Legrandin, who,
detained in Paris by his professional duties as an engineer, could
only (except in the regular holiday seasons) visit his home at
Combray between Saturday evenings and Monday mornings. He was one
of that class of men who, apart from a scientific career in which
they may well have proved brilliantly successful, have acquired an
entirely different kind of culture, literary or artistic, of which
they make no use in the specialised work of their profession, but
by which their conversation profits. More 'literary' than many 'men
of letters' (we were not aware at this period that M. Legrandin had
a distinct reputation as a writer, and so were greatly astonished
to find that a well-known composer had set some verses of his to
music), endowed with a greater ease in execution than many
painters, they imagine that the life they are obliged to lead is
not that for which they are really fitted, and they bring to their
regular occupations either a fantastic indifference or a sustained
and lofty application, scornful, bitter, and conscientious. Tall,
with a good figure, a fine, thoughtful face, drooping fair
moustaches, a look of disillusionment in his blue eyes, an almost
exaggerated refinement of courtesy; a talker such as we had never
heard; he was in the sight of my family, who never ceased to quote
him as an example, the very pattern of a gentleman, who took life
in the noblest and most delicate manner. My grandmother alone found
fault with him for speaking a little too well, a little too much
like a book, for not using a vocabulary as natural as his loosely
knotted Lavallière neckties, his short, straight, almost
schoolboyish coat. She was astonished, too, at the furious
invective which he was always launching at the aristocracy, at
fashionable life, and 'snobbishness'—"undoubtedly," he would say,
"the sin of which Saint Paul is thinking when he speaks of the sin
for which there is no forgiveness."
Worldly ambition was a thing which my grandmother was so little
capable of feeling, or indeed of understanding, that it seemed to
her futile to apply so much heat to its condemnation. Besides, she
thought it in not very good taste that M. Legrandin, whose sister
was married to a country gentleman of Lower Normandy near Balbec,
should deliver himself of such violent attacks upon the nobles,
going so far as to blame the Revolution for not having guillotined
them all.
"Well met, my friends!" he would say as he came towards us. "You
are lucky to spend so much time here; to-morrow I have to go back
to Paris, to squeeze back into my niche.
"Oh, I admit," he went on, with his own peculiar smile, gently
ironical, disillusioned and vague, "I have every useless thing in
the world in my house there. The only thing wanting is the
necessary thing, a great patch of open sky like this. Always try to
keep a patch of sky above your life, little boy," he added, turning
to me. "You have a soul in you of rare quality, an artist's nature;
never let it starve for lack of what it needs."
When, on our reaching the house, my aunt would send to ask us
whether Mme. Goupil had indeed arrived late for mass, not one of us
could inform her. Instead, we increased her anxiety by telling her
that there was a painter at work in the church copying the window
of Gilbert the Bad. Françoise was at once dispatched to the
grocer's, but returned empty-handed owing to the absence of
Théodore, whose dual profession of choirman, with a part in the
maintenance of the fabric, and of grocer's assistant gave him not
only relations with all sections of society, but an encyclopaedic
knowledge of their affairs.
"Ah!" my aunt would sigh, "I wish it were time for Eulalie to
come. She is really the only person who will be able to tell
me."
Eulalie was a limping, energetic, deaf spinster who had
'retired' after the death of Mme. de la Bretonnerie, with whom she
had been in service from her childhood, and had then taken a room
beside the church, from which she would incessantly emerge, either
to attend some service, or, when there was no service, to say a
prayer by herself or to give Théodore a hand; the rest of her time
she spent in visiting sick persons like my aunt Léonie, to whom she
would relate everything that had occurred at mass or vespers. She
was not above adding occasional pocket-money to the little income
which was found for her by the family of her old employers by going
from time to time to look after the Curé's linen, or that of some
other person of note in the clerical world of Combray. Above a
mantle of black cloth she wore a little white coif that seemed
almost to attach her to some Order, and an infirmity of the skin
had stained part of her cheeks and her crooked nose the bright red
colour of balsam. Her visits were the one great distraction in the
life of my aunt Léonie, who now saw hardly anyone else, except the
reverend Curé. My aunt had by degrees erased every other visitor's
name from her list, because they all committed the fatal error, in
her eyes, of falling into one or other of the two categories of
people she most detested. One group, the worse of the two, and the
one of which she rid herself first, consisted of those who advised
her not to take so much care of herself, and preached (even if only
negatively and with no outward signs beyond an occasional
disapproving silence or doubting smile) the subversive doctrine
that a sharp walk in the sun and a good red beefsteak would do her
more good (her, who had had two dreadful sips of Vichy water on her
stomach for fourteen hours!) than all her medicine bottles and her
bed. The other category was composed of people who appeared to
believe that she was more seriously ill than she thought, in fact
that she was as seriously ill as she said. And so none of those
whom she had allowed upstairs to her room, after considerable
hesitation and at Franchise's urgent request, and who in the course
of their visit had shewn how unworthy they were of the honour which
had been done them by venturing a timid: "Don't you think that if
you were just to stir out a little on really fine days...?" or who,
on the other hand, when she said to them: "I am very low, very low;
nearing the end, dear friends!" had replied: "Ah, yes, when one has
no strength left! Still, you may last a while yet"; each party
alike might be certain that her doors would never open to them
again. And if Françoise was amused by the look of consternation on
my aunt's face whenever she saw, from her bed, any of these people
in the Rue du Saint-Esprit, who looked as if they were coming to
see her, or heard her own door-bell ring, she would laugh far more
heartily, as at a clever trick, at my aunt's devices (which never
failed) for having them sent away, and at their look of
discomfiture when they had to turn back without having seen her;
and would be filled with secret admiration for her mistress, whom
she felt to be superior to all these other people, inasmuch as she
could and did contrive not to see them. In short, my aunt
stipulated, at one and the same time, that whoever came to see her
must approve of her way of life, commiserate with her in her
sufferings, and assure her of an ultimate recovery.
In all this Eulalie excelled. My aunt might say to her twenty
times in a minute: "The end is come at last, my poor Eulalie!",
twenty times Eulalie would retort with: "Knowing your illness as
you do, Mme. Octave, you will live to be a hundred, as Mme. Sazerin
said to me only yesterday." For one of Eulalie's most rooted
beliefs, and one that the formidable list of corrections which her
experience must have compiled was powerless to eradicate, was that
Mme.
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