It was
universally agreed that he had met with the most atrocious luck. Afterwards,
however, he looked back upon his period in hospital as the time when he
really began to know Russia and the Russians. To begin with, he made great
progress with the language. None of the nurses or patients could speak any
English and after his third week in hospital he found himself beginning to
converse with them fairly easily. What struck him most was the general
eagerness to help him; he could not imagine a foreigner in a London hospital
being so treated. Both men next to him were badly wounded (one in the stomach
and the other with both legs amputated), yet both took a keen delight in
teaching him new words. They were middle-aged, with wives and families
thousands of miles west; they accepted their lot with a fatalism that was
bewildered rather than stoic. One of them always screamed when his wounds
were being dressed, and always apologised to A.J. afterwards for having
disturbed him. Neither could read or write, yet when A.J. read to them, very
haltingly and with very bad pronunciation, from a book by Gogol, they
listened enthralled. They were devoutly religious and also very
superstitious. They had not the slightest idea why their country was fighting
Japan, but they assumed it must be God’s will. The one with the
amputations did not seem to worry very much; his attitude seemed chiefly one
of puzzlement. It had all happened so quickly, almost as soon as he had gone
into battle; he had had no time to fight any of the enemy; indeed, it was as
if he had travelled seven thousand miles merely to have his legs blown off.
He could not get rid of a dim feeling that the Japanese must have been
personally angry with him to have done such a thing. He felt no
vindictiveness, however. There was a badly wounded Japanese in the ward; the
men treated him very courteously and often spoke sympathetically to one
another about him. As they did not know a word of his language nor he a word
of theirs, it was all that could be done.
Both A.J.’s neighbours told him all about themselves and showed the
frankest curiosity about his own life. They thought it very strange that
people in England were so interested in the war that they would send out men
especially to describe it for them, and they were amazed when A.J. told them
how much his journey had cost, the price of his cables to the Comet,
and so on. They listened with great interest to anything he told them about
English life, English politics, and so on, though such matters were difficult
to compress within the confines of his still limited Russian. They always
showed their appreciation with the most childlike directness, often giving
him articles of food which he really did not want, but which he could not
refuse without risk of hurting their feelings.
The effect of his weeks in hospital was to give him an extraordinarily
real and deep affection for these simple-hearted men as well as a bitter
indignation against the scheme of things that had driven them from their
homes to be maimed and shattered in a quarrel they did not even understand.
The fact that they did not complain themselves made him all the more inclined
to complain for them, and the constant ingress of fresh wounded to take the
place of men who died had a poignantly cumulative effect upon his emotions.
He had already cabled Aitchison about his illness, promising to resume his
job as soon as he could; now he began to feel that his real message might be
sent as appropriately from a bed in hospital as from a position near the
lines. After all, it was the tragic cost of war that people needed to
realise; they were in no danger of forgetting its excitements and occasional
glories. In such a mood he began to compose cables which a friendly nurse
despatched for him from the local telegraph-office. He described the pathos
and heroism of the Russian wounded, their childlike patience and utter lack
of hatred for the enemy, their willingness to endure what they could not
understand. After his third cable on such lines a reply came from
Aitchison—’Cannot use your stuff advise you return immediately
sending out Ferguson.’ So there it was; he was cashiered, sacked; they
were sending out Ferguson, the well-known traveller and war-correspondent who
had made his name in South Africa. A.J. was acidly disappointed, of course,
and also (when he came to think about it) rather worried about the future.
There was nothing for it but to pack up and return to Europe as soon as he
was fit to leave hospital—to Europe, but not to England. The thought of
London, of the London streets, and of Fleet Street, especially, appalled him
in a way he could not exactly analyse. He had a little money still left and
began to think of living in France or Germany as long as it held out, and as
the most obvious economy he would travel back third-class.
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