
University Street and up towards St. Olav's place. I was all the
time as close at their heels as I dared to be. They turned round
once, and sent me a half-fearful, half-questioning look, and I saw
no resentment nor any trace of a frown in it.
This forbearance with my annoyance shamed me thoroughly and made
me lower my eyes. I would no longer be a trouble to them; out of
sheer gratitude I would follow them with my gaze, not lose sight of
them until they entered some place safely and disappeared.
Outside No. 2, a large four-storeyed house, they turned again
before going in. I leant against a lamp-post near the fountain and
listened for their footsteps on the stairs. They died away on the
second floor. I advanced from the lamp-post and looked up at the
house. Then something odd happened. The curtains above were
stirred, and a second after a window opened, a head popped out, and
two singular-looking eyes dwelt on me. "Ylajali!" I muttered,
half-aloud, and I felt I grew red.
Why does she not call for help, or push over one of these
flower-pots and strike me on the head, or send some one down to
drive me away? We stand and look into one another's eyes without
moving; it lasts a minute. Thoughts dart between the window and the
street, and not a word is spoken. She turns round, I feel a wrench
in me, a delicate shock through my senses; I see a shoulder that
turns, a back that disappears across the floor. That reluctant
turning from the window, the accentuation in that movement of the
shoulders was like a nod to me. My blood was sensible of all the
delicate, dainty greeting, and I felt all at once rarely glad. Then
I wheeled round and went down the street.
I dared not look back, and knew not if she had returned to the
window. The more I considered this question the more nervous and
restless I became. Probably at this very moment she was standing
watching closely all my movements. It is by no means comfortable to
know that you are being watched from behind your back. I pulled
myself together as well as I could and proceeded on my way; my legs
began to jerk under me, my gait became unsteady just because I
purposely tried to make it look well. In order to appear at ease
and indifferent, I flung my arms about, spat out, and threw my head
well back--all without avail, for I continually felt the pursuing
eyes on my neck, and a cold shiver ran down my back. At length I
escaped down a side street, from which I took the road to Pyle
Street to get my pencil.
I had no difficulty in recovering it; the man brought me the
waistcoat himself, and as he did so, begged me to search through
all the pockets. I found also a couple of pawn-tickets which I
pocketed as I thanked the obliging little man for his civility.
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