They have no heart, no sympathy, no reason, no conscience.
They will keep no friend, unless he make himself the mirror of
their purpose; they will smite and slay you, and trample your dead
corpse under foot, all the more readily, if you take the first step
with them, and cannot take the second, and the third, and every
other step of their terribly strait path. They have an idol to
which they consecrate themselves high-priest, and deem it holy work
to offer sacrifices of whatever is most precious; and never once
seem to suspect—so cunning has the Devil been with them—that this
false deity, in whose iron features, immitigable to all the rest of
mankind, they see only benignity and love, is but a spectrum of the
very priest himself, projected upon the surrounding darkness. And
the higher and purer the original object, and the more unselfishly
it may have been taken up, the slighter is the probability that
they can be led to recognize the process by which godlike
benevolence has been debased into all-devouring egotism.
Of course I am perfectly aware that the above statement is
exaggerated, in the attempt to make it adequate. Professed
philanthropists have gone far; but no originally good man, I
presume, ever went quite so far as this. Let the reader abate
whatever he deems fit. The paragraph may remain, however, both for
its truth and its exaggeration, as strongly expressive of the
tendencies which were really operative in Hollingsworth, and as
exemplifying the kind of error into which my mode of observation
was calculated to lead me. The issue was, that in solitude I often
shuddered at my friend. In my recollection of his dark and
impressive countenance, the features grew more sternly prominent
than the reality, duskier in their depth and shadow, and more lurid
in their light; the frown, that had merely flitted across his brow,
seemed to have contorted it with an adamantine wrinkle. On meeting
him again, I was often filled with remorse, when his deep eyes
beamed kindly upon me, as with the glow of a household fire that
was burning in a cave. "He is a man after all," thought I; "his
Maker's own truest image, a philanthropic man!—not that steel
engine of the Devil's contrivance, a philanthropist!" But in my
wood-walks, and in my silent chamber, the dark face frowned at me
again.
When a young girl comes within the sphere of such a man, she is
as perilously situated as the maiden whom, in the old classical
myths, the people used to expose to a dragon. If I had any duty
whatever, in reference to Hollingsworth, it was to endeavor to save
Priscilla from that kind of personal worship which her sex is
generally prone to lavish upon saints and heroes. It often requires
but one smile out of the hero's eyes into the girl's or woman's
heart, to transform this devotion, from a sentiment of the highest
approval and confidence, into passionate love. Now, Hollingsworth
smiled much upon Priscilla,—more than upon any other person. If she
thought him beautiful, it was no wonder. I often thought him so,
with the expression of tender human care and gentlest sympathy
which she alone seemed to have power to call out upon his features.
Zenobia, I suspect, would have given her eyes, bright as they were,
for such a look; it was the least that our poor Priscilla could do,
to give her heart for a great many of them. There was the more
danger of this, inasmuch as the footing on which we all associated
at Blithedale was widely different from that of conventional
society. While inclining us to the soft affections of the golden
age, it seemed to authorize any individual, of either sex, to fall
in love with any other, regardless of what would elsewhere be
judged suitable and prudent. Accordingly the tender passion was
very rife among us, in various degrees of mildness or virulence,
but mostly passing away with the state of things that had given it
origin. This was all well enough; but, for a girl like Priscilla
and a woman like Zenobia to jostle one another in their love of a
man like Hollingsworth, was likely to be no child's play.
Had I been as cold-hearted as I sometimes thought myself,
nothing would have interested me more than to witness the play of
passions that must thus have been evolved. But, in honest truth, I
would really have gone far to save Priscilla, at least, from the
catastrophe in which such a drama would be apt to terminate.
Priscilla had now grown to be a very pretty girl, and still kept
budding and blossoming, and daily putting on some new charm, which
you no sooner became sensible of than you thought it worth all that
she had previously possessed. So unformed, vague, and without
substance, as she had come to us, it seemed as if we could see
Nature shaping out a woman before our very eyes, and yet had only a
more reverential sense of the mystery of a woman's soul and frame.
Yesterday, her cheek was pale, to-day, it had a bloom. Priscilla's
smile, like a baby's first one, was a wondrous novelty. Her
imperfections and shortcomings affected me with a kind of playful
pathos, which was as absolutely bewitching a sensation as ever I
experienced. After she had been a month or two at Blithedale, her
animal spirits waxed high, and kept her pretty constantly in a
state of bubble and ferment, impelling her to far more bodily
activity than she had yet strength to endure. She was very fond of
playing with the other girls out of doors. There is hardly another
sight in the world so pretty as that of a company of young girls,
almost women grown, at play, and so giving themselves up to their
airy impulse that their tiptoes barely touch the ground.
Girls are incomparably wilder and more effervescent than boys,
more untamable and regardless of rule and limit, with an
ever-shifting variety, breaking continually into new modes of fun,
yet with a harmonious propriety through all. Their steps, their
voices, appear free as the wind, but keep consonance with a strain
of music inaudible to us. Young men and boys, on the other hand,
play, according to recognized law, old, traditionary games,
permitting no caprioles of fancy, but with scope enough for the
outbreak of savage instincts. For, young or old, in play or in
earnest, man is prone to be a brute.
Especially is it delightful to see a vigorous young girl run a
race, with her head thrown back, her limbs moving more friskily
than they need, and an air between that of a bird and a young colt.
But Priscilla's peculiar charm, in a foot-race, was the weakness
and irregularity with which she ran. Growing up without exercise,
except to her poor little fingers, she had never yet acquired the
perfect use of her legs.
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