With reference to that last
accomplishment, she and Lady Baldock had had more than one terrible
tussle, not always with advantage to the dragon. "My dear aunt,"
she had said once during the last winter, "I am going to the meet
with George,"—George was her cousin, Lord Baldock, and was the
dragon's son,—"and there, let there be an end of it." "And you will
promise me that you will not go further," said the dragon. "I will
promise nothing to-day to any man or to any woman," said Violet.
What was to be said to a young lady who spoke in this way, and who
had become of age only a fortnight since? She rode that day the
famous run from Bagnall's Gorse to Foulsham Common, and was in at
the death.
Violet Effingham was now sitting in conference with her friend
Lady Laura, and they were discussing matters of high import,—of
very high import, indeed,—to the interests of both of them. "I do
not ask you to accept him," said Lady Laura.
"That is lucky," said the other, "as he has never asked me."
"He has done much the same. You know that he loves you."
"I know,—or fancy that I know,—that so many men love me! But,
after all, what sort of love is it? It is just as when you and I,
when we see something nice in a shop, call it a dear duck of a
thing, and tell somebody to go and buy it, let the price be ever so
extravagant. I know my own position, Laura. I'm a dear duck of a
thing."
"You are a very dear thing to Oswald."
"But you, Laura, will some day inspire a grand passion,—or I
daresay have already, for you are a great deal too close to
tell;—and then there will be cutting of throats, and a mighty
hubbub, and a real tragedy. I shall never go beyond genteel
comedy,—unless I run away with somebody beneath me, or do something
awfully improper."
"Don't do that, dear."
"I should like to, because of my aunt. I should indeed. If it
were possible, without compromising myself, I should like her to be
told some morning that I had gone off with the curate."
"How can you be so wicked, Violet!"
"It would serve her right, and her countenance would be so
awfully comic. Mind, if it is ever to come off, I must be there to
see it. I know what she would say as well as possible. She would
turn to poor Gussy. 'Augusta,' she would say, 'I always expected
it. I always did.' Then I should come out and curtsey to her, and
say so prettily, 'Dear aunt, it was only our little joke.' That's
my line. But for you,—you, if you planned it, would go off
to-morrow with Lucifer himself if you liked him."
"But failing Lucifer, I shall probably be very humdrum."
"You don't mean that there is anything settled, Laura?"
"There is nothing settled,—or any beginning of anything that
ever can be settled, But I am not talking about myself. He has told
me that if you will accept him, he will do anything that you and I
may ask him."
"Yes;—he will promise."
"Did you ever know him to break his word?"
"I know nothing about him, my dear. How should I?"
"Do not pretend to be ignorant and meek, Violet. You do know
him,—much better than most girls know the men they marry. You have
known him, more or less intimately, all your life."
"But am I bound to marry him because of that accident?"
"No; you are not bound to marry him,—unless you love him."
"I do not love him," said Violet, with slow, emphatic words, and
a little forward motion of her face, as though she were specially
eager to convince her friend that she was quite in earnest in what
she said.
"I fancy, Violet, that you are nearer to loving him than any
other man."
"I am not at all near to loving any man. I doubt whether I ever
shall be. It does not seem to me to be possible to myself to be
what girls call in love. I can like a man. I do like, perhaps, half
a dozen. I like them so much that if I go to a house or to a party
it is quite a matter of importance to me whether this man or that
will or will not be there. And then I suppose I flirt with them. At
least Augusta tells me that my aunt says that I do. But as for
caring about any one of them in the way of loving him,—wanting to
marry him, and have him all to myself, and that sort of thing,—I
don't know what it means."
"But you intend to be married some day," said Lady Laura.
"Certainly I do. And I don't intend to wait very much longer. I
am heartily tired of Lady Baldock, and though I can generally
escape among my friends, that is not sufficient.
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