One's own life gets a
little unreal...until a thing like this happens..."
"I have never felt that," replied Joliffe thoughtfully.
"No? A remarkably clear brain," agreed the other with simple admiration.
"I've noticed how you never lose grip on things. That's why you've been so
successful with Edmund. But really, for myself, I confess that aa
revelation of this kindwhat the loss of Edmund would meanthe
sort of man you really arewakes me up, puts everything clearly."
"I don't see that the fact that I rescued Edmund, in the most ordinary
way, reveals the sort of man I am."
"But that kind of prompt action isn't expected ofof our type,
Joliffe. It's most unusual; the Doctor said so."
"I don't think Dr. Jones knows very much."
"No, but I agreed with what he meant. And it is settled about the
book."
Professor Awkwright felt very content for the rest of that day; the sense
of the absurdity of the accident, the irritating, disturbing excitement had
passed away. Edmund came down to tea and the household was stolidly normal
again; but the Professor continued, as he had himself put it, "to see
clearly"the vast value of Joliffe, for instance, and Edmund's
inarticulate and pathetic affection for him, and the very agreeable intimacy
that bound them all together; it was surprising how fond he was himself of
the unattractive, slightly "mental" youth; why, he believed that if Edmund
had really been killed the shock would have prevented him from finishing the
book.
When the two men settled down in the study that evening after Edmund had
gone to bed Professor Awkwright felt that their relationship had subtly
changed; never had they been so intimate, never so frank, as if there was no
possibility of any misunderstanding or irritation between them.
Joliffe seemed to "let himself go" intellectually; his usually respectful,
almost timid manner mellowed, he was more candid, more brilliant, slightly,
though quite unmistakably, different, Awkwright thought, from his habitual
self.
One of Mrs. Carter's most tempting dinners had celebrated Edmund's escape;
there had been good wine and afterwards, contrary to custom, good brandy.
Perhaps it was the brandy that stimulated the Professor's added sense of
clarity, of which he had been aware all day; a most temperate man, he had
always, on the few occasions when he had drunk liberally, been teased as to
the right naming of his heightened perceptions. Did alcohol give everything
an air of caricature, or did it allow you to see everything as it really
was?
Was it, for instance, just excitement and then the brandy that made him
think what a queer fellow Joliffe was?or had he, Awkwright, always had
his head so in the air that he had never before observed the strangeness of
his constant companion? Joliffe sat a little more at his ease than he had
ever sat before; a very tall, stiff, long-legged man, with an odd look of
being featureless; the only definite object about his face was his glistening
spectacles, for the rest a sandy glow seemed to blot out any salient point in
his countenance; even his profile seemed to mean nothing; a closer inspection
showed his features to be sharp, small and neat, his expression composed and
kindly.
He also must have been a little excited that night, also a little
stimulated by the occasion and the brandy, for he forgot (to the Professor's
amusement) to go up to his room and listen for the wireless news
bulletin.
Professor Awkwright had always refused to have wireless, gramophone or
telephone; but Joliffe, with meek persistence, had indulged in all in his own
room; he had little chance of using any of these inventions and he
scrupulously contrived so that they never annoyed the rest of the household;
but he liked to "sneak off," as the Professor put it with indulgent irony, to
listen to news, a talk, or a concert; but tonight he seemed to have forgotten
even the attraction of the evening bulletin which he so seldom missed.
The two elderly men talked of their researches, of the book that was going
to bring glory to both, and of the accident of yesterday which the Professor,
at least, could by no means dismiss from his mind.
"It was pure impulse," said Joliffe at last; "if I had reflected at all I
don't suppose that I should have done it."
"I'm sure that you would."
"No, because I always think that we attach too much importance to human
life. And Edmund wouldn't really mind dying; I daresay he'd be better off in
another state."
"I didn't know that you had those ideas."
"They aren't ideas. Surely, sir, you don't hold by all the orthodox
views"
"I'd really rather"
"Oh, the sacredness of human life, et cetera, et cetera?"
"I suppose so, I haven't quite thought it out."
"I have. I can't see, sir, how, after all your researches you can avoid a
broader view...look at the East, Russia, Mexico, todaylook at the
Elizabethans, look at America, at Italyand how they regard and have
regarded death"
"You don't think it mattersviolent death?"
"No. An intelligent man should be able to deal with deathgive it,
withhold it, accept it, avoid it, according to his reason. The world was more
worthwhile when this was so."
"But, my dear Joliffe, to argue like that is to condone murder," Awkwright
smiled, very comfortable in his chair, "and suicide."
Joliffe did not reply, he seemed sunk in a pleasing reverie; to rouse him
Awkwright said:
"I suppose one gets conventional-minded on these subjects, but I think the
West is right in the value put on human lifeour violences, our
indifferences to right and wrong, our cowardices are nothing, I fear, but
manifestations of the hidden ape, still lurking within so many of us,
alas!"
Joliffe listened to this speech with closed eyes.
