Chrysothemis seemed to him, with golden powder on her hair and
darkened brows, to be fabulously faded,—something in the nature of
a yellowed rose-tree shedding its leaves. But still Rome envied him
that Chrysothemis. Then he recalled Poppæa; and that most famous
Poppæa also seemed to him soulless, a waxen mask. In that maiden
with Tanagrian outlines there was not only spring, but a radiant
soul, which shone through her rosy body as a flame through a
lamp.
"Vinicius is right," thought he, "and my Chrysothemis is old,
old!—as Troy!"
Then he turned to Pomponia Græcina, and, pointing to the garden,
said,—"I understand now, domina, why thou and thy husband prefer
this house to the Circus and to feasts on the Palatine."
"Yes," answered she, turning her eyes in the direction of little
Aulus and Lygia.
But the old general began to relate the history of the maiden,
and what he had heard years before from Atelius Hister about the
Lygian people who lived in the gloom of the North.
The three outside had finished playing ball, and for some time
had been walking along the sand of the garden, appearing against
the dark background of myrtles and cypresses like three white
statues. Lygia held little Aulus by the hand. After they had walked
a while they sat on a bench near the fish-pond, which occupied the
middle of the garden. After a time Aulus sprang up to frighten the
fish in the transparent water, but Vinicius continued the
conversation begun during the walk.
"Yes," said he, in a low, quivering voice, scarcely audible;
"barely had I cast aside the pretexta, when I was sent to the
legions in Asia. I had not become acquainted with the city, nor
with life, nor with love. I know a small bit of Anacreon by heart,
and Horace; but I cannot like Petronius quote verses, when reason
is dumb from admiration and unable to find its own words. While a
youth I went to school to Musonius, who told me that happiness
consists in wishing what the gods wish, and therefore depends on
our will. I think, however, that it is something else,—something
greater and more precious, which depends not on the will, for love
only can give it. The gods themselves seek that happiness; hence I
too, O Lygia, who have not known love thus far, follow in their
footsteps. I also seek her who would give me happiness—"
He was silent—and for a time there was nothing to be heard save
the light plash of the water into which little Aulus was throwing
pebbles to frighten the fish; but after a while Vinicius began
again in a voice still softer and lower,—"But thou knowest of
Vespasian's son Titus? They say that he had scarcely ceased to be a
youth when he so loved Berenice that grief almost drew the life out
of him. So could I too love, O Lygia! Riches, glory, power are mere
smoke, vanity! The rich man will find a richer than himself; the
greater glory of another will eclipse a man who is famous; a strong
man will be conquered by a stronger. But can Cæsar himself, can any
god even, experience greater delight or be happier than a simple
mortal at the moment when at his breast there is breathing another
dear breast, or when he kisses beloved lips? Hence love makes us
equal to the gods, O Lygia."
And she listened with alarm, with astonishment, and at the same
time as if she were listening to the sound of a Grecian flute or a
cithara. It seemed to her at moments that Vinicius was singing a
kind of wonderful song, which was instilling itself into her ears,
moving the blood in her, and penetrating her heart with a
faintness, a fear, and a kind of uncomprehended delight. It seemed
to her also that he was telling something which was in her before,
but of which she could not give account to herself. She felt that
he was rousing in her something which had been sleeping hitherto,
and that in that moment a hazy dream was changing into a form more
and more definite, more pleasing, more beautiful.
Meanwhile the sun had passed the Tiber long since, and had sunk
low over the Janiculum. On the motionless cypresses ruddy light was
falling, and the whole atmosphere was filled with it. Lygia raised
on Vinicius her blue eyes as if roused from sleep; and he, bending
over her with a prayer quivering in his eyes, seemed on a sudden,
in the reflections of evening, more beautiful than all men, than
all Greek and Roman gods whose statues she had seen on the façades
of temples. And with his fingers he clasped her arm lightly just
above the wrist and asked,—"Dost thou not divine what I say to
thee, Lygia?"
"No," whispered she as answer, in a voice so low that Vinicius
barely heard it.
But he did not believe her, and, drawing her hand toward him
more vigorously, he would have drawn it to his heart, which, under
the influence of desire roused by the marvellous maiden, was
beating like a hammer, and would have addressed burning words to
her directly had not old Aulus appeared on a path set in a frame of
myrtles, who said, while approaching them,—"The sun is setting; so
beware of the evening coolness, and do not trifle with
Libitina."
"No," answered Vinicius; "I have not put on my toga yet, and I
do not feel the cold."
"But see, barely half the sun's shield is looking from behind
the hill. That is a sweet climate of Sicily, where people gather on
the square before sunset and take farewell of disappearing Phoebus
with a choral song."
And, forgetting that a moment earlier he had warned them against
Libitina, he began to tell about Sicily, where he had estates and
large cultivated fields which he loved. He stated also that it had
come to his mind more than once to remove to Sicily, and live out
his life there in quietness. "He whose head winters have whitened
has bad enough of hoar frost. Leaves are not falling from the trees
yet, and the sky smiles on the city lovingly; but when the
grapevines grow yellow-leaved, when snow falls on the Alban hills,
and the gods visit the Campania with piercing wind, who knows but I
may remove with my entire household to my quiet country-seat?"
"Wouldst thou leave Rome?" inquired Vinicius, with sudden
alarm.
"I have wished to do so this long time, for it is quieter in
Sicily and safer."
And again he fell to praising his gardens, his herds, his house
hidden in green, and the hills grown over with thyme and savory,
among which were swarms of buzzing bees. But Vinicius paid no heed
to that bucolic note; and from thinking only of this, that he might
lose Lygia, he looked toward Petronius as if expecting salvation
from him alone.
Meanwhile Petronius, sitting near Pomponia, was admiring the
view of the setting sun, the garden, and the people standing near
the fish-pond. Their white garments on the dark background of the
myrtles gleamed like gold from the evening rays. On the sky the
evening light had begun to assume purple and violet hues, and to
change like an opal. A strip of the sky became lily-colored. The
dark silhouettes of the cypresses grew still more pronounced than
during bright daylight.
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