On my heart’s stage occurs
no transformation scene.
No creature made of light will come to me!
CONVERSATION (ONE SIDE)
Fresh as an autumn morning you may be,
yet sadness rises in me like the sea
that ebbing leaves a bitter after-taste
of iodine on my still-smarting lips.
No use your groping for my feeble heart –
what you are after is no longer there;
mauled by women’s weapons, fangs and claws,
my heart is gone, the beasts have eaten it.
My heart! that palace ransacked by a mob
of drunken maenads at each other’s throats…
What perfume hovers round your naked throat?
O Beauty, scourge of souls, thy will be done!
With eyes as bright as candles at a feast,
consume these scraps of flesh the beasts have spared!
AUTUMNAL
1
Soon cold shadows will close over us
and summer’s transitory gold be gone;
I hear them chopping firewood in our court –
the dreary thud of logs on cobblestone.
Winter will come to repossess my soul
with rage and outrage, horror, drudgery,
and like the sun in its polar holocaust
my heart will be a block of blood-red ice.
I listen trembling to that grim tattoo –
build a gallows, it would sound the same.
My mind becomes a tower giving way
under the impact of a battering-ram.
Stunned by the strokes, I seem to hear, somewhere,
a coffin hurriedly hammered shut – for whom?
Summer was yesterday; autumn is here!
Strange how that sound rings out like a farewell.
2
How sweet the greenish light of your long eyes!
But even that turns bitter now, and nothing
– not love, the boudoir, nor its busy hearth –
can match the summer’s radiance on the sea.
Love me still, my darling! mother me,
ungrateful though I am, your naughty boy.
Sister and mistress! be the fleeting warmth
of a sumptuous autumn or a setting sun.
Your chore will be brief – the grave is covetous!
so let me rest my forehead on your knees
and relish, as I mourn white summer’s lapse,
the yellow favor of the waning year.
SONG FOR LATE IN THE DAY
Although your wicked brows belie
the angel in your eyes,
it is a blessed sorcery
by which I am beguiled:
with all the ineffectual awe
of prostrate votaries
I worship at your trivial
and tantalizing shrine!
Wilderness and desert haunt
the tumult of your hair;
without a word, your lips propose
the riddle of the Sphinx;
and when you move, the shifting scent –
as if a censer swayed –
prepares the advent of your flesh:
the night is warm with you.
Where is the drug that works as well
as your untroubled sloth?
You know the secret: at your touch
the dead return to life;
there is a throbbing intercourse
between your breasts and thighs –
the very cushions are enticed
by your slow attitudes.
Occasionally, to assuage
mysterious appetites,
your lazy kisses alternate
with unexpected bites,
and as you laugh you lacerate
my undefended skin,
then gentle as the rising moon
you raise your eyes to mine…
Beneath your satin slippers, as
beneath your silken feet,
I lay my hopes of happiness,
my genius, and my fate –
light of my life, my soul’s release,
I long for your embrace:
explode in one dissolving blast
this black Siberia!
SISINA
Imagine Diana, followed by her troupe,
beating the bushes in hot pursuit of game,
hair flying, breast bare, revelling in the din,
proudly outdistancing the pride of the hunt!
And have you seen our ‘Fury of the Gironde,’
grimly urging on a barefoot mob,
cheeks and eyes radiant as she climbs
the palace stairs, a saber in her fist?
Sisina’s like that! Except the wild girl
has a soul as loving as it is incensed,
and her courage, roused by cannonfire and drums,
will yet relent to passionate appeal,
and her incandescent heart still keeps,
for the deserving, a reservoir of tears.
TO A CREOLE LADY
The isle is fragrant and the sun is kind;
shadows of palm and poinciana shed
their languor on a lady living there
unknown to men’s acclaim. I know her, though:
warm and white beneath a cloud of hair,
her face is borne with noble elegance –
she walks like Artemis, as tall, as lithe,
and when she smiles, assurance lights her glance…
If you should ever visit glory’s home
along the green Loire or the Seine, Madame,
your loveliness, a match for our chateaux,
would prompt in ‘scholarly retreats’ a flood
of sonnets from our poets’ hearts, enslaved
more humbly than your blacks by those great eyes.
MOESTA ET ERRABUNDA
Lady, do you sometimes long to escape
from the filth of the city, from this black sea
to one whose everlasting splendor glows
blue, bright and deep – a virgin sea!
Lady, do you sometimes long to escape?
The titan sea console us for our toil!
What demon gave that raucous amateur
supported by the organ of the winds
the sacred task of singing lullabies?
The titan sea console us for our toil?
By wheel or sail, just take me anywhere
far from here where mud is made of our tears!
Lady, listen to your heart; doesn’t it say
‘Far from regret, from crime, from suffering,
by wheel or sail, just take me anywhere’?
How far away, that fragrant paradise
where love and pleasure share the same blue sky,
where pure delight can satiate the heart
and all we love is worthy of our love!
How far away, that fragrant paradise!
But that green paradise of puppy love,
of songs and games, of kisses and bouquets –
the jugs of wine at evening in the groves,
the violins that die behind the hills –
but that green paradise of puppy love,
the innocent paradise of timid joys,
is it already farther than Cathay?
What silvery voice can waken it again,
what plaintive cries can ever call it back,
the innocent paradise of timid joys?
INCUBUS
Eyes glowing like an angel’s
I’ll come back to your bed
and reach for you from the shadows:
you won’t hear a thing.
On your dark skin my kisses
will be colder than moonlight:
caresses of a snake crawling
round an open grave.
When the morning whitens
you find no one beside you:
the place cold all day.
Others by fondness prevail
over your life, your youth:
I leave it to fear.
AUTUMN SONNET
I read the question in your crystal eyes:
‘Why do you love me, my strange lover?’ Stay
lovely and keep still! Outraged by all
except the innocence of beasts, my heart
will not reveal its secret pact with Hell,
the livid legend written out in flames,
to you whose arms would cradle me in sleep.
Passion offends me, and my mind is pain!
Hold me. Say nothing. Hidden somewhere near,
Love in ambush bends his fatal bow –
I know the weapons of that old armory:
madness, horror, crime…You pale and stare
like an autumn daisy, flower of the fall,
white as your wintry Faust, cold Marguerite.
SORROWS OF THE MOON
Tonight the moon dreams still more languidly:
as if some beauty on her pillowed couch
were brushing with a half-unconscious hand
the contour of her breasts before she fell
asleep. On a silken avalanche of clouds
the moon, expiring, falls into a trance,
impassive as the great white visions file
past in procession like unfolding flowers.
And when she happens, in her somnolence,
to shed a secret tear that falls to earth,
some eager poet, sleep’s sworn enemy,
cups his hand and catches that pale tear
which shimmers like a shard of opal there,
and hides it from the sun’s eye in his heart.
CATS
Lovers, scholars – the fervent, the austere –
grow equally fond of cats, their household pride.
As sensitive as either to the cold,
as sedentary, though so strong and sleek,
your cat, a friend to learning and to love,
seeks out both silence and the awesome dark…
Hell would have made the cat its courier
could it have controverted feline pride!
Dozing, all cats assume the svelte design
of desert sphinxes sprawled in solitude,
apparently transfixed by endless dreams;
their teeming loins are rich in magic sparks,
and golden specks like infinitesimal sand
glisten in those enigmatic eyes.
OWLS
Under black yews that protect them
the owls perch in a row
like alien gods whose red eyes
glitter. They meditate.
Petrified, they will perch there till
the melancholy hour
when the slanting sun is ousted,
and darkness settles down.
From their posture, the wise
learn to shun, in this world at least,
motion and commotion;
impassioned by passing shadows,
man will always be scourged
for trying to change his place.
THE PIPE
I am a writer’s pipe. One look at me,
and the coffee color of my Kaffir face
will tell you I am not the only slave:
my master is addicted to his vice.
Every so often he is overcome
by some despair or other, whereupon
tobacco clouds pour out of me as if
the stove were kindled and the pot put on.
I wrap his soul in mine and cradle it
within a blue and fluctuating thread
that rises out of my rekindled lips
from the glowing coal that brews a secret spell.
He smokes his pipe, allaying heart and mind,
and for tonight all injuries are healed.
MUSIC
BEETHOVEN
Music often takes me like a sea
and I set out
under mist or a transparent sky
for my pale star;
I run before the wind as if I had
laid on full sail,
climbing the mountainous backs of the waves,
plummeting down
in darkness, eardrums throbbing as I feel
the coming wreck;
fair winds or foul – a raging storm
on the great deep
my cradle, and dead calm the looking-glass
of my despair!
BURIAL
Surely some night will be dark enough
for a kindly Christian soul
to dump your gorgeous body, now deceased,
where the other garbage goes;
decent planets, at a time like this,
renounce their vigilance –
the spider has her web to tidy up,
the viper’s brood must hatch;
and over your unconsecrated head
you’ll hear the howling wolves
lament their fate and yours the livelong year;
the coven gathers – famished hags excite
old men to do their worst,
while killers dice for victims on your grave.
A FANTASTIC ENGRAVING
Uncanny apparition – all it wears,
grotesquely canted on that grinning skull,
is a garland woven out of worms! No spurs,
no whip, and still this ghostly cavalier
urges his apocalyptic nag
onward till her flaring nostrils bleed,
horse and horseman mad in pursuit of Space,
trampling Infinity with reckless hooves!
The rider brandishes a flaming sword
above the nameless hordes he gallops down,
and like a prince inspecting his domain
quarters that unending graveyard where
a bleak white sun exposes, mile on mile,
history’s hecatombs, ancient and modern both.
THE HAPPY CORPSE
Wherever the soil is rich and full of snails
I want to dig myself a nice deep grave –
deep enough to stretch out these old bones
and sleep in peace, like a shark in the cradling wave.
Testaments and tombstones always lie!
Before collecting such official grief,
I’d rather ask the crows, while I’m alive,
to pick my carcass clean from end to end.
They may be deaf and blind, my friends the worms,
yet surely they will welcome a happy corpse;
feasting philosophers, scions of decay,
eat your way through me without a second thought
and let me know if one last twinge is left
for a soulless body deader than the dead!
THE CASK OF HATE
Hate is the Cask of the Danaïdes;
even Vengeance, frenzied and red-armed,
cannot replenish those depths fast enough
with bucketfuls of blood and dead men’s tears –
Hell thirsts on, mysterious holes appear
and through them seep a thousand years of toil,
despite the victims desperately slain
and brought to life to suffer once again.
Or Hate is a drunk at the dark end of the bar
whose liquor only makes him thirstier –
a Hydra multiplies in every drop;
happy the man who drinks to meet his fate,
but Hate is fettered to a fiercer doom
and cannot even drink himself to death.
