She bought a new organ for the church, although
she cared nothing about music, and she spent many hours on her knees in her
high pew with the green curtains though she knew nothing about prayer.
She began several letters to her sister, formal epistles, asking after her
health, and the drama that she was appearing in, and asking, vaguely, for
news.
But she sent none of these.
Towards September she felt much more at ease and she began to think with a
great thankfulness that the haunting, as she secretly named it to herself,
had ceased. She could not, of course, forget Martha, but the figure of the
actress became vague and blurred in her mind, and for hours together, when
she was absorbed in some task or in some outside interest she would not think
at all of the woman in the full, beruffled, interchangeable blue and red
taffeta, in the little hat and the crimson feathers.
She began to cease wondering how Martha was employing her time, to cease
turning over in her mind, so ignorant of such affairs, the possible various
episodes of that alien yet closely connected life. She ceased to wonder and
to brood over these coquetries, the wickednesses, the successes of Martha.
She was soothed by a sense of being more fairly treated than she had hitherto
been, for it had always seemed to her grossly unjust that she, the virtuous,
the spotless, the irreproachable, should have been troubled in the slightest
by any thought of the worthless, the degraded, the contemptible.
Surely the reward for her noble life of complete self-sacrifice should, at
least, have been complete peace of mind.
'God,' she thought, 'should have seen to that.' And now she felt that He
had done so, for when she did think of her sister it was in a vague,
compassionate fashion. She would still wake up suddenly in the night, alert,
and full of exasperation, expecting to be challenged by that thought of
Martha. But now there would be emptiness, merely her large, handsome, silent
bedroom with the harvest moon showing through the unshuttered windows, and a
sense of security all about. She would think of Martha, certainly, but only
of someone very far away who did not concern her in the least.
She would lie contentedly in the large bed considering her own
possessions, Stibbards, full of her furniture, her silver, her pictures, her
china; the stables, with her horses in them, the park full of her timber and
sheep and cattle; her farms, well stocked, prosperous. All hers, glorifying
her, supporting her, giving her honour, dignity and importance, while Martha
had no part in any of them. Martha had run away from all this thirty years
before, when she had gone through the garden perfumed by the early currants,
and slipped away to her worthless young soldier, to whom she had not been for
very long faithful.
In the first week of September, Miss Kezia Faunce superintended the making
of pickles, sauces, and relishes from the early unripe fruit. Never yet,
since as a girl of ten or so she began to help her mother in these domestic
duties, had Miss Kezia missed the different picklings, preservings, jam and
wine making as they came round at their several times of the year. The
cupboards, closets, and presses of Stibbards were filled by the products of
her industry; perfumes, lotions, preserves, balm, aromatics, sweet waters,
washes, and confections, more than she would be able to use in the rest of
her life, stood stocked in the darkness that they filled with a musty
fragrance.
This year, when the last day of this work was over, Kezia Faunce felt
suddenly tired, almost as if she were going to be ill. She walked out into
the garden about the time of sunset in a lassitude that was too indifferent
to seek rest. The evening was cloudless, overwhelming in spacious gold, the
landscape was transfigured by the pure uninterrupted light of the western
sun; the air was full of Autumn fragrances, and from the house came the
mingled sour-sweet smell from the preserving-pans, still redolent of hot
spices and sugared fruits.
The large house was silent, as if everyone rested after the day's labour.
There was no one in the wide trim gardens but Miss Kezia Faunce herself. She
wiped continually with a delicate handkerchief the last sparkles of sugar
from her fingers. She felt a mingled sensation of excitement and
apprehension, but she did not think of Martha at all. She went to the herb
garden and noted how the various plants, hot and cold, moist and dry, were
growing in the warm air. Everything grew well that year. It seemed as if
there was going to be a splendid harvest of every kind of fruit, a thing that
Miss Kezia Faunce could not remember having happened beforeeverything
in fruitage at once. She found herself trembling and she sat down on the
circular stone seat beside the great beds of thyme, rosemary, and lavender,
all silver grey in that increasing golden light, for, as a lamp will flare up
at the last before it goes out, so as the sun finally sank it seemed to give
out a more powerful glow.
Miss Kezia Faunce thought that never before had she noted so much light.
She sat there on the semi-circular stone seat, between those high,
silver-grey plants of rosemary, lavender, marjoram; she felt her senses
becoming slightly confused and she had a sensation of light-headedness, as
she had often experienced before a severe thunderstorm. Her glance fastened
on a large rose bush in the bed opposite, which looked unnaturally tall and
seemed to have uncommonly large red thorns. There were no flowers now on this
bush, but she knew that it bore crimson blooms, the last of which had fallen
about a week ago.
She thought then, not definitely of Martha, but of a bill poster that she
had seen stuck up on an ugly brick wall in Paris as she drove to the station.
An actress with a nose and mouth something like her own, holding a large
bouquet of crimson roses with a white paper frill. The garden seemed too
large and the sky too vast, and the bright light of the sunset too
overwhelming for Miss Kezia Faunce's senses.
She turned and walked back towards the house as one seeking a refuge. She
had not quite reached the large terrace when she saw Sarah, the new
kitchen-maid, coming hurriedly towards her.
Miss Faunce frowned. It was not part of Sarah's duties to run errands or
take messages to her mistress and she certainly had no business to be in the
garden in the print dress and the white apron, now slightly sticky, which she
had worn to help in the pickling and the preserving.
Miss Kezia Faunce hastened her step with a rebuke ready on her lips, but
what Sarah had to say was so curious that Miss Faunce forbore her
reproof.
The little kitchen-maid, who spoke rather breathlessly, had, she said,
been standing at the kitchen door scouring out the last of Cook's pots when
she had looked up and seen a lady standing just before the square of
potherbs. She had stared at Sarah, smiled, turned away without a word, and
gone through the gate in the privet hedge towards the house. Sarah had run
after her, but lost sight of her. Then, seeing Miss Faunce in the distance,
she had thought that she should tell her of this stranger.
'What was there strange in it?' asked Miss Kezia quickly. 'It was some
visitor who had lost her way and come to the side kitchen door instead of to
the front entrance. I can't see anything peculiar about it, Sarah.'
'But she was so odd, ma'am, and not like anyone round here.'
'What was she like, child? Don't make so many words about nothing. What
was this lady like?'
'She was very finely dressed, ma'am, and had a queer look of you.'
'A look of me? What do you mean, child? Express yourself better. Do you
mean that she was like me?'
The kitchen-maid became confused under this severity.
'She was something like you, ma'am.
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