I am beginning to
think that it would be pleasant to have a house of my own. A girl
becomes such a Bohemian when she is always going about, and doesn't
quite know where any of her things are."
Then there was a silence between them for a few minutes. Violet
Effingham was doubled up in a corner of a sofa, with her feet
tucked under her, and her face reclining upon one of her shoulders.
And as she talked she was playing with a little toy which was
constructed to take various shapes as it was flung this way or
that. A bystander looking at her would have thought that the toy
was much more to her than the conversation. Lady Laura was sitting
upright, in a common chair, at a table not far from her companion,
and was manifestly devoting herself altogether to the subject that
was being discussed between them. She had taken no lounging, easy
attitude, she had found no employment for her fingers, and she
looked steadily at Violet as she talked,—whereas Violet was looking
only at the little manikin which she tossed. And now Laura got up
and came to the sofa, and sat close to her friend. Violet, though
she somewhat moved one foot, so as to seem to make room for the
other, still went on with her play.
"If you do marry, Violet, you must choose some one man out of
the lot."
"That's quite true, my dear, I certainly can't marry them
all."
"And how do you mean to make the choice?"
"I don't know. I suppose I shall toss up."
"I wish you would be in earnest with me."
"Well;—I will be in earnest. I shall take the first that comes
after I have quite made up my mind. You'll think it very horrible,
but that is really what I shall do. After all, a husband is very
much like a house or a horse. You don't take your house because
it's the best house in the world, but because just then you want a
house. You go and see a house, and if it's very nasty you don't
take it. But if you think it will suit pretty well, and if you are
tired of looking about for houses, you do take it. That's the way
one buys one's horses,—and one's husbands."
"And you have not made up your mind yet?"
"Not quite. Lady Baldock was a little more decent than usual
just before I left Baddingham. When I told her that I meant to have
a pair of ponies, she merely threw up her hands and grunted. She
didn't gnash her teeth, and curse and swear, and declare to me that
I was a child of perdition."
"What do you mean by cursing and swearing?"
"She told me once that if I bought a certain little dog, it
would lead to my being everlastingly—you know what. She isn't so
squeamish as I am, and said it out."
"What did you do?"
"I bought the little dog, and it bit my aunt's heel. I was very
sorry then, and gave the creature to Mary Rivers. He was such a
beauty! I hope the perdition has gone with him, for I don't like
Mary Rivers at all. I had to give the poor beasty to somebody, and
Mary Rivers happened to be there. I told her that Puck was
connected with Apollyon, but she didn't mind that. Puck was worth
twenty guineas, and I daresay she has sold him."
"Oswald may have an equal chance then among the other
favourites?" said Lady Laura, after another pause.
"There are no favourites, and I will not say that any man may
have a chance. Why do you press me about your brother in this
way?"
"Because I am so anxious. Because it would save him. Because you
are the only woman for whom he has ever cared, and because he loves
you with all his heart; and because his father would be reconciled
to him to-morrow if he heard that you and he were engaged."
"Laura, my dear—"
"Well."
"You won't be angry if I speak out?"
"Certainly not. After what I have said, you have a right to
speak out."
"It seems to me that all your reasons are reasons why he should
marry me;—not reasons why I should marry him."
"Is not his love for you a reason?"
"No," said Violet, pausing,—and speaking the word in the lowest
possible whisper. "If he did not love me, that, if known to me,
should be a reason why I should not marry him.
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