THE CRACKED BELL
Bitter, but sweet as well! on winter nights
when embers whiten on the hearth, to hear
faraway memories slowly surfacing,
summoned by carillons chiming through the mist.
Blessèd be the rugged-throated bell,
alert and tough for all its years, which tolls
religiously the watches of the night
like some old trooper standing sentinel!
My soul is cracked, and when in its distress
it tries to sing the chilly nights away,
how often its enfeebled voice suggests
the gasping of a wounded soldier left
beside a lake of blood, who, pinned beneath
a pile of dead men, struggles, stares and dies.
SPLEEN (I)
February, peeved at Paris, pours
a gloomy torrent on the pale lessees
of the graveyard next door and a mortal chill
on tenants of the foggy suburbs too.
The tiles afford no comfort to my cat
that cannot keep its mangy body still;
the soul of some old poet haunts the drains
and howls as if a ghost could hate the cold.
A churchbell grieves, a log in the fireplace smokes
and hums falsetto to the clock’s catarrh,
while in a filthy reeking deck of cards
inherited from a dropsical old maid,
the dapper Knave of Hearts and the Queen of Spades
grimly disinter their love affairs.
SPLEEN (II)
Souvenirs?
More than if I had lived a thousand years!
No chest of drawers crammed with documents,
love-letters, wedding-invitations, wills,
a lock of someone’s hair rolled up in a deed,
hides so many secrets as my brain.
This branching catacombs, this pyramid
contains more corpses than the potter’s field:
I am a graveyard that the moon abhors,
where long worms like regrets come out to feed
most ravenously on my dearest dead.
I am an old boudoir where a rack of gowns,
perfumed by withered roses, rots to dust;
where only faint pastels and pale Bouchers
inhale the scent of long-unstoppered flasks.
Nothing is slower than the limping days
when under the heavy weather of the years
Boredom, the fruit of glum indifference,
gains the dimension of eternity…
Hereafter, mortal clay, you are no more
than a rock encircled by a nameless dread,
an ancient sphinx omitted from the map,
forgotten by the world, and whose fierce moods
sing only to the rays of setting suns.
SPLEEN (III)
I’m like the king of a rainy country, rich
but helpless, decrepit though still a young man
who scorns his fawning tutors, wastes his time
on dogs and other animals, and has no fun;
nothing distracts him, neither hawk nor hound
nor subjects starving at the palace gate.
His favorite fool’s obscenities fall flat
– the royal invalid is not amused –
and ladies in waiting for a princely nod
no longer dress indecently enough
to win a smile from this young skeleton.
The bed of state becomes a stately tomb.
The alchemist who brews him gold has failed
to purge the impure substance from his soul,
and baths of blood, Rome’s legacy recalled
by certain barons in their failing days,
are useless to revive this sickly flesh
through which no blood but brackish Lethe seeps.
SPLEEN (IV)
When skies are low and heavy as a lid
over the mind tormented by disgust,
and hidden in the gloom the sun pours down
on us a daylight dingier than the dark;
when earth becomes a trickling dungeon where
Trust like a bat keeps lunging through the air,
beating tentative wings along the walls
and bumping its head against the rotten beams;
when rain falls straight from unrelenting clouds,
forging the bars of some enormous jail,
and silent hordes of obscene spiders spin
their webs across the basements of our brains;
then all at once the raging bells break loose,
hurling to heaven their awful caterwaul,
like homeless ghosts with no one left to haunt
whimpering their endless grievances.
– And giant hearses, without dirge or drums,
parade at half-step in my soul, where Hope,
defeated, weeps, and the oppressor Dread
plants his black flag on my assenting skull.
OBSESSION
Forest, I fear you! in my ruined heart
your roaring wakens the same agony
as in cathedrals when the organ moans
and from the depths I hear that I am damned.
Ocean, I hate you! for I recognize
the sobs and insults of my own despair,
the bitter laughter of a beaten man
repeated in the sea’s huge gaiety.
Night! you’d please me more without these stars
which speak a language I know all too well –
I long for darkness, silence, nothing there…
Yet even shadows have their shapes which live
where I imagine them to be, the hordes
of vanished souls whose eyes acknowledge mine.
CRAVING FOR OBLIVION
Once you were hot for battle, weary mind!
Now Hope, whose spur awakened all your zeal,
no longer even mounts. No shame in that –
lie down, old horse! You stumble at each step.
Abandon Hope, and sleep the sleep of the beasts.
Defeated mind, old plunderer! For you
love has no more seduction than your sword.
Farewell to lutes and trumpet-calls alike –
such pleasures cannot tempt a sullen heart,
and even Spring has lost its sweet allure.
Moment by moment, Time envelops me
like a stiffening body buried in the snow…
I contemplate the infinitesimal globe,
and I no longer seek asylum there.
Avalanche, entomb me in your fall!
ALCHEMY OF SUFFERING
Nature glows with this man’s joy,
dims with another’s grief;
what signifies the grave to one
is glory to the next.
Trismegistus intercedes:
this ever-daunting guide
makes me a Midas in reverse,
saddest of alchemists –
gold turns iron at my touch,
heaven darkens to hell;
clouds become a winding-sheet
to shroud my cherished dead,
and on celestial shores I build
enormous sepulchres.
SYMPATHETIC HORROR
When the sky appears in pain
and sunset no more than a wound,
what are the thoughts that occur
to a libertine soul like yours?
– Nothing can slake my thirst
for the nameless and the obscure:
you’ll never hear me complain
like Ovid whining for Rome.
The canyons of bloody cloud
accommodate my pride,
their nebulous shapes become
a splendid hearse for my dreams,
their red glow the reflection
of the Hell where my heart’s at home.
HEAUTON TIMOROUMENOS*
No rage, no rancor: I shall beat you
as butchers fell an ox,
as Moses smote the rock in Horeb –
I shall make you weep,
and by the waters of affliction
my desert will be slaked.
My desire, that hope has made monstrous,
will frolic in your tears
as a ship tosses on the ocean –
in my besotted heart
your adorable sobs will echo
like an ecstatic drum.
For I – am I not a dissonance
in the divine accord,
because of the greedy Irony
which infiltrates my soul?
I hear it in my voice – that shrillness,
that poison in my blood!
I am the sinister glass in which
the Fury sees herself!
I am the knife and the wound it deals,
I am the slap and the cheek,
I am the wheel and the broken limbs,
hangman and victim both!
I am the vampire at my own veins,
one of the great lost horde
doomed for the rest of time, and beyond,
‘to laugh – but smile no more.’
* Self-Tormentor, title of a play by Terence. Baudelaire took his last line from Poe’s ‘Haunted Palace.’
THE IRREMEDIABLE
1
A Form, an Idea, a Being
out of the Blue – and fallen
into a Stygian morass
far from the eye of heaven…
Lured by the love of chaos,
an Angel, unwary pilgrim
caught in Nightmare’s current,
struggling like a swimmer
pitted in deadly panic
against the howling vortex,
whirling and faster whirled
down, down and under…
Groping for key or candle,
a wretch in some witch’s thrall
rots in her snaky den
with no hope of escaping…
A soul in torment descending
endless rickety stairs
into an echoing cavern
out of which rises the stench
of vigilant slimy monsters
whose luminous eyes enforce
the gloom, disclosing nothing
except their own existence…
A schooner caught in the ice-floes
as in a crystal quicksand,
pursuing the fatal channel
which led to this prison…
Apt emblems, properties
of irremediable Fate,
proving how consummately
Satan consumes his own!
2
Distinct the heart’s exchange
with its own dark mirror,
for deep in that Well of Truth
trembles one pale star,
ironic, infernal beacon,
graceful torch of the Devil,
our solace and sole glory –
consciousness in Evil!
THE CLOCK
Impassive god! whose minatory hands
repeat their sinister and single charge:
Remember! Pain is the unfailing bow,
as arrow after arrow finds your heart.
Pleasure fades and dances out of sight –
one pirouette, the theater goes dark;
each instant snatches from you what you had,
the crumb of happiness within your grasp.
Thirty-six hundred times in every hour
the Second whispers: Remember! and Now replies
in its maddening mosquito hum: I am Past,
who passing lit and sucked your life and left!
Remember! Souviens-toi! Esto memor!
(My metal throat is polyglot.) The ore
of mortal minutes crumbles, unrefined,
from which your golden nuggets must be panned.
Remember! Time, that tireless gambler, wins
on every turn of the wheel: that is the law.
The daylight fades…Remember! Night comes on:
the pit is thirsty and the sands run out…
Soon it will sound, the tocsin of your Fate –
from noble Virtue, your still-virgin bride,
or from Repentance, last resort…from all
the message comes: ‘Too late, old coward! Die!’
PARISIAN LANDSCAPE
To make my eclogues proper, I must sleep
hard by heaven – like the astrologers –
and being the belfries’ neighbor, hear in my dreams
their solemn anthems fading on the wind.
My garret view, perused attentively,
reveals the workshops and their singing slaves,
the city’s masts – steeples and chimneypots –
and above that fleet, a blue eternity…
How sweet to see the first star in the sky,
the first lamp at the window through the mist,
the coalsmoke streaming upward, and the moon
shedding a pale enchantment on it all!
From there I’ll watch the easy seasons pass
and when the tedious winter snows me in,
I’ll close my shutters, draw the curtains snug,
and build my Spanish castles in the dark,
dreaming of alluring distances,
of sobbing fountains and of birds that sing
endless obbligatos to my trysts –
of everything in Idylls that’s inane!
A revolution down in the street will not
distract me from my desk, for I shall be
committed to that almost carnal joy
of fastening the springtime to my will,
drawing the sun from my heart, and by my zeal
persuading Paris to become a South.
THE SUN
Late in this cruel season when the sun
scourges alike the city and the fields,
parching the stubble and sinking into slums
where shuttered hovels hide vile appetites,
I venture out alone to drill myself
in what must seem an eerie fencing-match,
duelling in dark corners for a rhyme
and stumbling over words like cobblestones
where now and then realities collide
with lines I dreamed of writing long ago.
What greensickness could stand up to the sun,
that towering foster-father who dissolves
anxieties into air like morning mist,
ripening here a verse and there a rose
with honey on the tongue as in the hive?
Who but the sun persuades the lame to dance
as if their canes were maypoles, governing
the resurrection of the harrowed fields,
and for the secret harvest of the heart
commands immortal wheat to grow again!
When, with a poet’s will, the sun descends
into the cities like a king incognito,
impartially visiting palace and hospital,
the fate of all things vile is glorified.
TO A RED-HAIRED BEGGAR GIRL
Gaping tatters in each garment prove
your calling is not only beggary
but beauty as well,
and to a poet equally ‘reduced,’
the frail and freckled body you display
makes its own appeal –
queens in velvet buskins take the stage
less regally than you wade through the mud
on your wooden clogs.
