In the beginning was
the tree, you said. I heard you,’ the child shouted.
‘The elder is as good as another,’ said the gardener, lowering
his voice to humour the child.
‘The first tree of all,’ said the child in a whisper.
Reassured again by the gardener’s voice, he smiled through the
window at the tree, and again the wire crept over the broken rake.
‘God grows in strange trees,’ said the old man. ‘His
trees come to rest in strange places.’
As he unfolded the story of the twelve stages of the cross, the tree waved
its boughs to the child. An apostle’s voice rose out of the tarred lungs.
So they hoisted him up on a tree, and drove nails through his belly and
his feet.
There was the blood of the noon sun on the trunk of the
elder, staining the bark.
• • • •
The idiot stood on the Jarvis hills, looking down into the immaculate
valley from whose waters and grasses the mists of morning rose and were lost. He saw the
dew dissolving, the cattle staring into the stream, and the dark clouds flying away at
the rumour of the sun. The sun turned at the edges of the thin and watery sky like a
sweet in a glass of water. He was hungry for light as the first and almost invisible
rain fell on his lips; he plucked at the grass, and, tasting it, felt it lie green on
his tongue. So there was light in his mouth, and light was a sound at his ears, and the
whole dominion of light in the valley that had such a curious name. He had known of the
Jarvis Hills; their shapes rose over the slopes of the county to be seen for miles
around, but no one had told him of the valley lying under the hills. Bethlehem, said the
idiot to the valley, turning over the sounds of the word and giving it all the glory of
the Welsh morning. He brothered the world around him, sipped at the air, as a child
newly born sips and brothers the light. The life of the Jarvis valley, steaming up from
the body of the grass and the trees and the long hand of the stream, lent him a new
blood. Night had emptied the idiot’s veins, and dawn in the valley filled them
again.
‘Bethlehem,’ said the idiot to the valley.
The gardener had no present to give the child, so he took out a key from
his pocket and said: ‘This is the key to the tower. On Christmas Eve I will unlock
the door for you.’
Before it was dark, he and the child climbed the stairs to the tower, the
key turned in the lock, and the door, like the lid of a secret box, opened and let them
in. The room was empty. ‘Where are the secrets?’ asked the child, staring up
at the matted rafters and into the spider’s corners and along the leaden panes of
the window.
‘It is enough that I have given you the key,’ said the
gardener, who believed the key of the universe to be hidden in his pocket along with the
feathers of birds and the seeds of flowers.
The child began to cry because there were no secrets. Over and over again
he explored the empty room, kicking up the dust to look for a
colourless trap-door, tapping the unpanelled walls for the hollow voice of a room beyond
the tower. He brushed the webs from the window, and looked out through the dust into the
snowing Christmas Eve. A world of hills stretched far away into the measured sky, and
the tops of hills he had never seen climbed up to meet the falling flakes. Woods and
rocks, wide seas of barren land, and a new tide of mountain sky sweeping through the
black beeches, lay before him. To the east were the outlines of nameless hill creatures
and a den of trees.
‘Who are they? Who are they?’
‘They are the Jarvis hills,’ said the gardener, ‘which
have been from the beginning.’
He took the child by the hand and led him away from the window. The key
turned in the lock.
That night the child slept well; there was power in snow and darkness;
there was unalterable music in the silence of the stars; there was a silence in the
hurrying wind. And Bethlehem had been nearer than he expected.
• • • •
On Christmas morning the idiot walked into the garden. His hair was wet
and his flaked and ragged shoes were thick with the dirt of the fields. Tired with the
long journey from the Jarvis hills, and weak for the want of food, he sat down under the
elder-tree where the gardener had rolled a log. Clasping his hands in front of him, he
saw the desolation of the flower-beds and the weeds that grew in profusion on the edges
of the paths. The tower stood up like a tree of stone and glass over the red eaves. He
pulled his coat-collar round his neck as a fresh wind sprang up and struck the tree; he
looked down at his hands and saw that they were praying. Then a fear of the garden came
over him, the shrubs were his enemies, and the trees that made an avenue down to the
gate lifted their arms in horror. The place was too high, peering down on to the tall
hills; the place was too low, shivering up at the plumed shoulders of a new mountain.
Here the wind was too wild, fuming about the silence, raising a Jewish voice out of the
elder boughs; here the silence beat like a human heart.
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