And if by any chance we should need to bother you again….”
“It’s no bother at all to me, but I have an idea something must be
bothering you. Can’t you let me in on it?”
“No,” he said, smiling completely for the first time. He had good strong
teeth and the smile made rather babyish dimples. I took off ten years from my
first guess of his age; perhaps he was thirty-five.
“A secret?” I said.
“Yes.”
“Top secret?” (They like you to use their jargon.)
“Just a secret.” (Perhaps it wasn’t their jargon.)
“I see.”
I smiled back and walked towards the door. He overtook me, yet somehow
without hurry, before I reached it; turning the handle, he put himself with
me in the doorway. “Nice of you to come so promptly. I hope you didn’t make a
special trip—any time within a few days would have been all right.”
“Oh, I go downtown quite a lot.”
“Your father’s office?”
“Oftener the Village. More in my line than Wall Street.”
“Ah yes, of course. Writers and artists.” He cupped my elbow with his
hand. “I’ll have to think over your request for Brad’s address. Might be able
to oblige you, though of course we’re not a bureau of missing persons….
Well, thanks again…. Good-by.”
“But he isn’t exactly missing if you know his address, is he?… Good-by,
Mr. Small.”
In the elevator going down I thought I had done rather well. Or had I?…
Suddenly I realized that he had called him Brad. Was that to test me?
But of course I would have admitted readily enough that I used to call him
Brad. Nothing significant about that. It was probably their
technique—to leave you with a feeling that they know more than you
think they know, so that you can chew it all over and work up a fine state of
nerves afterwards.
* * * * *
I took a taxi uptown and had early dinner alone at the
house. There were
plenty of friends I could have called up, but I didn’t feel like making a
date with anyone, or even going to a movie later on by myself. The weather
was probably the last cold spell of the winter; a bitter wind swept in from
the north, and ice crackled where there had been any water in the gutters.
Even after a couple of cocktails the dining room looked so big and dreary I
was glad to have coffee upstairs and turn on all the lights in my personal
rooms. It’s a cheerful suite on the fifth floor—bedroom, bathroom,
dressing room, and den; I was allotted them as a child, and have never wanted
anything bigger, even when the rest of the house was free for me to choose
from. The furniture is good solid stuff from either New or Old England; my
mother probably bought it at the auctions she liked to frequent. And the
heating vents are built in the window sills, so that you lean on them and
burn your elbows if you want to look down and see what’s going on in the
street. Nothing much, as a rule; those middle sixties between Park and Fifth
keep pretty quiet. That evening, as I looked down, I saw the familiar steam
curling out of the manholes, and from the look of it as it scurried I knew
the temperature had dropped a good deal since I left the downtown office. The
low sky held captive the glow of the city; anglewise across Park Avenue I
could see the Rockefeller buildings lost in clouds about the thirtieth floor.
John came in to pull the blinds; I told him not to bother, I would do it
myself later.
“There’s still supposed to be some rule about lights,” he said.
“All right, then, pull them down.” At that stage of the war New York
didn’t bother much about the partial blackout, but John’s a stickler about
such things. We’ve been real friends from my childhood. My father enticed him
from a duke about twenty years ago, since when he’s become naturalized, but
he still calls himself English except when English visitors ask him if he is,
then he says he’s American or, if further pressed, a Scot.
“Are you going out again, Miss Jane?”
“Not me, I’m off to bed soon with a good book.”
“Not Forever Amber, I hope?” He has a corny humor, unchanged from
the time I was young enough to appreciate nothing else.
“No. I take my history straight. Always did, ever since I studied it in
London.”
I don’t know what made me bring that up, but I realized it was the second
time that day I had mentioned something that I often go months without even
thinking about.
He said, as he pulled the blinds and then the curtains: “I’d like to see
London again sometime.”
“You probably could, when the war’s over.”
“They say it’s considerably changed.”
“I’ll bet our part hasn’t. Hampstead Heath and round about there.”
“Several bombs fell near the house, I’ve been told,” he said thoughtfully.
It was still “the house” to us both. “Can I get you anything?”
“No thanks—I’ll be asleep very soon, I’m terribly tired.
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