So he tried to
discover what had induced this irascible mood, this craving to be
moving without wanting anything, this desire to meet some one for
the sake of differing from him, and at the same time this aversion
for the people he might see and the things they might say to
him.
And then he put the question to himself, "Can it be Jean's
inheritance?"
Yes, it was certainly possible. When the lawyer had announced
the news he had felt his heart beat a little faster. For, indeed,
one is not always master of one's self; there are sudden and
pertinacious emotions against which a man struggles in vain.
He fell into meditation on the physiological problem of the
impression produced on the instinctive element in man, and giving
rise to a current of painful or pleasurable sensations
diametrically opposed to those which the thinking man desires, aims
at, and regards as right and wholesome, when he has risen superior
to himself by the cultivation of his intellect. He tried to picture
to himself the frame of mind of a son who had inherited a vast
fortune, and who, thanks to that wealth, may now know many
long-wished-for delights, which the avarice of his father had
prohibited—a father, nevertheless, beloved and regretted.
He got up and walked on to the end of the pier. He felt better,
and glad to have understood, to have detected himself, to have
unmasked the other which lurks in us.
"Then I was jealous of Jean," thought he. "That is really vilely
mean. And I am sure of it now, for the first idea which came into
my head was that he would marry Mme. Rosemilly. And yet I am not in
love myself with that priggish little goose, who is just the woman
to disgust a man with good sense and good conduct. So it is the
most gratuitous jealousy, the very essence of jealousy, which is
merely because it is! I must keep an eye on that!"
By this time he was in front of the flag-staff, whence the depth
of water in the harbour is signalled, and he struck a match to read
the list of vessels signalled in the roadstead and coming in with
the next high tide. Ships were due from Brazil, from La Plata, from
Chili and Japan, two Danish brigs, a Norwegian schooner, and a
Turkish steamship—which startled Pierre as much as if it had read a
Swiss steamship; and in a whimsical vision he pictured a great
vessel crowded with men in turbans climbing the shrouds in loose
trousers.
"How absurd!" thought he. "But the Turks are a maritime people,
too."
A few steps further on he stopped again, looking out at the
roads. On the right, above Sainte-Adresse, the two electric lights
of Cape la Heve, like monstrous twin Cyclops, shot their long and
powerful beams across the sea. Starting from two neighbouring
centres, the two parallel shafts of light, like the colossal tails
of two comets, fell in a straight and endless slope from the top of
the cliff to the uttermost horizon. Then, on the two piers, two
more lights, the children of these giants, marked the entrance to
the harbour; and far away on the other side of the Seine others
were in sight, many others, steady or winking, flashing or
revolving, opening and shutting like eyes—the eyes of the
ports—yellow, red, and green, watching the night-wrapped sea
covered with ships; the living eyes of the hospitable shore saying,
merely by the mechanical and regular movement of their eye-lids: "I
am here. I am Trouville; I am Honfleur; I am the Andemer River."
And high above all the rest, so high that from this distance it
might be taken for a planet, the airy lighthouse of Etouville
showed the way to Rouen across the sand banks at the mouth of the
great river.
Out on the deep water, the limitless water, darker than the sky,
stars seemed to have fallen here and there. They twinkled in the
night haze, small, close to shore or far away—white, red, and
green, too. Most of them were motionless; some, however, seemed to
be scudding onward. These were the lights of the ships at anchor or
moving about in search of moorings.
Just at this moment the moon rose behind the town; and it, too,
looked like some huge, divine pharos lighted up in the heavens to
guide the countless fleet of stars in the sky. Pierre murmured,
almost speaking aloud: "Look at that! And we let our bile rise for
twopence!"
On a sudden, close to him, in the wide, dark ditch between the
two piers, a shadow stole up, a large shadow of fantastic shape.
Leaning over the granite parapet, he saw that a fishing-boat had
glided in, without the sound of a voice or the splash of a ripple,
or the plunge of an oar, softly borne in by its broad, tawny sail
spread to the breeze from the open sea.
He thought to himself: "If one could but live on board that
boat, what peace it would be—perhaps!"
And then again a few steps beyond, he saw a man sitting at the
very end of the breakwater.
A dreamer, a lover, a sage—a happy or a desperate man? Who was
it? He went forward, curious to see the face of this lonely
individual, and he recognised his brother.
"What, is it you, Jean?"
"Pierre! You! What has brought you here?"
"I came out to get some fresh air. And you?"
Jean began to laugh.
"I too came out for fresh air." And Pierre sat down by his
brother's side.
"Lovely—isn't it?"
"Oh, yes, lovely."
He understood from the tone of voice that Jean had not looked at
anything. He went on:
"For my part, whenever I come here I am seized with a wild
desire to be off with all those boats, to the north or the south.
Only to think that all those little sparks out there have just come
from the uttermost ends of the earth, from the lands of great
flowers and beautiful olive or copper coloured girls, the lands of
humming-birds, of elephants, of roaming lions, of negro kings, from
all the lands which are like fairy-tales to us who no longer
believe in the White Cat or the Sleeping Beauty. It would be
awfully jolly to be able to treat one's self to an excursion out
there; but, then, it would cost a great deal of money, no end—"
He broke off abruptly, remembering that his brother had that
money now; and released from care, released from labouring for his
daily bread, free, unfettered, happy, and light-hearted, he might
go whither he listed, to find the fair-haired Swedes or the brown
damsels of Havana. And then one of those involuntary flashes which
were common with him, so sudden and swift that he could neither
anticipate them, nor stop them, nor qualify them, communicated, as
it seemed to him, from some second, independent, and violent soul,
shot through his brain.
"Bah! He is too great a simpleton; he will marry that little
Rosemilly." He was standing up now. "I will leave you to dream of
the future. I want to be moving." He grasped his brother's hand and
added in a heavy tone:
"Well, my dear old boy, you are a rich man. I am very glad to
have come upon you this evening to tell you how pleased I am about
it, how truly I congratulate you, and how much I care for you."
Jean, tender and soft-hearted, was deeply touched.
"Thank you, my good brother—thank you!" he stammered.
And Pierre turned away with his slow step, his stick under his
arm, and his hands behind his back.
Back in the town again, he once more wondered what he should do,
being disappointed of his walk and deprived of the company of the
sea by his brother's presence. He had an inspiration. "I will go
and take a glass of liqueur with old Marowsko," and he went off
towards the quarter of the town known as Ingouville.
He had known old Marowsko-le pere Marowsko, he called
him—in the hospitals in Paris. He was a Pole, an old refugee, it
was said, who had gone through terrible things out there, and who
had come to ply his calling as a chemist and druggist in France
after passing a fresh examination.
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