But Susy's arguments
were irrefutable, her ingenuities inexhaustible. Had he ever
thought it all out? She asked. No. Well, she had; and would he
kindly not interrupt? In the first place, there would be all the
wedding-presents. Jewels, and a motor, and a silver dinner service,
did she mean? Not a bit of it! She could see he'd never given the
question proper thought. Cheques, my dear, nothing but cheques—she
undertook to manage that on her side: she really thought she could
count on about fifty, and she supposed he could rake up a few more?
Well, all that would simply represent pocket-money! For they would
have plenty of houses to live in: he'd see. People were always glad
to lend their house to a newly-married couple. It was such fun to
pop down and see them: it made one feel romantic and jolly. All
they need do was to accept the houses in turn: go on honey-mooning
for a year! What was he afraid of? Didn't he think they'd be happy
enough to want to keep it up? And why not at least try—get engaged,
and then see what would happen? Even if she was all wrong, and her
plan failed, wouldn't it have been rather nice, just for a month or
two, to fancy they were going to be happy? "I've often fancied it
all by myself," she concluded; "but fancying it with you would
somehow be so awfully different...."
That was how it began: and this lakeside dream was what it had
led up to. Fantastically improbable as they had seemed, all her
previsions had come true. If there were certain links in the chain
that Lansing had never been able to put his hand on, certain
arrangements and contrivances that still needed further
elucidation, why, he was lazily resolved to clear them up with her
some day; and meanwhile it was worth all the past might have cost,
and every penalty the future might exact of him, just to be sitting
here in the silence and sweetness, her sleeping head on his knee,
clasped in his joy as the hushed world was clasped in
moonlight.
He stooped down and kissed her. "Wake up," he whispered, "it's
bed-time."
III.
THEIR month of Como was within a few hours of ending. Till the
last moment they had hoped for a reprieve; but the accommodating
Streffy had been unable to put the villa at their disposal for a
longer time, since he had had the luck to let it for a thumping
price to some beastly bouncers who insisted on taking possession at
the date agreed on.
Lansing, leaving Susy's side at dawn, had gone down to the lake
for a last plunge; and swimming homeward through the crystal light
he looked up at the garden brimming with flowers, the long low
house with the cypress wood above it, and the window behind which
his wife still slept. The month had been exquisite, and their
happiness as rare, as fantastically complete, as the scene before
him. He sank his chin into the sunlit ripples and sighed for sheer
content....
It was a bore to be leaving the scene of such complete
well-being, but the next stage in their progress promised to be
hardly less delightful. Susy was a magician: everything she
predicted came true. Houses were being showered on them; on all
sides he seemed to see beneficent spirits winging toward them,
laden with everything from a piano nobile in Venice to a camp in
the Adirondacks. For the present, they had decided on the former.
Other considerations apart, they dared not risk the expense of a
journey across the Atlantic; so they were heading instead for the
Nelson Vanderlyns' palace on the Giudecca. They were agreed that,
for reasons of expediency, it might be wise to return to New York
for the coming winter. It would keep them in view, and probably
lead to fresh opportunities; indeed, Susy already had in mind the
convenient flat that she was sure a migratory cousin (if tactfully
handled, and assured that they would not overwork her cook) could
certainly be induced to lend them. Meanwhile the need of making
plans was still remote; and if there was one art in which young
Lansing's twenty-eight years of existence had perfected him it was
that of living completely and unconcernedly in the present....
If of late he had tried to look into the future more insistently
than was his habit, it was only because of Susy. He had meant, when
they married, to be as philosophic for her as for himself; and he
knew she would have resented above everything his regarding their
partnership as a reason for anxious thought. But since they had
been together she had given him glimpses of her past that made him
angrily long to shelter and defend her future. It was intolerable
that a spirit as fine as hers should be ever so little dulled or
diminished by the kind of compromises out of which their wretched
lives were made. For himself, he didn't care a hang: he had
composed for his own guidance a rough-and-ready code, a short set
of "mays" and "mustn'ts" which immensely simplified his course.
There were things a fellow put up with for the sake of certain
definite and otherwise unattainable advantages; there were other
things he wouldn't traffic with at any price. But for a woman, he
began to see, it might be different. The temptations might be
greater, the cost considerably higher, the dividing line between
the "mays" and "mustn'ts" more fluctuating and less sharply drawn.
Susy, thrown on the world at seventeen, with only a weak wastrel of
a father to define that treacherous line for her, and with every
circumstance soliciting her to overstep it, seemed to have been
preserved chiefly by an innate scorn of most of the objects of
human folly. "Such trash as he went to pieces for," was her curt
comment on her parent's premature demise: as though she accepted in
advance the necessity of ruining one's self for something, but was
resolved to discriminate firmly between what was worth it and what
wasn't.
This philosophy had at first enchanted Lansing; but now it began
to rouse vague fears. The fine armour of her fastidiousness had
preserved her from the kind of risks she had hitherto been exposed
to; but what if others, more subtle, found a joint in it? Was
there, among her delicate discriminations, any equivalent to his
own rules? Might not her taste for the best and rarest be the very
instrument of her undoing; and if something that wasn't "trash"
came her way, would she hesitate a second to go to pieces for
it?
He was determined to stick to the compact that they should do
nothing to interfere with what each referred to as the other's
"chance"; but what if, when hers came, he couldn't agree with her
in recognizing it? He wanted for her, oh, so passionately, the
best; but his conception of that best had so insensibly, so subtly
been transformed in the light of their first month together!
His lazy strokes were carrying him slowly shoreward; but the
hour was so exquisite that a few yards from the landing he laid
hold of the mooring rope of Streffy's boat and floated there,
following his dream.... It was a bore to be leaving; no doubt that
was what made him turn things inside-out so uselessly.
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