What if, instead of these indecent rags,
the splendid train of a brocaded gown
rustled at your heels,
and rather than town stockings, just suppose
curious glances sliding up your thigh
met with a gold dirk!
And then if, for our sins, those flimsy knots
released two perfect little breasts that shine
brighter than your eyes,
and your own arms consented to reveal
the rest, though archly feigning to fend off
hands that go too far…
Strands of pearls and strophes by Belleau
arriving in – imagine! – endless streams
‘from an admirer’;
riffraff – talented and otherwise –
offering tributes to the slippered feet
glimpsed from below stairs;
gentlemen sending flunkeys to find out
who owns the carriage always told to ‘wait’
at your smart address
where, in the boudoir, kisses count for more
than quarterings, although the cast includes
a Bourbon or two!
– Meanwhile, here you are, begging scraps
doled out by the local table d’hôte
at the kitchen door
and scavenging discarded finery
worth forty sous, a price which (pardon me!)
I cannot afford…
Go, then, my Beauty, with no ornament
– patchouli or pearl choker – but your own
starveling nakedness!
THE SWAN
to Victor Hugo
1
Andromache, I think of you! That stream,
the sometime witness to your widowhood’s
enormous majesty of mourning – that
mimic Simoïs salted by your tears
suddenly inundates my memory
as I cross the new Place du Carrousel.
Old Paris is gone (no human heart
changes half so fast as a city’s face)
and only in my mind’s eye can I see
the junk laid out to glitter in the booths
among the weeds and splintered capitals,
blocks of marble blackened by the mud;
there used to be a poultry-market here,
and one cold morning – with the sky swept clean,
the ground, too, swept by garbage-men who raised
clouds of soot in the icy air – I saw
a swan that had broken out of its cage,
webbed feet clumsy on the cobblestones,
white feathers dragging in the uneven ruts,
and obstinately pecking at the drains,
drenching its enormous wings in the filth
as if in its own lovely lake, crying
‘Where is the thunder, when will it rain?’
I see it still, inevitable myth,
like Daedalus dead-set against the sky –
the sky quite blue and blank and unconcerned –
that straining neck and that voracious beak,
as if the swan were castigating God!
2
Paris changes…But in sadness like mine
nothing stirs – new buildings, old
neighborhoods turn to allegory,
and memories weigh more than stone.
One image, near the Louvre, will not dissolve:
I think of that great swan in its torment,
silly, like all exiles, and sublime,
endlessly longing…And again I think
of you, Andromache, dragged off
to be the booty of Achilles’ son,
Hector’s widow now the wife of Helenus,
crouching blindly over an empty grave!
I think of some black women, starving
and consumptive in the muddy streets,
peering through a wall of fog for those
missing palms of splendid Africa;
I think of orphans withering like flowers;
of those who lose what never can be found
again – never! swallowing their tears
and nursing at the she-wolf Sorrow’s dugs;
and in the forest of my mind’s exile
a merciless memory winds its horn:
I hear it and I think of prisoners,
of the shipwrecked, the beaten – and so many more!
THE SEVEN OLD MEN
to Victor Hugo
Swarming city – city gorged with dreams,
where ghosts by day accost the passer-by,
where secrets run in these defiled canals
like blood that gushes through a giant’s veins!
One morning when the rain in these mean streets
made houses grimmer than the docks that line
the two banks of a filthy river, and
a yellow fog engulfed the space between –
a stage-effect to match the actor’s mood –
I roamed as if in search of stern resolve
and arguments to steel my flagging soul
through backstreets shaken by each heavy van.
And out of nowhere came a wretch in rags
the very color of the dripping sky –
surely this deserved some charity!
But then I saw the malice in his eyes
and seemed to feel the cold because of them –
as if their pupils had been soaked in bile.
His beard stuck out as stiff as any sword
(Judas must have had a beard like that).
He wasn’t bent, he was broken, and his spine
formed so sharp an angle with his legs
that his stick, as if to add a finishing touch,
gave him the carriage and the clumsy gait
of some lame animal or a three-legged Jew!
He pounded past in the mud and slush as if
his shabby boots were crushing dead men’s bone
hostile, rather than indifferent…
Then from the same hell came another, the same
eyes and beard and backbone, stick and rags –
nothing distinguished these centenarian twins
clumping identically toward an unknown goal.
Was it some vile conspiracy, or just
coincidence that made a fool of me?
To the seventh power – I counted every one –
this sinister ancient reproduced himself!
Doubtless to you my dread seems ludicrous,
unless a brotherly shudder lets you see:
for all their imminent decrepitude,
these seven monsters had eternal life!
I doubt if I could have survived an eighth
such apparition, father and son of himself,
inexorable Phoenix, loathsome avatar!
– I turned my back on the whole damned parade.
Indignant as a drunk who sees the world
double, I staggered home and locked my door,
scared and sick at heart and scandalized
that so much mystery could be absurd!
Vainly my reason sought to take the helm –
the gale made light of purpose, and my soul
went dancing on, an old and mastless scow
dancing across a black and shoreless sea.
THE LITTLE OLD WOMEN
to Victor Hugo
1
In murky corners of old cities where
everything – horror too – is magical,
I study, servile to my moods, the odd
and charming refuse of humanity.
These travesties were women once – Laïs
or Eponine! Love them, pathetic freaks,
hunchbacked and crippled – for they still have souls!
In ragged skirts and threadbare finery
they creep, tormented by the wicked gusts,
cowering each time an omnibus
thunders past, and clutching a reticule
as if it were a relic sewn with spells.
Whether they mince like marionettes or drag
themselves along like wounded animals,
they dance – against their will, the creatures dance –
sad bells on which a merciless Devil tugs.
They waver, but their eyes are gimlet-sharp
and gleam like holes where water sleeps at night –
the eyes of a child, a little girl who laughs
in sacred wonder at whatever shines!
– The coffins of old women are often the size
of a child’s, have you ever noticed? Erudite
Death, by making the caskets match, suggests
a tidy symbol, if in dubious taste,
and when I glimpse one of these feeble ghosts
at grips with Paris and its murderous swarm,
it always seems to me the poor old thing
is slowly crawling toward a second crib;
or else those ill-assorted limbs propose
a problem in geometry: to fit
so many crooked corpses, how many times
must the workman alter a coffin’s shape?
Those eyes are cisterns fed by a million tears,
or crucibles cracked by an ore that has gone cold:
irresistible their sovereignty
to one who suckled at disaster’s dugs!
2
A Vestal at defunct Frascati’s shrine;
a priestess of Thalia whose memory survives
only in one long-dead prompter’s mind;
the profligate of Tivoli in her prime;
this one a martyr to her fatherland,
that one her husband’s victim, and one more
doomed by her son to a Madonna’s grief –
all could make a river of their tears.
And all beguile me, but especially
those who, honeying their pain, implore
Addiction that had once lent them its wings:
‘Mighty Hippogriff, let me fly again!’
3
Little old women! I remember one
I had trailed for hours, until the sky
went scarlet as a wound, and she sat down
lost in thought on a public-garden bench,
listening to the tunes our soldiers play –
brazen music for daylight’s waning gold
(and yet such martial measures stir the soul,
granting a kind of glory to the crowd)…
Upright and proud she sat, and greedily
drank in the military airs, her eyes
like some old eagle’s brightening beneath
the absent laurel on her marble brow!
4
And so you wander, stoic and inured
to all the uproar of the heedless town:
broken-hearted mothers, trollops, saints,
whose names were once the order of the day,
embodiments of glory and of grace!
Who knows you now? From doorways, derelicts
murmur obscene endearments as you pass,
and mocking children caper at your heels…
Poor wizened spooks, ashamed to be alive,
you hug the walls, sickly and timorous,
and no one greets you, no one says goodbye
to rubbish ready for eternity!
But I who at a distance follow you
and anxiously attend your failing steps
as if I had become your father – mine
are secret pleasures you cannot suspect!
I see first love in bloom upon your flesh,
dark or luminous I see your vanished days –
my teeming heart exults in all your sins
and all your virtues magnify my soul!
Flotsam, my family – ruins, my race!
Each night I offer you a last farewell!
Where will you be tomorrow, ancient Eves
under God’s undeviating paw?
IN PASSING
The traffic roared around me, deafening!
Tall, slender, in mourning – noble grief –
a woman passed, and with a jeweled hand
gathered up her black embroidered hem;
stately yet lithe, as if a statue walked…
And trembling like a fool, I drank from eyes
as ashen as the clouds before a gale
the grace that beckons and the joy that kills.
Lightning…then darkness! Lovely fugitive
whose glance has brought me back to life! But where
is life – not this side of eternity?
Elsewhere! Too far, too late, or never at all!
Of me you know nothing, I nothing of you – you
whom I might have loved and who knew that too!
TWILIGHT: EVENING
It comes as an accomplice, stealthily,
the lovely hour that is the felon’s friend;
the sky, like curtains round a bed, draws close,
and man prepares to become a beast of prey.
Longed for by those whose aching arms confess:
we earned our daily bread, at last it comes,
evening and the anodyne it brings
to workmen free to sleep and dream of sleep,
to stubborn scholars puzzling over texts,
to minds consumed by one tormenting pain…
Meantime, foul demons in the atmosphere
dutifully waken – they have work to do –
rattling shutters as they take the sky.
Under the gaslamps shaken by that wind
whoredom invades and everywhere at once
debouches on invisible thoroughfares,
as if the enemy had launched a raid;
it fidgets like a worm in the city’s filth,
filching its portion of Man’s daily bread.
Listen! Now you can hear the kitchens hiss,
the stages yelp, the music drown it all!
The dens that specialize in gambling fill
with trollops and their vague confederates,
and thieves untroubled by a second thought
will soon be hard at work (they also serve)
softly forcing doors and secret drawers
to dress their sluts and live a few days more.
This is the hour to compose yourself, my soul;
ignore the noise they make; avert your eyes.
Now comes the time when invalids grow worse
and darkness takes them by the throat; they end
their fate in the usual way, and all their sighs
turn hospitals into a cave of the winds.
More than one will not come back for broth
warmed at the fireside by devoted hands.
Most of them, in fact, have never known
a hearth to come to, and have never lived.
GAMBLERS
They sit in shabby armchairs, ancient whores
with eyebrows painted over pitiless eyes,
simpering so that the garish gems they wear
jiggle at their withered powdered ears.
