What could become of such a child of
the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries, when he should wake up to
find himself required to play the game of the twentieth? Had he
been consulted, would he have cared to play the game at all,
holding such cards as he held, and suspecting that the game was to
be one of which neither he nor any one else back to the beginning
of time knew the rules or the risks or the stakes? He was not
consulted and was not responsible, but had he been taken into the
confidence of his parents, he would certainly have told them to
change nothing as far as concerned him. He would have been
astounded by his own luck. Probably no child, born in the year,
held better cards than he. Whether life was an honest game of
chance, or whether the cards were marked and forced, he could not
refuse to play his excellent hand. He could never make the usual
plea of irresponsibility. He accepted the situation as though he
had been a party to it, and under the same circumstances would do
it again, the more readily for knowing the exact values. To his
life as a whole he was a consenting, contracting party and partner
from the moment he was born to the moment he died. Only with that
understanding - as a consciously assenting member in full
partnership with the society of his age - had his education an
interest to himself or to others.
As it happened, he never got to the point of playing
the game at all; he lost himself in the study of it, watching the
errors of the players; but this is the only interest in the story,
which otherwise has no moral and little incident. A story of
education - seventy years of it - the practical value remains to
the end in doubt, like other values about which men have disputed
since the birth of Cain and Abel; but the practical value of the
universe has never been stated in dollars. Although every one
cannot be a Gargantua-Napoleon-Bismarck and walk off with the great
bells of Notre Dame, every one must bear his own universe, and most
persons are moderately interested in learning how their neighbors
have managed to carry theirs.
This problem of education, started in 1838, went on
for three years, while the baby grew, like other babies,
unconsciously, as a vegetable, the outside world working as it
never had worked before, to get his new universe ready for him.
Often in old age he puzzled over the question whether, on the
doctrine of chances, he was at liberty to accept himself or his
world as an accident. No such accident had ever happened before in
human experience. For him, alone, the old universe was thrown into
the ash-heap and a new one created. He and his eighteenth-century,
troglodytic Boston were suddenly cut apart - separated forever - in
act if not in sentiment, by the opening of the Boston and Albany
Railroad; the appearance of the first Cunard steamers in the bay;
and the telegraphic messages which carried from Baltimore to
Washington the news that Henry Clay and James K. Polk were
nominated for the Presidency. This was in May, 1844; he was six
years old ; his new world was ready for use, and only fragments of
the old met his eyes.
Of all this that was being done to complicate his
education, he knew only the color of yellow. He first found himself
sitting on a yellow kitchen floor in strong sunlight. He was three
years old when he took this earliest step in education; a lesson of
color. The second followed soon; a lesson of taste. On December 3,
1841, he developed scarlet fever. For several days he was as good
as dead, reviving only under the careful nursing of his family.
When he began to recover strength, about January 1, 1842, his
hunger must have been stronger than any other pleasure or pain, for
while in after life he retained not the faintest recollection of
his illness, he remembered quite clearly his aunt entering the
sickroom bearing in her hand a saucer with a baked apple.
The order of impressions retained by memory might
naturally be that of color and taste, although one would rather
suppose that the sense of pain would be first to educate. In fact,
the third recollection of the child was that of discomfort. The
moment he could be removed, he was bundled up in blankets and
carried from the little house in Hancock Avenue to a larger one
which his parents were to occupy for the rest of their lives in the
neighboring Mount Vernon Street. The season was midwinter, January
10, 1842, and he never forgot his acute distress for want of air
under his blankets, or the noises of moving furniture.
As a means of variation from a normal type, sickness
in childhood ought to have a certain value not to be classed under
any fitness or unfitness of natural selection; and especially
scarlet fever affected boys seriously, both physically and in
character, though they might through life puzzle themselves to
decide whether it had fitted or unfitted them for success; but this
fever of Henry Adams took greater and greater importance in his
eyes, from the point of view of education, the longer he lived. At
first, the effect was physical. He fell behind his brothers two or
three inches in height, and proportionally in bone and weight. His
character and processes of mind seemed to share in this fining-down
process of scale. He was not good in a fight, and his nerves were
more delicate than boys' nerves ought to be. He exaggerated these
weaknesses as he grew older. The habit of doubt; of distrusting his
own judgment and of totally rejecting the judgment of the world;
the tendency to regard every question as open; the hesitation to
act except as a choice of evils; the shirking of responsibility;
the love of line, form, quality; the horror of ennui; the passion
for companionship and the antipathy to society - all these are
well-known qualities of New England character in no way peculiar to
individuals but in this instance they seemed to be stimulated by
the fever, and Henry Adams could never make up his mind whether, on
the whole, the change of character was morbid or healthy, good or
bad for his purpose. His brothers were the type; he was the
variation.
As far as the boy knew, the sickness did not affect
him at all, and he grew up in excellent health, bodily and mental,
taking life as it was given; accepting its local standards without
a dificulty, and enjoying much of it as keenly as any other boy of
his age.
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