She had been so steeped in the dreamy
remembrance of young Harney's visit that she had forgotten having
deserted her post as soon as he had left the library.
"Who came at four o'clock?"
"Miss Hatchard did."
"Miss Hatchard? Why, she ain't ever been near the place since
she's been lame. She couldn't get up the steps if she tried."
"She can be helped up, I guess. She was yesterday, anyhow, by
the young fellow that's staying with her. He found you there, I
understand, earlier in the afternoon; and he went back and told
Miss Hatchard the books were in bad shape and needed attending to.
She got excited, and had herself wheeled straight round; and when
she got there the place was locked. So she sent for me, and told me
about that, and about the other complaints. She claims you've
neglected things, and that she's going to get a trained
librarian."
Charity had not moved while he spoke. She stood with her head
thrown back against the window-frame, her arms hanging against her
sides, and her hands so tightly clenched that she felt, without
knowing what hurt her, the sharp edge of her nails against her
palms.
Of all Mr. Royall had said she had retained only the phrase: "He
told Miss Hatchard the books were in bad shape." What did she care
for the other charges against her? Malice or truth, she despised
them as she despised her detractors. But that the stranger to whom
she had felt herself so mysteriously drawn should have betrayed
her! That at the very moment when she had fled up the hillside to
think of him more deliciously he should have been hastening home to
denounce her short-comings! She remembered how, in the darkness of
her room, she had covered her face to press his imagined kiss
closer; and her heart raged against him for the liberty he had not
taken.
"Well, I'll go," she said suddenly. "I'll go right off."
"Go where?" She heard the startled note in Mr. Royall's
voice.
"Why, out of their old library: straight out, and never set foot
in it again. They needn't think I'm going to wait round and let
them say they've discharged me!"
"Charity—Charity Royall, you listen——" he began, getting heavily
out of his chair; but she waved him aside, and walked out of the
room.
Upstairs she took the library key from the place where she
always hid it under her pincushion—who said she wasn't careful?—put
on her hat, and swept down again and out into the street. If Mr.
Royall heard her go he made no motion to detain her: his sudden
rages probably made him understand the uselessness of reasoning
with hers.
She reached the brick temple, unlocked the door and entered into
the glacial twilight. "I'm glad I'll never have to sit in this old
vault again when other folks are out in the sun!" she said aloud as
the familiar chill took her. She looked with abhorrence at the long
dingy rows of books, the sheep-nosed Minerva on her black pedestal,
and the mild-faced young man in a high stock whose effigy pined
above her desk. She meant to take out of the drawer her roll of
lace and the library register, and go straight to Miss Hatchard to
announce her resignation. But suddenly a great desolation overcame
her, and she sat down and laid her face against the desk. Her heart
was ravaged by life's cruelest discovery: the first creature who
had come toward her out of the wilderness had brought her anguish
instead of joy. She did not cry; tears came hard to her, and the
storms of her heart spent themselves inwardly. But as she sat there
in her dumb woe she felt her life to be too desolate, too ugly and
intolerable.
"What have I ever done to it, that it should hurt me so?" she
groaned, and pressed her fists against her lids, which were
beginning to swell with weeping.
"I won't—I won't go there looking like a horror!" she muttered,
springing up and pushing back her hair as if it stifled her. She
opened the drawer, dragged out the register, and turned toward the
door. As she did so it opened, and the young man from Miss
Hatchard's came in whistling.
IV
He stopped and lifted his hat with a shy smile. "I beg your
pardon," he said. "I thought there was no one here."
Charity stood before him, barring his way. "You can't come in.
The library ain't open to the public Wednesdays."
"I know it's not; but my cousin gave me her key."
"Miss Hatchard's got no right to give her key to other folks,
any more'n I have. I'm the librarian and I know the by-laws. This
is my library."
The young man looked profoundly surprised.
"Why, I know it is; I'm so sorry if you mind my coming."
"I suppose you came to see what more you could say to set her
against me? But you needn't trouble: it's my library today, but it
won't be this time tomorrow. I'm on the way now to take her back
the key and the register."
Young Harney's face grew grave, but without betraying the
consciousness of guilt she had looked for.
"I don't understand," he said. "There must be some mistake. Why
should I say things against you to Miss Hatchard—or to anyone?"
The apparent evasiveness of the reply caused Charity's
indignation to overflow.
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