Dear, dear
Lily, I am not even yet so wretched but what I shall rejoice to be
told good news of you. If it only could be as John wishes it! And
why should it not? It seems to me that nobody has a right or a
reason to by unhappy except us. Good-by, dearest Lily,
Your affectionate friend,
Grace Crawley.
P.S.—I think I have made up my mind that I
will go back to Hogglestock at once if the magistrates decide
against papa. I think I should be doing the school harm if I were
to stay here.
The answer to this letter did not reach Miss Crawley till after
the magistrates' meeting on the Thursday, but it will be better for
our story that it should be given here than postponed until the
result of that meeting shall have been told. Miss Dale's answer was
as follows:—
Allington, ––
December, 186––
Dear Grace,
Your letter has made me very unhappy. If it can at all comfort
you to know that mamma and I sympathise with you altogether, in
that you may at any rate be sure. But in such troubles nothing will
give comfort. They must be borne, till the fire of misfortune burns
itself out.
I had heard about the affair a day or two before I got your
note. Our clergyman, Mr Boyce, told us of it. Of course we all know
that the charge must be altogether unfounded, and mamma says that
the truth will be sure to show itself at last. But that conviction
does not cure the evil, and I can well understand that your father
should suffer grievously; and I pity your mother quite as much as I
do him.
As for Major Grantly, if he be such a man as I took him to be
from the little I saw of him, all this would make no difference to
him. I am sure that it ought to make none. Whether it should not
make a difference in you is another question. I think it should;
and I think your answer to him should be that you could not even
consider any such proposition while your father was in so great
trouble. I am so much older than you, and seem to have had so much
experience, that I do not scruple, as you will see, to come down
upon you with all the weight of my wisdom.
About that other subject I had rather say nothing. I have known
your cousin all my life, almost; and I regard no one more kindly
than I do him. When I think of my friends, he is always one of the
dearest. But when one thinks of going beyond friendship, even if
one tries to do so, there are so many barriers!
Your affectionate friend,
Lily Dale.
Mamma bids me say that she would be delighted
to have you here whenever it might suit you to come; and I add to
this message my entreaty that you will come at once. You say that
you think you ought to leave Miss Prettyman's for a while. I can
well understand your feeling; but as your sister is with your
mother, surely you had better come to us,—I mean quite at once. I
will not scruple to tell you what mamma says, because I know your
good sense. She says that as the interest of the school may
possibly be concerned, and as you have no regular engagement, she
thinks you ought to leave Silverbridge; but she says that it will
be better that you come to us than that you should go home. If you
went home, people might say that you had left in some sort of
disgrace. Come to us, and when all this has been put right, then
you go back to Silverbridge; and then, if a certain person speaks
again, you can make a different answer. Mamma quite understands
that you are to come; so you have only got to ask your own mamma,
and come at once.
This letter, as the reader will understand, did not reach Grace
Crawley till after the all-important Thursday; but before that day
had come round, Grace had told Miss Prettyman,—had told both the
Miss Prettymans,—that she was resolved to leave them. She had done
this without even consulting her mother, driven to it by various
motives. She knew that her father's conduct was being discussed by
the girls in the school, and that things were said of him which it
could not but be for the disadvantage of Miss Prettyman that any
one should say of a teacher in her establishment. She felt, too,
that she could not hold up her head in Silverbridge in these days,
as it would become her to do if she retained her position. She did
struggle gallantly, and succeeded much more nearly than she was
herself aware. She was all but able to carry herself as though no
terrible accusation was being made against her father.
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