Around the green felt, lipless faces loom
or colorless lips and toothless jaws, above
feverish fingers that cannot lie still
but fumble in empty pockets, trembling breasts;
under the dirty ceilings and a row
of dusty chandeliers, the low-hung lamps
sway over famous poets’ shadowed brows,
the sweat of which they come to squander here;
this hideous pageant passed before my eyes
as if a nightmare picked out each detail:
I saw myself in a corner of that hushed den
watching it all, cold, mute – and envious!
envying the stubborn passion of such men,
the deadly gaiety of those old whores –
all blithely trafficking, as I looked on,
in honor or beauty – whatever they could sell!
Horrible, that I should envy these
who rush so recklessly into the pit,
each in his frenzy ravenous to prefer
pain to death, and hell to nothingness!
DANCE OF DEATH
Proud of her height as if she were alive,
she manages her props – her huge bouquet,
her scarf, her gloves – with all the unconcern –
or is it the disdain? – of a practiced flirt.
Who ever saw a wasp with a waist like that!
Or so many yards of gown so readily
gathered up to show a wizened foot
crammed into its crimson satin shoe?
The frill that runs along her clavicle
as if a stream caressed the stones in its bed
demurely screens from idle scrutiny
the deadly charms she will keep in the dark.
Those shadows are the making of her eyes,
and the braid of buds around her nodding brow
is not so neatly plaited as her spine –
O lure of Nothingness so well tricked out!
Drunk on flesh, young lovers libel you
a caricature – they cannot understand
the beauty of your true embodiment:
Skeleton, you suit me down to the ground,
as grinning from ear to absent ear you come
to spoil the Feast, or cannot keep away
because some hunger in the marrow of your bones
compels you to our human carnival…
Will music and the flaring lights beguile
a mocking nightmare you cannot escape?
Is it the torrent of orgies you require
to douse the hellfire kindled in your heart?
Inexhaustible pit of folly and sin!
Eternal alembic of the ancient pain!
Threading the twisted trellis of your ribs
the insatiable worm, I see, is still at work!
To tell the truth, I fear your coquetry
will fail to find the victims it deserves:
which of these mortal hearts can take your jokes?
The charms of Dread are not for everyone.
What visions cloud the chasm of your eyes?
Even the bravest partner joins the dance
with a twinge of terror as he contemplates
the eternal smile of thirty-two white teeth!
Yet who has not embraced a skeleton,
not eaten what the grave claims for its own?
What does the costume matter, or the scent?
‘Disgusted’? All you show is your conceit!
Noseless camp-follower, irresistible drab,
disabuse these dancers of their airs:
‘For all your skill with powder and with musk
each of you stinks to heaven – or hell – of death!
A withered Antinous here, his Emperor there,
equally worm-eaten, hoary belles and beaux –
the universal throb of the Dance of Death
drags you down to Whereabouts Unknown!
From Senegal to the cold quays of the Seine
the mortal swarm jigs on, ecstatic, blind
to the Angel’s trumpet somewhere overhead,
gaping like a blackened blunderbuss…
Death in every latitude dotes on you
and your contortions, ludicrous Mankind,
and often, like you, daubing herself with myrrh,
mixes her scorn with your delirium!’
LOVE OF DECEIT
As you dance by, beloved indolence
– the music fading, though it fills the room –
you seem to hover in your listlessness,
and boredom glistens in your heavy glance;
while midnight’s sconces imitate the dawn,
the gaslight touches up your chalky face
with an appalling lustre of its own –
your eyes, as in a portrait, follow me,
and I muse: how lovely! how grotesquely young!
burdened as she is with memory’s crown
and a heart that, bruised like a peach, must be
ripe as her body for the feast of love.
Are you the sovereign harvest of the fall?
Are you the savor of the Happy Isles?
– ultimate urn that bides its time for tears,
caressing pillow, or narcotic rose?
I know there are eyes, the saddest eyes of all,
that have no precious secrets to conceal,
spurious reliquaries proudly shown,
deeper, and emptier, than the skies themselves!
Save the appearances! Is it not enough
to thrill a heart that cannot bear the truth?
What if you are stupid or indifferent?
Mask or sham, your beauty I adore.
‘I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN…’
I have not forgotten the house we lived in then,
it was just outside of town, a little white house
in a skimpy grove that hid the naked limbs
of plaster goddesses – the Venus was chipped!
Nor those seemingly endless evenings when the sun
(whose rays ignited every windowpane)
seemed, like a wide eye in the wondering sky,
to contemplate our long silent meals,
kindling more richly than any candlelight
the cheap curtains and the much-laundered cloth.
‘YOU USED TO BE JEALOUS…’
You used to be jealous of our old nurse
who sleeps, warm heart and all, beneath the sod.
We ought to bring her flowers, even so.
The dead, poor things, have sorrows of their own,
and when October comes and strips the trees
and hums its dismal tune among the graves,
how thankless we the living must appear,
sleeping as we do in our own beds
while they, subsiding into black despair,
without a bedmate or a joke to share,
worm-eaten skeletons, old and cold, endure
the constant seeping of the winter snows,
the passage of the years, and not one soul
to change the withered wreaths on rusty grilles…
When the log I put on the fire hisses and sings,
if I should see her sitting there, quite still,
or if on some cold blue December night
I found her hovering in a corner of my room,
somehow escaping her eternal bed
to cast a motherly eye on her grownup child,
what could I find to say to this pious soul
as I watched the tears filling her hollow eyes?
MISTS AND RAINS
Waning autumn, winter, mudbound spring –
I thank these somnolent seasons which I love
for offering to both my heart and mind
so vaporous a shroud, so vague a tomb.
Here on this huge plain where the wind perfects
a will of its own and the weathervane cries all night,
now and not in the tepid days to come
my soul prefers to spread her raven wings.
Filled with dead and dying things, the heart
itself is frozen fast, and best of all
– O queen of our climate, ashen time of year! –
your livid shadows never seem to change
except on moonless nights when two by two
we rock our pain to sleep on a reckless bed.
TWILIGHT: DAYBREAK
The morning wind rattles the windowpanes
and over the barracks reveille rings out.
Dreams come now, bad dreams, and teen-age boys
burrow into their pillows. Now the lamp
that glowed at midnight seems, like a bloodshot eye,
to throb and throw a red stain on the room;
balked by the stubborn body’s weight, the soul
mimics the lamplight’s struggles with the dawn.
Like a face in tears – the tears effaced by wind –
the air is tremulous with escaping things,
and Man is tired of writing, Woman of love.
Here and there, chimneys begin to smoke.
Whores, mouths gaping, eyelids gray as ash,
sleep on their feet, leaning against the walls,
and beggar-women, hunched over sagging breasts,
blow on burning sticks, then on their hands.
Now, the hungry feel the cold the worst,
and women in labor suffer the sharpest pains;
now, like a sob cut short by a clot of blood,
a rooster crows somewhere; a sea of mist
swirls around the buildings; in the Hôtel-Dieu
the dying breathe their last, while the debauched,
spent by their exertions, sleep alone.
Shivering dawn, in a wisp of pink and green,
totters slowly across the empty Seine,
and dingy Paris – old drudge rubbing its eyes –
picks up its tools to begin another day.
THE SOUL OF THE WINE
sang by night in its bottles: ‘Dear mankind –
dear and disinherited! Break the seal
of scarlet wax that darkens my glass jail,
and I shall bring you light and brotherhood!
How long you labored on the fiery hills
among the needful vines! I know it cost
fanatic toil to make me what I am,
and I shall not be thankless or malign:
I take a potent pleasure when I pour
down the gullet of a workingman,
and how much more I relish burial
in his hot belly than in my cold vaults!
Listen to my music after hours,
the hope that quickens in my throbbing heart;
lean on the table with your sleeves rolled up
and honor me: you will know happiness,
for I shall bring a gleam to your wife’s eyes,
a glow of power to your son’s wan cheeks
and for this athlete flagging in the race
shall be the oil that strengthens wrestlers’ limbs.
Into you I shall flow, ambrosia brewed
from precious seed the eternal Sower cast,
so that the poetry born of our love will grow
and blossom like a flower in God’s sight!’
RAGPICKERS’ WINE
Look – there! in the streetlamp’s dingy glow
– wind rattling the glass, lashing the flame –
out of the muddy labyrinth of streets
teeming with unruly, sordid types,
a ragpicker stumbles past, wagging his head
and bumping into walls with a poet’s grace,
pouring out his heartfelt schemes to one
and all, including spies of the police.
He swears to wonders, lays down noble laws,
reforms the wicked, raises up their prey,
and under the lowering canopy of heaven
intoxicates himself on his own boasts.
More such creatures – who knows where they live? –
wracked by drudgery, ruined by the years,
staggering under enormous sacks of junk
– the vomit of surfeited Paris – now appear,
whole armies of them, reeking of sour wine,
comrades in arms, whitened by their wars,
whiskers drooping like surrendered flags…
Before them wave the banners and the palms –
as if by magic, arches of triumph rise
and in the chaos of exploding flares,
bugle-calls and battle-cries and drums,
they march in glory past a cheering mob!
So it is, through frivolous mankind,
that wine like a bright Pactolus pours its gold;
with human tongues it glorifies its deeds
and rules by what it gives, as true kings do.
To drown the spleen and pacify the sloth
of these old wrecks who die without a word,
God, taking pity, created Sleep; to which
Man added Wine, the sun’s anointed son!
THE MURDERER’S WINE
My wife is dead, so now I’m free
to drink until I drop.
No more nagging when I’m broke –
I put a stop to that.
Today I’m happy. What a day –
not a cloud in the sky!
The summer must have been this hot
when I was courting her.
Thirsty – I’m thirsty all the time!
A drink is what I need,
wine enough to fill her grave…
which means a lot of wine.
You see, I threw her down a well
and afterwards pushed in
the flagstones piled around the edge –
that ought to keep her still.
‘Meet me after dark,’ I begged,
‘where we can be alone’ –
the right words came all by themselves,
you don’t forget such tunes.
I told her we could patch things up
the way they used to be,
and she…believed me! Women are
crazy. Men are too.
Even though her face was lined
she hadn’t lost her looks,
and I still – I loved her too much;
that’s why she had to die.
Nobody understands. Name one
of the numskull drunks I know
who ever dreamed when nights went bad
that wine could make a shroud.
That bunch! They feel about as much
as plowshares breaking ground –
plow or harrow! which of them
has ever known True Love
with all its cavalcade of tears
and fears and broken hearts
and poison darts and rattling chains…
and now the rattling bones?
I’m free of that – free and alone!
Tonight I’ll be dead drunk
and lay myself out on the ground
without a second thought;
I’ll sleep like a dog and never know
or care when the skidding wheels
of a wagon loaded down with rocks
crushes my guilty head
or cuts my heedless guts in half –
what happens, after that,
is no concern of mine: to Hell
with Hell! Good riddance, God!
