"In
fact, it would be almost a pity——"
She thought she detected a slight condescension in his tone, and
asked sharply: "Why?"
"Because it's so much pleasanter, in a small library like this,
to poke about by one's self—with the help of the librarian."
He added the last phrase so respectfully that she was mollified,
and rejoined with a sigh: "I'm afraid I can't help you much."
"Why?" he questioned in his turn; and she replied that there
weren't many books anyhow, and that she'd hardly read any of them.
"The worms are getting at them," she added gloomily.
"Are they? That's a pity, for I see there are some good ones."
He seemed to have lost interest in their conversation, and strolled
away again, apparently forgetting her. His indifference nettled
her, and she picked up her work, resolved not to offer him the
least assistance. Apparently he did not need it, for he spent a
long time with his back to her, lifting down, one after another,
the tall cob-webby volumes from a distant shelf.
"Oh, I say!" he exclaimed; and looking up she saw that he had
drawn out his handkerchief and was carefully wiping the edges of
the book in his hand. The action struck her as an unwarranted
criticism on her care of the books, and she said irritably: "It's
not my fault if they're dirty."
He turned around and looked at her with reviving interest.
"Ah—then you're not the librarian?"
"Of course I am; but I can't dust all these books. Besides,
nobody ever looks at them, now Miss Hatchard's too lame to come
round."
"No, I suppose not." He laid down the book he had been wiping,
and stood considering her in silence. She wondered if Miss Hatchard
had sent him round to pry into the way the library was looked
after, and the suspicion increased her resentment. "I saw you going
into her house just now, didn't I?" she asked, with the New England
avoidance of the proper name. She was determined to find out why he
was poking about among her books.
"Miss Hatchard's house? Yes—she's my cousin and I'm staying
there," the young man answered; adding, as if to disarm a visible
distrust: "My name is Harney—Lucius Harney. She may have spoken of
me."
"No, she hasn't," said Charity, wishing she could have said:
"Yes, she has."
"Oh, well——" said Miss Hatchard's cousin with a laugh; and after
another pause, during which it occurred to Charity that her answer
had not been encouraging, he remarked: "You don't seem strong on
architecture."
Her bewilderment was complete: the more she wished to appear to
understand him the more unintelligible his remarks became. He
reminded her of the gentleman who had "explained" the pictures at
Nettleton, and the weight of her ignorance settled down on her
again like a pall.
"I mean, I can't see that you have any books on the old houses
about here. I suppose, for that matter, this part of the country
hasn't been much explored. They all go on doing Plymouth and Salem.
So stupid. My cousin's house, now, is remarkable. This place must
have had a past—it must have been more of a place once." He stopped
short, with the blush of a shy man who overhears himself, and fears
he has been voluble. "I'm an architect, you see, and I'm hunting up
old houses in these parts."
She stared. "Old houses? Everything's old in North Dormer, isn't
it? The folks are, anyhow."
He laughed, and wandered away again.
"Haven't you any kind of a history of the place? I think there
was one written about 1840: a book or pamphlet about its first
settlement," he presently said from the farther end of the
room.
She pressed her crochet hook against her lip and pondered. There
was such a work, she knew: "North Dormer and the Early Townships of
Eagle County." She had a special grudge against it because it was a
limp weakly book that was always either falling off the shelf or
slipping back and disappearing if one squeezed it in between
sustaining volumes. She remembered, the last time she had picked it
up, wondering how anyone could have taken the trouble to write a
book about North Dormer and its neighbours: Dormer, Hamblin,
Creston and Creston River. She knew them all, mere lost clusters of
houses in the folds of the desolate ridges: Dormer, where North
Dormer went for its apples; Creston River, where there used to be a
paper-mill, and its grey walls stood decaying by the stream; and
Hamblin, where the first snow always fell. Such were their titles
to fame.
She got up and began to move about vaguely before the shelves.
But she had no idea where she had last put the book, and something
told her that it was going to play her its usual trick and remain
invisible. It was not one of her lucky days.
"I guess it's somewhere," she said, to prove her zeal; but she
spoke without conviction, and felt that her words conveyed
none.
"Oh, well——" he said again. She knew he was going, and wished
more than ever to find the book.
"It will be for next time," he added; and picking up the volume
he had laid on the desk he handed it to her. "By the way, a little
air and sun would do this good; it's rather valuable."
He gave her a nod and smile, and passed out.
II
The hours of the Hatchard Memorial librarian were from three to
five; and Charity Royall's sense of duty usually kept her at her
desk until nearly half-past four.
But she had never perceived that any practical advantage thereby
accrued either to North Dormer or to herself; and she had no
scruple in decreeing, when it suited her, that the library should
close an hour earlier. A few minutes after Mr. Harney's departure
she formed this decision, put away her lace, fastened the shutters,
and turned the key in the door of the temple of knowledge.
The street upon which she emerged was still empty: and after
glancing up and down it she began to walk toward her house. But
instead of entering she passed on, turned into a field-path and
mounted to a pasture on the hillside. She let down the bars of the
gate, followed a trail along the crumbling wall of the pasture, and
walked on till she reached a knoll where a clump of larches shook
out their fresh tassels to the wind. There she lay down on the
slope, tossed off her hat and hid her face in the grass.
She was blind and insensible to many things, and dimly knew it;
but to all that was light and air, perfume and colour, every drop
of blood in her responded. She loved the roughness of the dry
mountain grass under her palms, the smell of the thyme into which
she crushed her face, the fingering of the wind in her hair and
through her cotton blouse, and the creak of the larches as they
swayed to it.
She often climbed up the hill and lay there alone for the mere
pleasure of feeling the wind and of rubbing her cheeks in the
grass. Generally at such times she did not think of anything, but
lay immersed in an inarticulate well-being.
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