He was accepted without more ado. A deep natural sympathy
existed between them, recognized intuitively from that moment of first
mutual inspection at Marseilles. It was instinctive, almost as with
animals. The action of the boy in coming round to his side,
unhindered by the father, was the symbol of utter confidence and
welcome.
There came, then, one of those splendid and significant moments
that occasionally, for some, burst into life, flooding all barriers,
breaking down as with a flaming light the thousand erections of shadow
that close one in. Something imprisoned in himself swept outwards,
rising like a wave, bringing an expansion of life that “explained.” It
vanished, of course, instantly again, but not before he had caught a
flying remnant that lit the broken puzzles of his heart and left
things clearer. Before thought, and therefore words, could overtake,
it was gone; but there remained at least this glimpse. The fire had
flashed a light down subterranean passages of his being and made
visible for a passing second some clue to his buried primitive
yearnings. He partly understood.
Standing there between these two this thing came over him with a
degree of intelligibility scarcely captured by his words. The man’s
qualities—his quietness, peace, slowness, silence— betrayed somehow
that his inner life dwelt in a region vast and simple, shaping even
his exterior presentment with its own huge characteristics, a region
wherein the distress of the modern world’s vulgar, futile strife could
not exist—more, could never have existed. The Irishman, who had never
realized exactly why the life of To-day to him was dreadful, now
understood it in the presence of this simple being with his
atmosphere of stately power. He was like a child, but a child of some
pre-existence utterly primitive and utterly forgotten; of no
particular age, but of some state that ante-dates all ages; simple in
some noble, concentrated sense that was prodigious, almost terrific.
To stand thus beside him was to stand beside a mighty silent fire,
steadily glowing, a fire that fed all lesser flames, because itself
close to the central source of fire. He felt warmed, lighted,
vivified—made whole. The presence of this stranger took him at a
single gulp, as it were, straight into Nature—a Nature that was
alive. The man was part of her. Never before had he stood so close and
intimate. Cities and civilization fled away like transient dreams,
ashamed. The sun and moon and stars moved up and touched him.
This word of lightning explanation, at least, came to him as he
breathed the other’s atmosphere and presence. The region where this
man’s spirit fed was at the centre, whereas to-day men were active
with a scattered, superficial cleverness, at the periphery. He even
understood that his giant gait and movements were small outer
evidences of this inner fact, wholly in keeping. That blundering
stupidity, half glorious, half pathetic, with which he moved among his
fellows was a physical expression of this psychic fact that his spirit
had never learned the skilful tricks taught by civilization to lesser
men. It was, in a way, awe-inspiring, for he was now at last driving
back full speed for his own region and—escape.
O’Malley knew himself caught, swept off his feet, momentarily
driving with him… .
The singular deep satisfaction of it, standing there with these
two in the first moment, he describes as an entirely new sensation in
his life—an awareness that he was “complete.” The boy touched his
side and he let an arm steal round to shelter him. The huge, bearded
parent rose in his massiveness against his other shoulder, hemming him
in. For a second he knew a swift and curious alarm, passing however
almost at once into the thrill of a rare happiness. In that moment, it
was not the passengers or the temper of To-day who rejected them; it
was they who rejected the world: because they knew another and
superior one—more, they were in it.
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