"On the contrary," he declared, "I believe that the hidden ape in me made
me rescue Edmund."
"My dear Joliffe, as if apes"
"They doanimal affectionanimal devotion, no reason, no
logic. I am fond of Edmund."
"Why?" wondered the Professor rather wistfully.
"One doesn't know. The ape again! The boy never pretends, he is very wise
about some things, has extraordinary instincts! I believe I understand him as
no one else ever will."
Joliffe sat up suddenly. He was smiling, his small eyes looked yellow
behind the glasses, his movement seemed to dismiss the subject; they each
drank some more brandy and began to discuss the book; but this speedily
brought them to the same point; Joliffe remarked on the beauty of some of the
Minoan seals he had been copying the very morning of the accident, and
Awkwright's comment was that the artist who designed them had an evil
mind.
"Why?" challenged the tutor with his new freedom.
"Well, they are evil. The Minoans were, it is acknowledgedcruel;
consider their bull-leaping sportsno soul..."
"Nonsense!" Never had Joliffe expressed himself so boldly to his employer;
he seemed really excited, "They were simply too civilized to put so much
value on individual life"
"The hidden ape wasn't hidden, you mean?" smiled Awkwright.
They argued keenly and at length, remaining in the study long after their
usual hour for retiring; to Awkwright it was an entirely academical
discussion, but Joliffe seemed to throw more and more feeling into it until
he was making quite a personal point of his contention that no civilized
people would consider murder a crime.
The Professor did not know how they had got to this subject; it was
strange how the accident seemed to have thrown both a little out of their
stride, a little off their balance; even Awkwright felt the mental atmosphere
becoming distasteful, an unpleasant sense of unreality obscured the familiar
cosy room; he wished that Joliffe would not talk so much, so at random (and
he had never wished that before). He roused himself out of a disagreeable
lethargy to say, with a rather false attempt at authority:
"This sort of stuff is really absurd from a man like you, Joliffe." The
tutor rose and stood in front of the fire; his attitude was dogmatic, his
habitual featurelessness seemed to have developed into a face that Awkwright
did not recognize.
"Pardon me, my dear sir, how do you know what kind of man I am?"
"We have been intimate for eight years."
"But I know you much better than you know me."
"I don't agree.
"Well, what do you know of me? You said yourself that what I did yesterday
surprised you."
"But"
Joliffe talked him down.
"You've always accepted me on my face value, you just met me through an
agency. I had excellent credentials and you were quite satisfied. You never
asked me why I had no relations, no friends, why I never wanted a
holiday"
"My dear Joliffe," interrupted the Professor testily, "don't try to make
yourself out a mysterious person. I know you as just a solitary scholar like
myself, one who happens to have drifted away from his relatives and not cared
to make friends; come, come, this is all really rather childish."
"Is it?" Joliffe peered over his glasses down on the little man in the
chair, his face was sharpened by what seemed a queer vanity. "So you think
that you know me through and through?"
"My dear fellow, of course I do."
"Well, to begin with, my name isn't Samuel Joliffe."
The Professor tried to smile; he thought this was a joke, but it was
certainly a stupid, vulgar joke, and he wished that the tutor, who must
really be a little drunk, would be quiet and go up to bed.
"Do you remember the Hammerton caseten years ago?" demanded
Joliffe.
"As if I ever took the slightest interest"
"No, I thought you didn't. Well, it was the case of a man, an educated man
of means, well-connected, intelligent, being tried for the murder of his
wife. The usual arsenic from weed-killer."
"I do recall somethingHammerton was acquitted, wasn't he?"
"Yes. But no one thought he was innocent; the jury just gave him the
benefit of a very small doubt. A "not proven" it would have been in Scotland.
He was ruinedhe had to disappear."
"But I don't see what all this has got to do with anything"
"Wait a minute. Though everyone thought Hammerton was guilty, everyone had
a secret sympathy with him."
"Morbid sentimentality."
"No, his wife was such an awful woman, she nagged and whined and pestered
and was always sickly, and he was a very decent fellow; he just wanted peace
and quiet, and then, perhaps, one day she went too far even for his
patience"
"And the hidden ape leaped up in him? A very usual case"
"Not at all. Perhaps he used his reason and removed a worthless, tiresome,
repulsive creature"
"If he did he was a murderer," snapped the Professor. "And, since he was
acquitted, we have no right to assume that."
He rose, hoping to silence Joliffe, but the tutor leaned forward, took him
by the lapel of the coat, and said with a smile: "I am Hammerton."
The little Professor twisted and squealed in grotesque (through it all he
felt all was grotesque) horror.
"No," he cried, "no, we've both had too much to drink and it's time we
went to bed."
But the tutor did not release his calm, steady grasp on the other's
lapel.
"A man of your intelligence, sir," he said gently, "should not find my
information so surprising, I merely gave it to prove a point; it can't
possibly make any difference to our relationship."
"Of course you were acquitted, but, but it is very terrible, very
unfortunate.
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