THE SOLITARY’S WINE
The unexampled ogle of a whore
glinting toward you like the silver ray
the wavering moon releases on the lake
when she would bathe her listless beauty there;
the final bag of coins in a gambler’s fist;
the cavernous kisses you get from Adeline;
the maddening tune that will not let you go,
as if it echoed faintly all of human pain –
none of that, my Bottle, can compare
with the remedy your long green curves supply
to the worshipful poet’s ever-thirsting heart;
for him you pour out hope and youth and life –
and pride, the beggars’ treasure! give us pride
that makes us winners – we shall be as gods!
LOVERS’ WINE
Today the air is splendid!
no need for bridle or spurs –
mount the wine and set off
for a sky that is magic – divine!
Like a pair of angels driven
by some implacable fever,
up into morning’s blue crystal
to follow the far mirage!
Cradled gently on the wing
of the conniving whirlwind,
rapt in a parallel transport,
my sister, we shall flee
side by side, unflagging,
to the Paradise of my dreams!
DESTRUCTION
I come and go – the Demon tags along,
hanging around me like the air I breathe;
each time I swallow he fills my burning lungs
with sinful cravings never satisfied.
Sometimes (for he knows my love of Art)
he visits in a seductive woman’s form
and with the specious alibis of despair
inures my lips to squalid appetites.
Thereby he leads me out of God’s regard,
spent and gasping – out to where the vast
barrens of Boredom stretch infinitely,
and here he hurls into my startled face
the open wounds, the rags they have soaked through,
and all Destruction’s bloody bag of tricks!
A MARTYR
DRAWING BY AN UNKNOWN MASTER
Among decanters, ivories and gems,
sumptuous divans
with gold-brocaded silks and fragrant gowns
trailing languid folds,
where lilies sorrowing in crystal urns
exhale their final sigh
and where, as if the room were under glass,
the air is pestilent,
a headless corpse emits a stream of blood
the sopping pillows shed
onto thirsty sheets which drink it up
as greedily as sand.
Pale as the visions which our captive eyes
discover in the dark,
the head, enveloped in its sombre mane,
emeralds still in its ears,
watches from a stool, a thing apart,
and from the eyes rolled back
to whiteness blank as daybreak emanates
an alabaster stare.
The carcass sprawling naked on the bed
displays without a qualm
the splendid cynosure which prodigal
Nature bestowed – betrayed;
pink with gold clocks, one stocking clings –
a souvenir, it seems;
the garter, gleaming like a secret eye,
darts a jewelled glance.
Doubled by a full-length portrait drawn
in the same provocative pose,
the strange demeanor of this solitude
reveals love’s darker side –
profligate practices and guilty joys,
embraces bound to please
the swarm of naughty angels frolicking
in the curtains overhead;
yet judging from the narrow elegance
of her shoulders sloping down
past the serpentine curve of her waist
to the almost bony hips,
she still is young! – What torment in her soul,
what tedium that stung
her senses gave this body to the throng
of wandering, lost desires?
In spite of so much love, did the vengeful man
she could not, living, sate
assuage on her inert and docile flesh
the measure of his lust?
And did he, gripping her blood-stiffened hair
lift up that dripping head
and press on her cold teeth one final kiss?
The sullied corpse is still.
– Far from a scornful world of jeering crowds
and peering magistrates,
sleep in peace, lovely enigma, sleep
in your mysterious tomb:
your bridegroom roves, and your immortal form
keeps vigil when he sleeps;
like you, no doubt, he will be constant too,
and faithful unto death.
LESBOS
Mother of Latin games and Greek delights,
Lesbos! where the kisses, languid or rapt,
cool as melons, burning as the sun,
adorn the dark and gild the shining days
given to Latin games and Greek delights;
Lesbos, where the kisses, like cascades,
teeming and turbulent yet secret, deep,
plunge undaunted into unplumbed gulfs
and gather there, gurgling and sobbing till
they overflow in ever-new cascades!
Where Phryne’s breasts are judged by her own kind
and every sigh is answered by a kiss;
where Aphrodite envies Sappho’s rite
at shrines as favored as the Cyprian’s own,
and Phryne’s judges never are unkind;
Lesbos, where on suffocating nights
before their mirrors, girls with hollow eyes
caress their ripened limbs in sterile joy
and taste the fruit of their nubility
on Lesbos during suffocating nights!
What if old Plato’s scowling eyes condemn?
Kisses absolve you by their sweet excess
whose subtleties are inexhaustible!
Queen of the tender Archipelago,
pursue what Plato’s scowling eyes condemn
and win your pardon for the martyrdom
forever inflicted on ambitious hearts
that yearn, far from us, for a radiant smile
they dimly glimpse on the rim of other skies –
you win your pardon for that martyrdom!
Which of the Gods will dare to disapprove
and chide the pallor of your studious brow?
Until Olympian scales have weighed the flood
of tears your rivers pour into the sea,
which of the Gods will dare to disapprove?
What use to us are laws of right and wrong?
High-hearted virgins, honor of the Isles,
your altars are august as any: love
will laugh at Heaven as it laughs at Hell!
What use to us are laws of right and wrong?
For Lesbos has chosen me among all men
to sing the secrets of her budding grove;
from childhood I have shared the mystery
of frenzied laughter laced with sullen tears,
and therefore am I chosen among men
to keep my lookout high on Sappho’s Cliff,
vigilant as a sleepless sentinel
gazing night and day for the bark or brig
whose distant outline shimmers on the blue;
I keep my lookout high on Sappho’s Cliff
to discover if the sea is merciful
and if, out of the sobbing breakers’ surge,
there will return to Lesbos, which forgives,
the cherished corpse of Sappho who left us
to discover if the sea is merciful –
of virile Sappho, the lover and the poet,
fairer than Aphrodite whose blue gaze
surrenders to the sombre radiance
of ash-encircled burning eyes – the eyes
of virile Sappho, the lover and the poet!
Fairer than the Anadyómene
scattering her bright serenity
and all the treasures of her golden youth
upon old Ocean dazzled by his child –
fairer than the Anadyómene
was Sappho on the day she broke her vow
and died apostate to her own command,
her lovely body forfeit to a brute
whose arrogance avenged the sacrilege
of Sappho, lost the day she broke her vow…
And from that time to this, Lesbos laments.
Heedless of the homage of the world,
she drugs herself each night with cries of pain
that rend the skies above her empty shores,
and from that time to this Lesbos laments!
DAMNED WOMEN
DELPHINE AND HIPPOLYTA
Disclosed, though dimly, by the faltering lamps,
Hippolyta rested on a soft and scented couch
reliving those caresses which had raised
the curtains of her inexperience.
Wild-eyed after the storm, she conjured up
already-distant skies of innocence,
just as a traveler might turn back to glimpse
blue horizons lost with the morning’s light.
The sluggish tears of her unfocussed gaze,
her eager arms flung down as in defeat –
every trace of voluptuous apathy
served and set off her fragile loveliness.
Reclining at her feet, elated yet calm,
Delphine stared up at her with shining eyes
the way a lioness will watch her prey
once her fangs have marked it for her own.
In all her pride the potent beauty knelt
before the pitiable one, complacently
savoring the wine of her triumph, reaching up
as though to garner fond acknowledgment.
She searched her victim’s eyes for evidence
of the silent canticle which pleasure sings
and that sublime and infinite gratitude
which glistens under the eyelids like a sigh.
‘Hippolyta, my angel, how do you feel now?
Surely you realize you must not grant
the holy sacrifice of your first bloom
to cruel gales that would disfigure it…
My kisses are as light as those May-flies
which graze the great transparent lakes at sunset;
his would trace their furrows on your flesh
like the tongue of some lacerating plow –
as if you had been trampled by a team
of oxen with inexorable hooves…
Hippolyta, sister! turn your face to me,
my heart and soul, my other half, my all!
Let me see your eyes, my heaven, my stars!
For one of their healing glances I shall trade
as yet untasted pleasures: you will drift
to sleep in my arms dreaming an endless dream!’
But then Hippolyta looked up: ‘Delphine,
I am grateful to you, I have no regrets,
yet I am troubled and my nerves are tense,
as if a dreadful feast had fouled the night…
Pangs of dread oppress me – I see ghosts
in black battalions beckoning me down
uncertain roads where each horizon ends
abruptly in a sky the color of blood.
What have we done – is it some wicked thing?
Must I endure this turmoil and this fear?
I cringe each time you call me “angel,” yet
I feel my mouth long for you. No, Delphine –
don’t look at me like that! I love you now
and I shall love you always: I choose you,
even if my choice becomes a trap
laid for me, and the onset of my doom.’
With adamant eyes and a despotic voice,
Delphine replied, shaking her tragic mane
as if she stirred on the priestess’ tripod:
‘Who in love’s name dares to speak of Hell?
My curse forever on the dreaming fool
who entered first that endless labyrinth
and tried for all his folly to enlist
love in the service of morality!
Whoever hopes to force into accord
day and darkness, shadow and radiance,
will never warm his vacillating flesh
in that red sun our bodies know as love!
Go now – go find yourself some stupid boy
and give his lust your virgin heart to maul;
then, filled with horror, livid with disgust,
bring back to me your mutilated breasts…
You cannot please two masters in this world!’
But then the girl, in a paroxysm of grief,
suddenly cried out: ‘There is emptiness
inside me – and that emptiness is my heart!
Searing as lava, deeper than the Void!
Nothing will satiate this monster’s greed,
nothing appease the Fury who puts out
her flaming torch within my very blood…
O draw the curtains – leave the world outside!
There must be rest for all this weariness.
Let me annihilate myself upon
your breast and find the solace of a grave!’
Downward, wretched victims! ever down
the path you follow: make your way to hell,
into the pit where crime arouses crime,
seething together in the thunder’s maw
and scourged by winds that never knew the sky
Down, frantic shades, and fall to your desires
where passion never slakes its raging thirst,
and from your pleasure stems your punishment.
Crack by crevice, into your sunless caves
feverish miasmas seep and gather strength
until they catch on fire like spirit-lamps,
imbuing your bodies with their vile perfume.
The harsh sterility of your delight
scalds your throat and desiccates your skin –
and the eyeless cyclone of concupiscence
rattles your flesh like an abandoned flag.
Wandering far from all mankind, condemned
to forage in the wilderness like wolves,
pursue your fate, chaotic souls, and flee
the infinite you bear within yourselves!
DAMNED WOMEN
Pensive as cattle resting on the beach,
they are staring out to sea; their hands and feet
creep toward each other imperceptibly
and touch at last, hesitant then fierce.
