But canst thou say
that death awaits thee and not shame too? Hast thou heard of the
daughter of Sejanus, a young maiden, who at command of Tiberius had
to pass through shame before her death, so as to respect a law
which prohibits the punishment of virgins with death? Lygia, Lygia,
do not irritate Cæsar. If the decisive moment comes when thou must
choose between disgrace and death, thou wilt act as thy faith
commands; but seek not destruction thyself, and do not irritate for
a trivial cause an earthly and at the same time a cruel
divinity."
Acte spoke with great compassion, and even with enthusiasm; and
being a little short-sighted, she pushed her sweet face up to
Lygia's as if wishing to see surely the effect of her words.
But Lygia threw her arms around Acte's neck with childish
trustfulness and said,—"Thou art kind, Acte."
Acte, pleased by the praise and confidence, pressed her to her
heart; and then disengaging herself from the arms of the maiden,
answered,—"My happiness has passed and my joy is gone, but I am not
wicked." Then she began to walk with quick steps through the room
and to speak to herself, as if in despair.
"No! And he was not wicked. He thought himself good at that
time, and he wished to be good. I know that best. All his change
came later, when he ceased to love. Others made him what he is—yes,
others—and Poppæa."
Here her eyelids filled with tears. Lygia followed her for some
time with her blue eyes, and asked at last,—"Art thou sorry for
him, Acte?"
"I am sorry for him!" answered the Grecian, with a low voice.
And again she began to walk, her hands clinched as if in pain, and
her face without hope.
"Dost thou love him yet, Acte?" asked Lygia, timidly.
"I love him."
And after a while she added,—"No one loves him but me."
Silence followed, during which Acte strove to recover her
calmness, disturbed by memories; and when at length her face
resumed its usual look of calm sorrow, she said,—
"Let us speak of thee, Lygia. Do not even think of opposing
Cæsar; that would be madness. And be calm. I know this house well,
and I judge that on Cæsar's part nothing threatens thee. If Nero
had given command to take thee away for himself, he would not have
brought thee to the Palatine. Here Poppæa rules; and Nero, since
she bore him a daughter, is more than ever under her influence. No,
Nero gave command, it is true, that thou shouldst be at the feast,
but he has not seen thee yet; he has not inquired about thee, hence
he does not care about thee. Maybe he took thee from Aulus and
Pomponia only through anger at them. Petronius wrote me to have
care of thee; and since Pomponia too wrote, as thou knowest, maybe
they had an understanding. Maybe he did that at her request. If
this be true, if he at the request of Pomponia will occupy himself
with thee, nothing threatens thee; and who knows if Nero may not
send thee back to Aulus at his persuasion? I know not whether Nero
loves him over much, but I know that rarely has he the courage to
be of an opinion opposite to his."
"Ah, Acte!" answered Lygia; "Petronius was with us before they
took me, and my mother was convinced that Nero demanded my
surrender at his instigation."
"That would be bad," said Acte. But she stopped for a while, and
then said,—"Perhaps Petronius only said, in Nero's presence at some
supper, that he saw a hostage of the Lygians at Aulus's, and Nero,
who is jealous of his own power, demanded thee only because
hostages belong to Cæsar. But he does not like Aulus and Pomponia.
No! it does not seem to me that if Petronius wished to take thee
from Aulus he would use such a method. I do not know whether
Petronius is better than others of Cæsar's court, but he is
different. Maybe too thou wilt find some one else who would be
willing to intercede for thee. Hast thou not seen at Aulus's some
one who is near Cæsar?"
"I have seen Vespasian and Titus."
"Cæsar does not like them."
"And Seneca."
"If Seneca advised something, that would be enough to make Nero
act otherwise."
The bright face of Lygia was covered with a blush. "And
Vinicius-"
"I do not know him."
"He is a relative of Petronius, and returned not long since from
Armenia."
"Dost thou think that Nero likes him?"
"All like Vinicius."
"And would he intercede for thee?"
"He would."
Acte smiled tenderly, and said, "Then thou wilt see him surely
at the feast. Thou must be there, first, because thou must,—only
such a child as thou could think otherwise. Second, if thou wish to
return to the house of Aulus, thou wilt find means of beseeching
Petronius and Vinicius to gain for thee by their influence the
right to return. If they were here, both would tell thee as I do,
that it would be madness and ruin to try resistance. Cæsar might
not notice thy absence, it is true; but if he noticed it and
thought that thou hadst the daring to oppose his will, here would
be no salvation for thee. Go, Lygia! Dost thou hear the noise in
the palace? The sun is near setting; guests will begin to arrive
soon."
"Thou art right," answered Lygia, "and I will follow thy
advice."
How much desire to see Vinicius and Petronius there was in this
resolve, how much of woman's curiosity there was to see such a
feast once in life, and to see at it Cæsar, the court, the renowned
Poppæa and other beauties, and all that unheard-of splendor, of
which wonders were narrated in Rome, Lygia could not give account
to herself of a certainty. But Acte was right, and Lygia felt this
distinctly. There was need to go; therefore, when necessity and
simple reason supported the hidden temptation, she ceased to
hesitate.
Acte conducted her to her own unctorium to anoint and dress her;
and though there was no lack of slave women in Cæsar's house, and
Acte had enough of them for her personal service, still, through
sympathy for the maiden whose beauty and innocence had caught her
heart, she resolved to dress her herself.
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