Royall ever since, he despised himself still more
profoundly. If she had asked for a woman in the house it was far
less for her own defense than for his humiliation. She needed no
one to defend her: his humbled pride was her surest protection. He
had never spoken a word of excuse or extenuation; the incident was
as if it had never been. Yet its consequences were latent in every
word that he and she exchanged, in every glance they instinctively
turned from each other. Nothing now would ever shake her rule in
the red house.
On the night of her meeting with Miss Hatchard's cousin Charity
lay in bed, her bare arms clasped under her rough head, and
continued to think of him. She supposed that he meant to spend some
time in North Dormer. He had said he was looking up the old houses
in the neighbourhood; and though she was not very clear as to his
purpose, or as to why anyone should look for old houses, when they
lay in wait for one on every roadside, she understood that he
needed the help of books, and resolved to hunt up the next day the
volume she had failed to find, and any others that seemed related
to the subject.
Never had her ignorance of life and literature so weighed on her
as in reliving the short scene of her discomfiture. "It's no use
trying to be anything in this place," she muttered to her pillow;
and she shrivelled at the vision of vague metropolises, shining
super-Nettletons, where girls in better clothes than Belle Balch's
talked fluently of architecture to young men with hands like Lucius
Harney's. Then she remembered his sudden pause when he had come
close to the desk and had his first look at her. The sight had made
him forget what he was going to say; she recalled the change in his
face, and jumping up she ran over the bare boards to her washstand,
found the matches, lit a candle, and lifted it to the square of
looking-glass on the white-washed wall. Her small face, usually so
darkly pale, glowed like a rose in the faint orb of light, and
under her rumpled hair her eyes seemed deeper and larger than by
day. Perhaps after all it was a mistake to wish they were blue. A
clumsy band and button fastened her unbleached night-gown about the
throat. She undid it, freed her thin shoulders, and saw herself a
bride in low-necked satin, walking down an aisle with Lucius
Harney. He would kiss her as they left the church.... She put down
the candle and covered her face with her hands as if to imprison
the kiss. At that moment she heard Mr. Royall's step as he came up
the stairs to bed, and a fierce revulsion of feeling swept over
her. Until then she had merely despised him; now deep hatred of him
filled her heart. He became to her a horrible old man....
The next day, when Mr. Royall came back to dinner, they faced
each other in silence as usual. Verena's presence at the table was
an excuse for their not talking, though her deafness would have
permitted the freest interchange of confidences. But when the meal
was over, and Mr. Royall rose from the table, he looked back at
Charity, who had stayed to help the old woman clear away the
dishes.
"I want to speak to you a minute," he said; and she followed him
across the passage, wondering.
He seated himself in his black horse-hair armchair, and she
leaned against the window, indifferently. She was impatient to be
gone to the library, to hunt for the book on North Dormer.
"See here," he said, "why ain't you at the library the days
you're supposed to be there?"
The question, breaking in on her mood of blissful abstraction,
deprived her of speech, and she stared at him for a moment without
answering.
"Who says I ain't?"
"There's been some complaints made, it appears. Miss Hatchard
sent for me this morning——"
Charity's smouldering resentment broke into a blaze. "I know!
Orma Fry, and that toad of a Targatt girl and Ben Fry, like as not.
He's going round with her. The low-down sneaks—I always knew they'd
try to have me out! As if anybody ever came to the library,
anyhow!"
"Somebody did yesterday, and you weren't there."
"Yesterday?" she laughed at her happy recollection. "At what
time wasn't I there yesterday, I'd like to know?"
"Round about four o'clock."
Charity was silent.
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