How eagerly some, beguiled by secrets shared,
follow a talkative stream among the trees,
spelling out their timid childhood’s love
and carving initials in the tender wood;
others pace as slow and grave as nuns
among the rocks where Anthony beheld
the purple breasts of his temptations rise
like lava from the visionary earth;
some by torchlight in the silent caves
consecrated once to pagan rites
invoke – to quench their fever’s holocaust –
Bacchus, healer of the old regrets;
others still, beneath their scapulars,
conceal a whip that in the solitude
and darkness of the forest reconciles
tears of pleasure with the tears of pain.
Virgins, demons, monsters, martyrs, all
great spirits scornful of reality,
saints and satyrs in search of the infinite,
racked with sobs or loud in ecstasy,
you whom my soul has followed to your hell,
Sisters! I love you as I pity you
for your bleak sorrows, for your unslaked thirsts,
and for the love that gorges your great hearts!
THE TWO KIND SISTERS
Death and Debauch, two friendly girls, bestow
lavish kisses, being in lusty health;
in years of labor, their still-virgin wombs,
covered with rags, have never given birth!
Notably for the poet – hell’s own pet,
ominous enemy of the household gods –
whorehouse and charnel-house alike reserve
a bed Remorse has never visited.
Alcove and Coffin, rich in blasphemies,
with sisterly solicitude propose
terrible pleasures and appalling treats…
When will you bury me, Debauch? O Death,
whose pleasures rival hers, when will you come
to graft your cypress on her gruesome rose?
ALLEGORY
It is a lovely woman, richly dressed,
who shares her wineglass with her own long hair;
the brothel’s rotgut and the brawls of love
have left the marble of her skin unmarred.
She flouts Debauchery and flirts with Death,
monsters who maim what they do not mow down,
and yet their talons have not dared molest
the simple majesty of this proud flesh.
Artemis walking, a sultana prone,
she worships pleasure with a Moslem’s faith
and summons to her breasts with open arms
the race of men enslaved by her warm eyes.
Sterile this virgin, yet imperative
to the world and its workings what she knows:
the body’s beauty is a noble gift
which wrests a pardon for all infamy.
What is Purgatory, what is Hell
to her? When she must go into the Night,
her eyes will gaze upon the face of Death
without hate, without remorse – as one newborn.
METAMORPHOSES OF THE VAMPIRE
The woman, meanwhile, writhing like a snake
across hot coals and hiking up her breasts
over her corset-stays, began to speak
as if her mouth had steeped each word in musk:
‘My lips are smooth, and with them I know how
to smother conscience somewhere in these sheets.
I make the old men laugh like little boys,
and on my triumphant bosom all tears dry.
Look at me naked, and I will replace
sun and moon and every star in the sky.
So apt am I, dear scholar, in my lore
that once I fold a man in these fatal arms
or forfeit to his teeth my breasts which are
timid and teasing, tender and tyrannous,
upon these cushions swooning with delight
the impotent angels would be damned for me!’
When she had sucked the marrow from my bones,
and I leaned toward her listlessly
to return her loving kisses, all I saw
was a kind of slimy wineskin brimming with pus!
I closed my eyes in a spasm of cold fear,
and when I opened them to the light of day,
beside me, instead of that potent mannequin
who seemed to have drunk so deeply of my blood,
there trembled the wreckage of a skeleton
which grated with the cry of a weathervane
or a rusty signboard hanging from a pole,
battered by the wind on winter nights.
A VOYAGE TO CYTHERA
My heart flew up like a bird before the mast,
circled the shrouds and mounted free and clear;
the ship rolled on beneath a cloudless sky
like an angel drunk on the glory of the sun.
What is that dreary island – the black one there?
Cythera, someone says, the one in the song
insipid Eldorado of good old boys:
it isn’t much of a place, as you can see.
Island of feasting hearts and secret joys!
Like a fragrance, the voluptuary ghost
of Aphrodite floats above your shores,
inflaming minds with languor and with love.
Island green with myrtle, rich with bloom,
revered forever by all mortal men
from whose adoring hearts wells up a sigh
soft as the fallen petals of a rose
or the relentless moan of doves…Cythera now
was nothing more than a thistled promontory
vexed by the wheeling gulls’ unruly cries.
Yet there was something…I could see it now;
no temple sheltered by its sacred grove,
no priestess gathering blossoms, her loose robe
half-opened to the breezes as they passed,
her flesh ignited by a secret fire;
but as we cleared the coastline – close enough
to scare the shorebirds with our flapping sails –
we saw what it was: black against the sky,
no cypress but a branching gallows-tree.
Perched on their provender, ferocious birds
were ravaging the ripe corpse hanging there,
driving their filthy beaks like cruel drills
into each cranny of its rotten flesh;
the eyes were holes, and from the ruined groin
a coil of heavy guts had tumbled out –
the greedy creatures, gorged on hideous sweets,
had peck by vicious peck castrated him.
Below his feet, among a whining pack
that waited, muzzles lifted for their share,
some bigger beast was prowling back and forth
like a hangman huge among his underlings.
Inhabitant of Cythera, rapture’s child,
how silently you suffered these affronts
in expiation of your shameful rites
and sins that have proscribed your burial.
Ludicrous carcass! I hung there with you,
and at the sight of your insulted limbs
I tasted, like a vomit in my mouth,
the bitter tide of age-old sufferings.
Knowing what you were and what you are,
I felt each saber-tooth and jabbing beak
of jet-black panthers and of carrion-crows
that once so loved to lacerate my flesh.
…The sky was suave, the sea serene; for me
from now on everything was bloody and black
– the worse for me – and as if in a shroud
my heart lay buried in this allegory.
On Aphrodite’s island all I found
was a token gallows where my image hung…
Lord give me strength and courage to behold
my body and my heart without disgust!
EROS AND THE SKULL
AN OLD COLOPHON
Insolent Eros,
seated on the skull
of Humanity
as if on a throne,
gaily blows bubbles:
they rise, one after
another, as if
to rejoin the worlds
in the stratosphere.
Frail and luminous,
each globe as it mounts
explodes, spattering
its tenuous soul
like a golden dream.
I hear the skull moan
as each one shatters:
‘When will this callous,
ridiculous game
of yours be over?
What your cruel breath
scatters into air,
Monster Murderer,
is my very flesh
and blood – gray matters!’
SAINT PETER’S DENIAL
The tide of curses day by day ascends
unto His hosts – and God, what does He do?
Like a tyrant gorged on meat and wine, He sleeps –
the sound of our blasphemies sweet in His Ears.
The martyrs’ sobs, the screaming at the stake
compose, no doubt, a heady symphony;
indeed, for all the blood their pleasure costs,
the Heavens have not yet had half enough!
Remember the Mount of Olives, Jesus? When
you fell on your knees and humbly prayed to Him
Who laughed on high at the sound of hammering
as the butchers drove the nails into your flesh?
And when they spat on your divinity,
the jeering scullions and the conscript scum –
that moment when you felt the thorns impale
the skull which housed Humanity itself;
when the intolerable weight of your tormented flesh
hung from your distended arms; when blood
and sweat cascaded from your whitening brow;
when you were made a target for all eyes –
did you dream then of the wonder-working days
when you came to keep eternal promises,
riding an ass, and everywhere the ways
strewn with palms and flowers – those were the days!
when, your heart on fire with valor and with hope,
you whipped the moneylenders out of that place –
you were master then! But now, has not remorse
pierced your side even deeper than the spear?
Myself, I shall be satisfied to quit
a world where action is no kin to dreams;
would I had used – and perished by – the sword!
Peter denied his Master…He did well!
THE DEATH OF LOVERS
We shall have richly scented beds –
couches deep as graves, and rare
flowers on the shelves will bloom
for us beneath a lovelier sky.
Emulously spending their last
warmth, our hearts will be as two
torches reflecting their double fires
in the twin mirrors of our minds.
One evening, rose and mystic blue,
we shall exchange a single glance,
a long sigh heavy with farewells;
and then an Angel, unlocking doors,
will come, loyal and gay, to bring
the tarnished mirrors back to life.
THE DEATH OF THE POOR
What else consoles? It is the remedy
and the preventive too, the one escape
that like a stupefying draught of wine
gives us the heart to get through one more day;
sure on the dim horizon shines one light
that never fails, in spite of storm and cold –
the famous inn all guidebooks recommend
where we can count on lodging for the Night.
Angel of Death, in your transforming hands
the straw we lie on turns to softest down,
our sleep is sound, our dreams are ecstasy!
Here is the mystic granary of heaven,
purse of the poor and our inheritance,
the open gateway to the unknown God!
THE DEATH OF ARTISTS
How often, grim Caricature, must I
jingle my bells and kiss your bestial brow?
Until my aim is true – the circle squared –
how many arrows forfeit to the Void?
We rack our brains with subtle stratagems
and ruin many massive armatures
before the splendid Creature may be seen
for whom our fatal longing makes us sob!
To some their idol will not be revealed,
and these doomed sculptors, branded with disgrace,
upbraid themselves and lacerate their breasts,
nursing one hope, sepulchral Capitol! –
that Death as it fills the sky like another sun
will make the flowers of their devising bloom!
A STRANGE MAN’S DREAM
to Nadar
Have you felt – I have – a pain that you enjoyed?
Do they say about you, too: ‘How strange he is!’
– I was dying, and a special agony
filled my eager soul: dread and desire,
anguish and expectation – no sense of revolt.
The closer I came to what would be the end,
the sharper was my torment and the more welcome;
my heart was wrenching free from the usual world.
I was like a child in front of a stage,
hating the curtain as if it were in the way…
Finally the cold truth was revealed:
I had simply died, and the terrible dawn
enveloped me. Could this be all there is?
The curtain was up, and I was waiting still.
TRAVELERS
to Maxime Du Camp
1
The child enthralled by lithographs and maps
can satisfy his hunger for the world:
how limitless it is beneath the lamp,
and how it shrinks in the eyes of memory!
One morning we set out. Our heart is full,
our mind ablaze with rancor and disgust –
we yield it all to the rhythm of the waves,
our infinite self awash on the finite sea:
some are escaping from their country’s shame,
some from the horror of life at home, and some
– astrologers blinded by a woman’s stare –
are fugitives from Circe’s tyranny;
rather than be turned to swine they drug
themselves on wind and sea and glowing skies;
rain and snow and incinerating suns
gradually erase her kisses’ scars.
But only those who leave for leaving’s sake
are travelers; hearts tugging like balloons,
they never balk at what they call their fate
and, not knowing why, keep muttering ‘away!’…
those whose longings have the shape of clouds,
who dream – as conscripts dream of guns – of huge
and fluctuating and obscure delights,
none of which has ever had a name.
2
As if we wanted to be a ball or a top!
bouncing and twirling – even in our sleep
we look for something, driven round and round
like a sun some cruel Angel spins in space.
