And to see her look displeased destroyed all the sense
of tranquillity she had brought me a moment before, when she bent
her loving face down over my bed, and held it out to me like a
Host, for an act of Communion in which my lips might drink deeply
the sense of her real presence, and with it the power to sleep. But
those evenings on which Mamma stayed so short a time in my room
were sweet indeed compared to those on which we had guests to
dinner, and therefore she did not come at all. Our 'guests' were
practically limited to M. Swann, who, apart from a few passing
strangers, was almost the only person who ever came to the house at
Combray, sometimes to a neighbourly dinner (but less frequently
since his unfortunate marriage, as my family did not care to
receive his wife) and sometimes after dinner, uninvited. On those
evenings when, as we sat in front of the house beneath the big
chestnut-tree and round the iron table, we heard, from the far end
of the garden, not the large and noisy rattle which heralded and
deafened as he approached with its ferruginous, interminable,
frozen sound any member of the household who had put it out of
action by coming in 'without ringing,' but the double peal—timid,
oval, gilded—of the visitors' bell, everyone would at once exclaim
"A visitor! Who in the world can it be?" but they knew quite well
that it could only be M. Swann. My great-aunt, speaking in a loud
voice, to set an example, in a tone which she endeavoured to make
sound natural, would tell the others not to whisper so; that
nothing could be more unpleasant for a stranger coming in, who
would be led to think that people were saying things about him
which he was not meant to hear; and then my grandmother would be
sent out as a scout, always happy to find an excuse for an
additional turn in the garden, which she would utilise to remove
surreptitiously, as she passed, the stakes of a rose-tree or two,
so as to make the roses look a little more natural, as a mother
might run her hand through her boy's hair, after the barber had
smoothed it down, to make it stick out properly round his head.
And there we would all stay, hanging on the words which would
fall from my grandmother's lips when she brought us back her report
of the enemy, as though there had been some uncertainty among a
vast number of possible invaders, and then, soon after, my
grandfather would say: "I can hear Swann's voice." And, indeed, one
could tell him only by his voice, for it was difficult to make out
his face with its arched nose and green eyes, under a high forehead
fringed with fair, almost red hair, dressed in the Bressant style,
because in the garden we used as little light as possible, so as
not to attract mosquitoes: and I would slip away as though not
going for anything in particular, to tell them to bring out the
syrups; for my grandmother made a great point, thinking it 'nicer/
of their not being allowed to seem anything out of the ordinary,
which we kept for visitors only. Although a far younger man, M.
Swann was very much attached to my grandfather, who had been an
intimate friend, in his time, of Swann's father, an excellent but
an eccentric man in whom the least little thing would, it seemed,
often check the flow of his spirits and divert the current of his
thoughts. Several times in the course of a year I would hear my
grandfather tell at table the story, which never varied, of the
behaviour of M. Swann the elder upon the death of his wife, by
whose bedside he had watched day and night. My grandfather, who had
not seen him for a long time, hastened to join him at the Swanns'
family property on the outskirts of Combray, and managed to entice
him for a moment, weeping profusely, out of the death-chamber, so
that he should not be present when the body was laid in its coffin.
They took a turn or two in the park, where there was a little
sunshine. Suddenly M. Swann seized my grandfather by the arm and
cried, "Oh, my dear old friend, how fortunate we are to be walking
here together on such a charming day! Don't you see how pretty they
are, all these trees—my hawthorns, and my new pond, on which you
have never congratulated me? You look as glum as a night-cap. Don't
you feel this little breeze? Ah! whatever you may say, it's good to
be alive all the same, my dear Amédée!" And then, abruptly, the
memory of his dead wife returned to him, and probably thinking it
too complicated to inquire into how, at such a time, he could have
allowed himself to be carried away by an impulse of happiness, he
confined himself to a gesture which he habitually employed whenever
any perplexing question came into his mind: that is, he passed his
hand across his forehead, dried his eyes, and wiped his glasses.
And he could never be consoled for the loss of his wife, but used
to say to my grandfather, during the two years for which he
survived her, "It's a funny thing, now; I very often think of my
poor wife, but I cannot think of her very much at any one time."
"Often, but a little at a time, like poor old Swann," became one of
my grandfather's favourite phrases, which he would apply to all
kinds of things. And I should have assumed that this father of
Swann's had been a monster if my grandfather, whom I regarded as a
better judge than myself, and whose word was my law and often led
me in the long run to pardon offences which I should have been
inclined to condemn, had not gone on to exclaim, "But, after all,
he had a heart of gold."
For many years, albeit—and especially before his marriage—M.
Swann the younger came often to see them at Combray, my great-aunt
and grandparents never suspected that he had entirely ceased to
live in the kind of society which his family had frequented, or
that, under the sort of incognito which the name of Swann gave him
among us, they were harbouring—with the complete innocence of a
family of honest innkeepers who have in their midst some
distinguished highwayman and never know it—one of the smartest
members of the Jockey Club, a particular friend of the Comte de
Paris and of the Prince of Wales, and one of the men most sought
after in the aristocratic world of the Faubourg Saint-Germain.
