I noticed
before his door a carriage and pair, with red carnations on the
horses' blinkers and in the coachman's buttonhole. As I climbed the
staircase I could hear laughter and a woman's voice, and, as soon
as I had rung, silence and the sound of shutting doors. The
man-servant who let me in appeared embarrassed, and said that my
uncle was extremely busy and probably could not see me; he went in,
however, to announce my arrival, and the same voice I had heard
before said: "Oh, yes! Do let him come in; just for a moment; it
will be so amusing. Is that his photograph there, on your desk? And
his mother (your niece, isn't she?) beside it? The image of her,
isn't he? I should so like to see the little chap, just for a
second."
I could hear my uncle grumbling and growing angry; finally the
manservant told me to come in.
On the table was the same plate of marchpanes that was always
there; my uncle wore the same alpaca coat as on other days; but
opposite to him, in a pink silk dress with a great necklace of
pearls about her throat, sat a young woman who was just finishing a
tangerine. My uncertainty whether I ought to address her as Madame
or Mademoiselle made me blush, and not daring to look too much in
her direction, in case I should be obliged to speak to her, I
hurried across to kiss my uncle. She looked at me and smiled; my
uncle said "My nephew!" without telling her my name or telling me
hers, doubtless because, since his difficulties with my
grandfather, he had endeavoured as far as possible to avoid any
association of his family with this other class of
acquaintance.
"How like his mother he is," said the lady.
"But you have never seen my niece, except in photographs," my
uncle broke in quickly, with a note of anger.
"I beg your pardon, dear friend, I passed her on the staircase
last year when you were so ill. It is true I only saw her for a
moment, and your staircase is rather dark; but I saw well enough to
see how lovely she was. This young gentleman has her beautiful
eyes, and also this," she went on, tracing a line with one finger
across the lower part of her forehead. "Tell me," she asked my
uncle, "is your niece Mme.——; is her name the same as yours?"
"He takes most after his father," muttered my uncle, who was no
more anxious to effect an introduction by proxy, in repeating
Mamma's name aloud, than to bring the two together in the flesh.
"He's his father all over, and also like my poor mother."
"I have not met his father, dear," said the lady in pink, bowing
her head slightly, "and I never saw your poor mother. You will
remember it was just after your great sorrow that we got to know
one another."
I felt somewhat disillusioned, for this young lady was in no way
different from other pretty women whom I had seen from time to time
at home, especially the daughter of one of our cousins, to whose
house I went every New Year's Day. Only better dressed; otherwise
my uncle's friend had the same quick and kindly glance, the same
frank and friendly manner. I could find no trace in her of the
theatrical appearance which I admired in photographs of actresses,
nothing of the diabolical expression which would have been in
keeping with the life she must lead. I had difficulty in believing
that this was one of 'those women,' and certainly I should never
have believed her one of the 'smart ones' had I not seen the
carriage and pair, the pink dress, the pearly necklace, had I not
been aware, too, that my uncle knew only the very best of them. But
I asked myself how the millionaire who gave her her carriage and
her flat and her jewels could find any pleasure in flinging his
money away upon a woman who had so simple and respectable an
appearance. And yet, when I thought of what her life must be like,
its immorality disturbed me more, perhaps, than if it had stood
before me in some concrete and recognisable form, by its secrecy
and invisibility, like the plot of a novel, the hidden truth of a
scandal which had driven out of the home of her middle-class
parents and dedicated to the service of all mankind which had
brought to the flowering-point of her beauty, had raised to fame or
notoriety this woman, the play of whose features, the intonations
of whose voice, like so many others I already knew, made me regard
her, in spite of myself, as a young lady of good family, her who
was no longer of a family at all.
We had gone by this time into the 'study,' and my uncle, who
seemed a trifle embarrassed by my presence, offered her a
cigarette.
"No, thank you, dear friend," she said. "You know I only smoke
the ones the Grand Duke sends me. I tell him that they make you
jealous." And she drew from a case cigarettes covered with
inscriptions in gold, in a foreign language. "Why, yes," she began
again suddenly. "Of course I have met this young man's father with
you. Isn't he your nephew? How on earth could I have forgotten? He
was so nice, so charming to me," she went on, modestly and with
feeling. But when I thought to myself what must actually have been
the rude greeting (which, she made out, had been so charming), I,
who knew my father's coldness and reserve, was shocked, as though
at some indelicacy on his part, at the contrast between the
excessive recognition bestowed on it and his never adequate
geniality. It has since struck me as one of the most touching
aspects of the part played in life by these idle, painstaking women
that they devote all their generosity, all their talent, their
transferable dreams of sentimental beauty (for, like all artists,
they never seek to realise the value of those dreams, or to enclose
them in the four-square frame of everyday life), and their gold,
which counts for little, to the fashioning of a fine and precious
setting for the rubbed and scratched and ill-polished lives of men.
And just as this one filled the smoking-room, where my uncle was
entertaining her in his alpaca coat, with her charming person, her
dress of pink silk, her pearls, and the refinement suggested by
intimacy with a Grand Duke, so, in the same way, she had taken some
casual remark by my father, had worked it up delicately, given it a
'turn,' a precious title, set in it the gem of a glance from her
own eyes, a gem of the first water, blended of humility and
gratitude; and so had given it back transformed into a jewel, a
work of art, into something altogether charming.
"Look here, my boy, it is time you went away," said my
uncle.
I rose; I could scarcely resist a desire to kiss the hand of the
lady in pink, but I felt that to do so would require as much
audacity as a forcible abduction of her. My heart beat loud while I
counted out to myself "Shall I do it, shall I not?" and then I
ceased to ask myself what I ought to do so as at least to do
something. Blindly, hotly, madly, flinging aside all the reasons I
had just found to support such action, I seized and raised to my
lips the hand she held out to me.
"Isn't he delicious! Quite a ladies' man already; he takes after
his uncle. He'll be a perfect 'gentleman,'" she went on, setting
her teeth so as to give the word a kind of English accentuation.
"Couldn't he come to me some day for 'a cup of tea,' as our friends
across the channel say; he need only send me a 'blue' in the
morning?"
I had not the least idea of what a 'blue' might be. I did not
understand half the words which the lady used, but my fear lest
there should be concealed in them some question which it would be
impolite in me not to answer kept me from withdrawing my close
attention from them, and I was beginning to feel extremely
tired.
"No, no; it is impossible," said my uncle, shrugging his
shoulders. "He is kept busy at home all day; he has plenty of work
to do. He brings back all the prizes from his school," he added in
a lower tone, so that I should not hear this falsehood and
interrupt with a contradiction. "You can't tell; he may turn out a
little Victor Hugo, a kind of Vaulabelle, don't you know."
"Oh, I love artistic people," replied the lady in pink; "there
is no one like them for understanding women. Them, and really nice
men like yourself.
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