Preposterous quest! whose goal cannot be known
but, being nowhere, can be anywhere;
only our hope is inexhaustible,
and Man pursues repose until he drops!
Our soul is a schooner seeking a free port,
and when the question rises from the deck,
a voice from the topmost eagerly replies:
‘Happiness!… Glory!… Love!…’ Another reef.
The lookout hails each island, after dark,
as Eldorado and the Promised Land;
imagination readies for its feast –
and sights a sandbar by the morning light.
Irons or overboard with the drunken tar,
pathetic lover of chimerical coasts
who dreams Atlantis and then finds the sea
emptier for one more fond mirage!
One more old sailor in the muddy slums
who meditates, half blind, on Happy Isles
and thinks he sees the beacons of Dakar
each time a candle gutters in the dark.
3
Awesome travelers! What noble chronicles
we read in your unfathomable eyes!
Open the sea-chests of your memories
and show us jewels made of storms and stars.
We long to journey without steam or sail!
Help us forget the prison of our days
and on the canvas of our minds unfurl
your visions framed by the horizon’s gold.
Tell us what you’ve seen!
4
‘We’ve seen the stars,
the waves, and shoals we failed to see – we saw;
and though destruction came in many forms,
we were too often bored, the same as here.
The glory of the sun on Tyrian seas,
the glow of cities when the sun goes down,
awakened in our hearts a restless urge
to plunge into a still more distant sky.
None of the famous landscapes that we saw
equalled the mysterious allure
of those that Chance arranges in the clouds…
And our desire would let us have no peace!
Enjoyment breeds desire tenfold…Desire!
Old tree manured by pleasure, all the while
your bark will coarsen, growing thick and hard,
your branches seek the sun at closer range!
Great tree, will you grow forever, hardier
than the cypress? All the same, we’ve brought
these images for your albums, stay-at-homes
who prize whatever comes from far away:
idols we saw, hideous gods whose thrones
were set with emeralds the size of plums;
and palaces of marble lace whose cost
would ruin your most reckless millionaires;
robes embroidered by a thousand slaves;
women who filed their lacquered teeth to points;
jugglers sinuous as the snakes they charmed…’
5
Yes, and what else?
6
‘You talk just like a child!
Chief among all the wonders that we glimpsed
in every hole and corner, forced on our sight
at every turn of Fortune’s fatal wheel –
the boring pageant of immortal sin:
Woman a slave and yet vainglorious,
stupid and unashamed in her self-love;
Man a greedy tyrant, slave of his slaves,
swelling the sewer to a stinking flood;
victims in tears, the hangman glorified;
the banquet seasoned and festooned with blood:
the poison of power clogs the despot’s veins,
and the people kiss the knout that scourges them;
several religions similar to ours,
besieging heaven – the holy everywhere
like sybarites on rose-beds (only on
beds of nails) in hot pursuit of bliss;
Humanity enslaved by rhetoric
and mad today as it has ever been,
screaming to God in a tantrum of despair:
“I curse You in my Image – Father, be damned!”
And the least stupid, Ecstasy’s elect,
fleeing the herd where Fate has penned them fast,
take refuge in the wards of Opium!
– So much for what is news around the world!’
7
It is a bitter truth our travels teach!
Tiny and monotonous, the world
has shown – will always show us – what we are:
oases of fear in the wasteland of ennui!
Choose your desolation – stay if you can,
stir if you must. One man chooses sloth
to cheat a tireless adversary, Time,
out of his triumph in the funeral games.
Another journeys, like the Wandering Jew,
forever, but no roving can evade
the merciless net; still others seem to know
how to kill Time before they’re even weaned!
Yet we are his in the end. One hope remains:
to venture forth, with ‘Onward!’ as our cry…
Just as once we set sail for Cathay,
wind in our hair, eyes on the open sea,
we shall embark upon the Sea of Shades
with all the elation of a boy’s first cruise…
Do you hear those lovely voices? They have death
in their appeal: ‘Come with us, come and eat
the fragrant Lotus! Here is where we reap
the magic harvest that you hunger for!
Come and revel in the sweet delight
of days where it is always afternoon!’
Pylades is there, his arms held out;
we know the sound by heart, we guess the ghost!
It is her voice – we used to kiss her knees –
‘Orestes, come – Electra waits for you…’
8
Death, old admiral, up anchor now,
this country wearies us. Put out to sea!
What if the waves and winds are black as ink,
our hearts are filled with light. You know our hearts!
Pour us your poison, let us be comforted!
Once we have burned our brains out, we can plunge
to Hell or Heaven – any abyss will do –
deep in the Unknown to find the new!
THE FOUNTAIN
Your eyes are tired, poor lover – close them, then;
lie still, just as you are, in that casual pose
where pleasure found you, took you, let you go!
Down in the courtyard the fountain whispers on,
never falling silent, day or night –
an echo of the ecstasy that was
this evening’s overwhelming gift of love.
The wisp of water rises,
wavers, reappears:
a white bouquet
whose flowers sway
until the moon releases
showers of bright tears.
So it is with your soul that, set aglow
and glorified by the flash of pleasure shared,
surges swift and valiant to the skies
that hale it to their vast enchanted height,
then sinks back, dying in a slow descent
of languor which by melancholy ways
ebbs to the inmost center of my heart.
The wisp of water rises,
wavers, reappears:
a white bouquet
where flowers sway
until the moon releases
showers of bright tears.
Lover, whom the darkness so becomes
that I rejoice to lie upon your breast
and listen to the never-ending plaint
which murmurs to itself in marble pools
among the trees disheveled by the wind:
moon, melodious water, marvelous night –
your sorrow is the mirror of my love!
The wisp of water rises,
wavers, reappears:
a white bouquet
whose flowers sway
until the moon releases
showers of bright tears.
BERTHE: HER EYES
No other eyes can bear comparison!
Something of Night is in your glance, my child;
a gentle darkness falls and fills and flees –
O world of charming shadows, fall on me!
Great eyes of my child, beloved shrines,
you make me think of those enchanted caves
where out of the lethargic mysteries
neglected treasures tenuously shine.
The eyes of my child are secret and immense
as you are, boundless Night – lit up like you
with stars that are the dreams of Love and Faith,
whose depths are luminous, alluring, chaste…
HYMN
To Love in all her loveliness
filling my heart with light,
to the Angel, the Idol, the Muse,
homage and endless praise!
Who like a salt-wind from the sea
suffuses life with joy
and pours into my unslaked heart
eternity’s bouquet!
What is your substance, flawless Love?
Who can pronounce your name,
invisible grain of musk at the core
of my immortal soul?
Sachet forever fresh that scents
this intimate retreat,
forgotten censer smoking still
in secret through the dark!
To Love who by her favor grants
my health and happiness,
to the Angel, the Idol, the Muse,
homage and endless praise!
THE PROMISES OF A FACE
I love, pale Beauty, how the shadows mass
beneath the arches of your brow;
black as they are, those eyes of yours inspire
anything but funereal thoughts –
eyes which languishingly show the way
out of that labyrinth of hair,
eyes which intimate: ‘If you desire,
lover of the modeled muse,
to realize the hopes that we arouse
and sate the tastes that you profess,
rely on what you see: descend, explore
a matching nether opulence;
you’ll find at the tip of each imposing breast
a medal cast in massy bronze,
and where the belly’s sulfur silk is seamed
with saffron velvet, flourishes
a sinuous fleece which is in fact the twin
of that enormous head of hair –
and which in darkness rivals you, O Night,
deep and spreading starless Night!’
THE VOICE
Above my cradle loomed the bookcase where
Latin ashes and the dust of Greece
mingled with novels, history, and verse
in one dark Babel. I was folio-high
when I first heard the voices. ‘All the world,’
said one, insidious but sure, ‘is cake –
let me make you an appetite to match,
and then your happiness need have no end.’
And the other: ‘Come, O come with me in dreams
beyond the possible, beyond the known!’
That second voice sang like the wind in the reeds,
a wandering phantom out of nowhere, sweet
to hear yet somehow horrifying too.
‘Now and forever!’ I answered, whereupon
my wound was with me – ever since, my Fate:
behind the scenes, the frivolous decors
of all existence, deep in the abyss,
I see distinctly other, brighter worlds;
yet victimized by what I know I see,
I sense the serpent coiling at my heels;
and therefore, like the prophets, from that hour
I’ve loved the wilderness, I’ve loved the sea;
no ordinary sadness touches me
though I find savor in the bitterest wine;
how many truths I trade away for lies,
and musing on heaven, stumble over trash…
Even so, the voice consoles me: ‘Keep your dreams,
the wise have none so lovely as the mad.’
THE UNFORESEEN
A miser watches while his father dies
and speculates, before the corpse is cold:
‘There must be some old boards out in the shed –
good enough for such a thing!’
A coquette coos to herself: ‘My heart is kind,
and naturally God gave me looks to match.’
Her heart! that organ shriveled like a ham
cured in Hell’s eternal fire!
A fuming scribbler – ask him: he’s a torch! –
taunts his readers drowned in a sea of ink:
‘Where has He gone, this loving God of yours,
where is the Savior you profess?’
Better still, I know one libertine
who wrings his hands and snivels night and day,
repeating helplessly: ‘I will be good –
starting first thing tomorrow!’
The clock in the tower whispers: ‘It is time.
Useless to warn them – flesh is deaf and blind,
and fragile as a termite-ridden wall
the grubs have eaten from within.’
Whereupon appears One they had all denied –
their gloating accuser: ‘I trust that you enjoyed
taking communion from my chamber-pot
at our charming little Black Mass?
Each of you in his heart has worshipped me,
in secret kissed my filthy ass – behold!
Hear my laugh and welcome Satan home,
huge and ugly as the earth itself!
Red-handed hypocrites, how could you hope
to diddle your Master out of his reward?
As if two prizes were given: being rich
and reaching Heaven besides!
His prey must make it worth the hunter’s while
to stalk such game so long out in the cold.
Now you will learn just how much misery
loves company – come down!
down with me through layers of mud and dust,
down through the rubble of your rotting graves
into my palace carved from a single rock
without one soft spot in its heart,
made as it is of universal Sin:
it holds my pain, my glory and my pride!’
– Meanwhile perched above the universe
an Angel trumpets the victory
of those whose hearts exclaim: ‘O Lord, my God!
I bless Thy rod, I thank Thee for this pain!
My soul in Thy hands is more than a futile toy,
and Thy wisdom is infinite.’
That trumpet’s sound is so magnificent
on solemn eves of Heavenly harvesting,
that like an ecstasy it gladdens those
whose praises it proclaims.