Our utter ignorance of the brilliant part which Swann was
playing in the world of fashion was, of course, due in part to his
own reserve and discretion, but also to the fact that middle-class
people in those days took what was almost a Hindu view of society,
which they held to consist of sharply defined castes, so that
everyone at his birth found himself called to that station in life
which his parents already occupied, and nothing, except the chance
of a brilliant career or of a 'good' marriage, could extract you
from that station or admit you to a superior caste. M. Swann, the
father, had been a stockbroker; and so 'young Swann' found himself
immured for life in a caste where one's fortune, as in a list of
taxpayers, varied between such and such limits of income. We knew
the people with whom his father had associated, and so we knew his
own associates, the people with whom he was 'in a position to mix.'
If he knew other people besides, those were youthful acquaintances
on whom the old friends of the family, like my relatives, shut
their eyes all the more good-naturedly that Swann himself, after he
was left an orphan, still came most faithfully to see us; but we
would have been ready to wager that the people outside our
acquaintance whom Swann knew were of the sort to whom he would not
have dared to raise his hat, had he met them while he was walking
with ourselves. Had there been such a thing as a determination to
apply to Swann a social coefficient peculiar to himself, as
distinct from all the other sons of other stockbrokers in his
father's position, his coefficient would have been rather lower
than theirs, because, leading a very simple life, and having always
had a craze for 'antiques' and pictures, he now lived and piled up
his collections in an old house which my grandmother longed to
visit, but which stood on the Quai d'Orléans, a neighbourhood in
which my great-aunt thought it most degrading to be quartered. "Are
you really a connoisseur, now?" she would say to him; "I ask for
your own sake, as you are likely to have 'fakes' palmed off on you
by the dealers," for she did not, in fact, endow him with any
critical faculty, and had no great opinion of the intelligence of a
man who, in conversation, would avoid serious topics and shewed a
very dull preciseness, not only when he gave us kitchen recipes,
going into the most minute details, but even when my grandmother's
sisters were talking to him about art. When challenged by them to
give an opinion, or to express his admiration for some picture, he
would remain almost impolitely silent, and would then make amends
by furnishing (if he could) some fact or other about the gallery in
which the picture was hung, or the date at which it had been
painted. But as a rule he would content himself with trying to
amuse us by telling us the story of his latest adventure—and he
would have a fresh story for us on every occasion—with some one
whom we ourselves knew, such as the Combray chemist, or our cook,
or our coachman. These stories certainly used to make my great-aunt
laugh, but she could never tell whether that was on account of the
absurd parts which Swann invariably made himself play in the
adventures, or of the wit that he shewed in telling us of them. "It
is easy to see that you are a regular 'character,' M. Swann!"
As she was the only member of our family who could be described
as a trifle 'common,' she would always take care to remark to
strangers, when Swann was mentioned, that he could easily, if he
had wished to, have lived in the Boulevard Haussmann or the Avenue
de l'Opéra, and that he was the son of old M. Swann who must have
left four or five million francs, but that it was a fad of his. A
fad which, moreover, she thought was bound to amuse other people so
much that in Paris, when M. Swann called on New Year's Day bringing
her a little packet of marrons glacés, she never failed, if
there were strangers in the room, to say to him: "Well, M. Swann,
and do you still live next door to the Bonded Vaults, so as to be
sure of not missing your train when you go to Lyons?" and she would
peep out of the corner of her eye, over her glasses, at the other
visitors.
But if anyone had suggested to my aunt that this Swann, who, in
his capacity as the son of old M. Swann, was 'fully qualified' to
be received by any of the 'upper middle class,' the most respected
barristers and solicitors of Paris (though he was perhaps a trifle
inclined to let this hereditary privilege go into abeyance), had
another almost secret existence of a wholly different kind: that
when he left our house in Paris, saying that he must go home to
bed, he would no sooner have turned the corner than he would stop,
retrace his steps, and be off to some drawing-room on whose like no
stockbroker or associate of stockbrokers had ever set eyes—that
would have seemed to my aunt as extraordinary as, to a woman of
wider reading, the thought of being herself on terms of intimacy
with Aristaeus, of knowing that he would, when he had finished his
conversation with her, plunge deep into the realms of Thetis, into
an empire veiled from mortal eyes, in which Virgil depicts him as
being received with open arms; or—to be content with an image more
likely to have occurred to her, for she had seen it painted on the
plates we used for biscuits at Combray—as the thought of having had
to dinner Ali Baba, who, as soon as he found himself alone and
unobserved, would make his way into the cave, resplendent with its
unsuspected treasures.
One day when he had come to see us after dinner in Paris, and
had begged pardon for being in evening clothes, Françoise, when he
had gone, told us that she had got it from his coachman that he had
been dining "with a princess." "A pretty sort of princess," drawled
my aunt; "I know them," and she shrugged her shoulders without
raising her eyes from her knitting, serenely ironical.
Altogether, my aunt used to treat him with scant ceremony.
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