TO A MALABAR GIRL
Your feet are agile as your hands; your hips
make well-endowed white women envious;
your velvet eyes are blacker than your flesh,
and for the artist pondering his theme
your body is a blessing undisguised.
Livening hot blue landscapes where you live,
you fill the water-jugs and perfume jars,
you light your master’s pipe and wave away
mosquitoes from his bed – such are your tasks,
and when the plane-trees rustle in the dawn
you buy bananas ripe from the bazaar.
The day is filled with the sound of your bare feet
and snatches of incomprehensible songs;
when evening’s scarlet mantle falls, you stretch
your limbs out on the matting, and you dream –
what do you dream? There must be hummingbirds
and bright hibiscus lovely as yourself…
Poor happy child! You want to visit France,
that crowded country where no one is well?
Make your farewells to swaying tamarinds
and trust your life to sailors and the sea?
Dressed in nothing but those muslin rags
you’d shiver out your days beneath the snow –
how you would weep for carefree nakedness,
your supple body cruelly corseted
as you hustled supper in the city’s mud,
selling the fragrance of your foreign charms,
sad-eyed and yearning through our filthy fogs
for the scattered ghosts of absent coco palms!
A LONG WAY FROM HERE
This is the place – the holy hut
where, always in her Sunday best
and elbow-deep in cushions, she
waits for us – or anyone – to call,
listening to the fountains sob
and fanning her unbridled breast;
we are in Dorothea’s room –
nearby, the wind and water sing
a tearful sort of cradle-song
to pacify this pampered child.
Dedicated downward strokes
massage her skin to burnished teak
with oil of musk and benjamin
– and all our tribute flowers swoon.
ROMANTIC SUNSET
The sun is all very well when it rises – then
who minds returning its abrupt salute?
But fortunate the man who still can find
room in his heart for its high-flown farewell!
Take my case. I have seen all nature swoon
under that gaze, like an over-driven heart.
Late as it is, who can resist the West
and the hope of entertaining one last ray…
No use following! The god withdraws,
and darkness comes into its own. The world
is cold and wet and full of mysteries;
a mortuary odor fouls the marsh
where my uncertain footsteps try to keep
from squashing frogs or snakes or something worse…
SCRUTINY AT MIDNIGHT
The clock ironically summons us
to account for what we did with this day past,
Friday the thirteenth, ominous date! and yet,
knowing the risks, we have defiled our life –
blasphemed the most incontestable of Gods
and (worthy slave of Hell) like a parasite
at Croesus’ feast, to please our monstrous host,
mocked what we love and what we loathe acclaimed!
oppressed the weak we wrongfully despise
and (servile bully) cringed to stupid Power,
genuflected before the throne of Things
and blessed the phosphorescence of decay!
Last, to cheat our moods with madness, we
whose Muse’s priesthood serves a world of death
have drunk without thirst and eaten without hunger!
– Let darkness hide us: quick, blow out the lamp!
SAD MADRIGAL
1
What does it matter to me that you are wise?
Be lovely – and be sad!
Tears are an advantage to the face,
as streams enhance the meadow’s mystery
and rains refresh the rose.
I love you best of all when happiness
fades from your downcast brow;
when horror overflows your heart; and when
your days are darkened by a spreading cloud:
the shadow of the past.
I love you when your brimming eyes release
teardrops hot as blood;
when all my consolations fail, and pain
is more than your tormented life can bear:
a deathbed agony.
I drink up every tear you weep – they are
the holiest joy I know,
the truest hymn, the most delicious draught:
deep in your heart I see them shining still,
the pearls shed by your eyes!
2
I know your heart, that crowded solitude
where old uprooted loves
are crammed into a roaring forge: you nurse
beneath your breast a semblance of the pride
that purifies the damned;
yet not until your dreams, my dear, reflect
the fires of Hell itself,
the nightmares you can never waken from
for all your faith in poison and the noose,
in powder, shot, and steel;
not until you cower at each knock
and dread the air you breathe,
shuddering each time you hear the clock,
will you have known the merciless embrace
of absolute Disgust –
then, only then, my slave, my queen,
whose love for me is fear,
your soul half-stifled by the tainted night,
will you turn to me and sob the words: ‘I am
your equal, O my king!’
THE REBEL
An angry Angel plunges out of the sky,
grips the sinner’s hair and shakes him hard,
shouting: ‘Hear and obey, it is the law!
I am your Guardian Angel. Do my will!
Learn that you must love, with all your heart,
the poor in body and spirit, the low, the lost,
so that your charity may spread for Christ
a proper carpet when He walks the earth.
Such is true love! Before your heart goes numb,
let the glory of God awaken it to joy,
for that alone among your pleasures lasts!’
And the Angel, punishing to prove his love,
torments his victim with his giant fists;
but still the damned soul answers: ‘I will not!’
MEDITATION
Behave, my Sorrow! let’s have no more scenes.
Evening’s what you wanted – Evening’s here:
a gradual darkness overtakes the town,
bringing peace to some, to others pain.
Now, while humanity racks up remorse
in low distractions under Pleasure’s lash,
groveling for a ruthless master – come
away, my Sorrow, leave them! Give me your hand…
See how the dear departed dowdy years
crowd the balconies of heaven, leaning down,
while smiling out of the sea appears Regret;
the Sun will die in its sleep beneath a bridge,
and trailing westward like a winding-sheet –
listen, my dear – how softly Night arrives.
THE ABYSS
Pascal had his abyss, it followed him.
But the abyss is All – action and dream,
language, desire! – and who could count the times
the wind of Fear has made my blood run cold!
Each way I turn, above me and below,
tempting and terrible too the silence, the space…
By night God traces with a knowing hand
unending nightmares on unending dark.
I balk at sleep as if it were a hole
filled up with horrors, leading God knows where;
my windows open on Infinity,
and haunted by its vertigo my mind
envies the indifference of the void:
will Numbers and Beings never set me free!
ICARUS LAMENTS
Happy men who fornicate with whores
are satisfied and fit,
while my exhausted arms are impotent
from clasping only clouds;
nights of staring at the peerless stars
which ornament the dark
have seared my eyes until they see no more
than memories of suns;
I have not followed out the heart of space
nor touched its boundaries:
beneath a fiery gaze I cannot meet
I feel my pinions fail;
I burn for beauty, but I shall not have
the highest accolade –
my name will not be given to the abyss
which waits to be my grave.
THE LID
Wherever he goes – on land or out to sea,
under a flaming sun or a frozen sky –
servant of Jesus, Aphrodite’s slave,
Midas in splendor, mendicant in rags,
city-mouse, country-mouse, anchored or adrift,
whether his wits are vacuous or keen,
man lives in terror of the Mystery
and casts a trembling glance above his head
to heaven – Heavens! the vault that walls him in,
illuminated ceiling of a music-hall
where every walk-on treads a bloody board;
the hermit’s hope, the libertine’s despair –
the Sky! black lid of that enormous pot
in which innumerable generations boil.
THE OFFENDED MOON
Worshipped once, discreetly, by our sires
as Cynthia, the lamp of secret haunts,
and still attended through blue landscapes by
a blameless harem of the stars, O moon!
do you see the lovers on their prosperous beds,
teeth gleaming where they sleep open-mouthed?
Do you see the poet struggling with his lines?
Or the vipers coupling in the new-mown hay?
Creeping on high in your yellow domino,
do you still, from darkness until dawn,
search out Endymion’s outdated charms?
– ‘What I see is your mother, child of this ruined age,
bent to her looking-glass by the weight of years
and skillfully painting the breast that suckled you!’
EPIGRAPH FOR A BANNED BOOK
Gentle reader, being – as you are –
a cautious man of uncorrupted tastes,
lay aside this disobliging work,
as orgiastic as it is abject.
Unless you’ve graduated from the school
of Satan (devil of a pedagogue!)
the poems will be Greek to you, or else
you’ll set me down for one more raving fool.
If, however, your impassive eye
can plunge into the chasms on each page,
read on, my friend: you’ll learn to love me yet.
Inquiring spirit, fellow-sufferer
in search, even here, of your own Paradise,
pity me…If not, to Hell with you!
PROSE POEMS
translated by Michael Hamburger
THE OLD WOMAN’S DESPAIR
The little, shriveled old woman felt quite overjoyed when she saw the pretty child whom everyone wished to amuse, whom everyone tried to please; that pretty creature, so fragile, like herself, the little old woman, and, like her also, without teeth and without hair.
And she approached the child, wishing to smile at it and make faces pleasantly.
But the terrified child struggled against the caresses of the good, decrepit woman, and filled the house with its yelping.
Then the kind old woman retired into her eternal solitude, and cried in a corner, saying to herself: ‘Oh! for us wretched old females, the age when we could please, if only the innocent, is past; and we fill with horror the little children whom we wish to love!’
THE FOOL AND THE VENUS
What an admirable day! The vast park abandons itself to the scorching eye of the sun, like youth to the domination of love.
The universal ecstasy of created things does not express itself in any sound; the flowing streams, even, are as though asleep. Quite unlike human festivities, this is a silent orgy.
It seems as though an ever-growing radiance were making the objects sparkle more and more; as though the excited flowers were burning with the desire to rival the azure of the sky in the intensity of their colors, and that the heat, rendering all perfumes visible, were causing them to rise towards the luminary like flying fireworks.
However, amongst this universal rejoicing, I have discovered an afflicted creature.
At the feet of a colossal Venus, one of those artificial fools, one of those willful clowns whose duty it is to make kings laugh when Remorse or Boredom obsesses them, dressed up in a garish and ridiculous costume, crowned with cap and bells, huddled up close to the pedestal, raises his eyes filled with tears to the immortal Goddess.
And his eyes say: ‘I am the lowest and most solitary of men, deprived of love and friendship, and, in this respect, greatly inferior to the most imperfect of animals. Yet I, even I, was made to understand and feel immortal Beauty! O Goddess, have pity on my sadness and on my frenzy!’
But the implacable Venus gazes far into the distance at some object or other with her marble eyes.
CROWDS
It is not given to everyone to take a bath in the multitude; to enjoy the crowd is an art; and only that man can gorge himself with vitality, at the expense of the human race, whom, in his cradle, a fairy has inspired with love of disguise and of the mask, with hatred of the home and a passion for voyaging.
Multitude, solitude: terms that, to the active and fruitful poet, are synonymous and interchangeable. A man who cannot people his solitude is no less incapable of being alone in a busy crowd.
The poet enjoys the incomparable privilege that he can, at will, be either himself or another. Like those wandering spirits that seek a body, he enters, when he likes, into the person of any man. For him alone all is vacant; and if certain places seem to be closed to him, it is that, to his eyes, they are not worth the trouble of being visited.
The solitary and pensive pedestrian derives a singular exhilaration from this universal communion.
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